My entire experience in college has been pretty pathetic. I've never drunken, smoked, gone to a party, or even really been out with groups. I'm also khhv obviously. I kind of thought maybe this was the new normal for college or that everyone else was also like this. Just sit in your dorm all day doing homework shit, go get brutally mogged in class, eat in a public place with judgemental eyes, and then sleep.
I had nothing else. Right now i am in summer classes which is different, but really i don't go anywhere or do anything. I have one friend and he's in the military now so there really is nothing to do.
I was brutally awoken to the fact that this is not in fact normal, and that I'm just a failure. I was on Instagram and my sisters account popped up. Out of curiosity i clicked it to see what they were doing since they are in college away from us.
They are out partying at a nightclub and are wearing something like this, with a bunch of friends surrounding them
They drink, they smoke weed, they've had multiple boyfriends, they've even had stuff leaked on Instagram my classmates told me about in highschool.
All while i am still living like I'm fucking 13. My mom still does most the talking for me whenever she's around, won't let me get a peep out, mainly because I'm a slower talker so they just take over. Makes me feel humiliated like I'm a toddler.
She is a full blown adult with her own place while I'm still a kid trapped in a older body living with my parents and completely controlled by them. And we have the same parents. I lost. Your own sibling can mog you.
I had nothing else. Right now i am in summer classes which is different, but really i don't go anywhere or do anything. I have one friend and he's in the military now so there really is nothing to do.
I was brutally awoken to the fact that this is not in fact normal, and that I'm just a failure. I was on Instagram and my sisters account popped up. Out of curiosity i clicked it to see what they were doing since they are in college away from us.
They are out partying at a nightclub and are wearing something like this, with a bunch of friends surrounding them
They drink, they smoke weed, they've had multiple boyfriends, they've even had stuff leaked on Instagram my classmates told me about in highschool.
All while i am still living like I'm fucking 13. My mom still does most the talking for me whenever she's around, won't let me get a peep out, mainly because I'm a slower talker so they just take over. Makes me feel humiliated like I'm a toddler.
She is a full blown adult with her own place while I'm still a kid trapped in a older body living with my parents and completely controlled by them. And we have the same parents. I lost. Your own sibling can mog you.
