I’d like to first start this off by saying, yes, I have said therapy “was a waste of time and money” and “It’s Jewish brainwash” and I believe it to be a significant waste of time and money if you don’t have medical insurance. But, I will say this, as I told my therapist before, not being in therapy, helped me more than being in therapy, but not in the way that most people think.
I started therapy back in 2022, because I said I wanted to kill my mom and dad because I wasn’t getting enough sleep to get out of going to school, yes, I was that desperate. The bullying got way too much for me, and I had to wimp out for a week or two. Then, my school told me, if I don’t attend therapy, and didn’t give them weekly updates, I would get arrested and expelled or whatever.
Now before I continue, I want to clarify that this therapist is a foid, but there will be no glazing of foids in here, just an account of what happened, and why I mentally grew in the way I did.
I go to therapy for the first time, and honestly, I don’t say much, and this continues for the next few sessions. I begin talking to her slowly, and surely, we have full blown in conversations. Obviously, feeling isolated was one of my main issues back in 2022-2023, even before I discovered the blackpill for myself, so having someone to talk to consistently every week was nice, even if she was obligated by a job title, it was one of my best ways of coping. I felt heard, I felt seen, blah blah blah you know the basic shit.
Fast forward a year or so, like June 2024, and because of the guild or whatever my therapist was on, she had to go on strike, so I stopped seeing her, this was when I first discovered the blackpill ideology. And being exposed to the objective truth hurt, it broke me, more than I already was. I went to a dark place, I was angry all the time, lashing out at my family, actively being “a bad person” by normie standards, but even as much as I am entitled to be that way, for how much I went through, and still continue to go through, I didn’t want to do it, it makes me feel wrong, like I’m getting stabbed in the soul and shit. And instead, of switching to another therapist, I buckled down and gave myself therapy. I talked to the version of myself I want to be, which I was told not a lot of people can do.
And when I had that first conversation with myself around November 2024, I realized then that I didn’t really need “therapy” I just needed someone to talk to, even if it was myself. When I learned how to do this, I gained almost complete control over my emotions, I was wiser, more intelligent than I had ever been. I had stronger ideals, I didn’t buckle when challenged for my beliefs, I could take a bigger mental strain than before. Not being in therapy, helped me more than therapy ever could.
Now, would I recommend going to therapy? If you feel like you absolutely need it, sure. But to be honest, don’t waste the money, they mostly tell you the shit you already know.
I started therapy back in 2022, because I said I wanted to kill my mom and dad because I wasn’t getting enough sleep to get out of going to school, yes, I was that desperate. The bullying got way too much for me, and I had to wimp out for a week or two. Then, my school told me, if I don’t attend therapy, and didn’t give them weekly updates, I would get arrested and expelled or whatever.
Now before I continue, I want to clarify that this therapist is a foid, but there will be no glazing of foids in here, just an account of what happened, and why I mentally grew in the way I did.
I go to therapy for the first time, and honestly, I don’t say much, and this continues for the next few sessions. I begin talking to her slowly, and surely, we have full blown in conversations. Obviously, feeling isolated was one of my main issues back in 2022-2023, even before I discovered the blackpill for myself, so having someone to talk to consistently every week was nice, even if she was obligated by a job title, it was one of my best ways of coping. I felt heard, I felt seen, blah blah blah you know the basic shit.
Fast forward a year or so, like June 2024, and because of the guild or whatever my therapist was on, she had to go on strike, so I stopped seeing her, this was when I first discovered the blackpill ideology. And being exposed to the objective truth hurt, it broke me, more than I already was. I went to a dark place, I was angry all the time, lashing out at my family, actively being “a bad person” by normie standards, but even as much as I am entitled to be that way, for how much I went through, and still continue to go through, I didn’t want to do it, it makes me feel wrong, like I’m getting stabbed in the soul and shit. And instead, of switching to another therapist, I buckled down and gave myself therapy. I talked to the version of myself I want to be, which I was told not a lot of people can do.
And when I had that first conversation with myself around November 2024, I realized then that I didn’t really need “therapy” I just needed someone to talk to, even if it was myself. When I learned how to do this, I gained almost complete control over my emotions, I was wiser, more intelligent than I had ever been. I had stronger ideals, I didn’t buckle when challenged for my beliefs, I could take a bigger mental strain than before. Not being in therapy, helped me more than therapy ever could.
Now, would I recommend going to therapy? If you feel like you absolutely need it, sure. But to be honest, don’t waste the money, they mostly tell you the shit you already know.
