Blackpill The threshold of being alive

[Incline]

Is there any point living when you don't enjoy being around? I mean it's a pretty basic premise but somewhere for every human there must exist a line where by crossing it you will kill yourself because you can't take living anymore. But that line is not directly correlated with suffering because some people are simply too cowardly to kill themselves they would rather ride it out even if it means endless psychological torture, perhaps the only thing that could convince them otherwise is threat of physical pain inflicted by painful diseases like bone cancer.

I think this is also biological. If I sum up all factors of my life, I really don't have much reason to live, I live in an empty 'house', hard ot call it a house even, more like a room, do nothing, known nobody, I just kill time and recycle days, I don't even remember what I did for the past 7 years of my life, I just wageslave and live on maintenance mode, this is not a life worth living objectively. It's only delusions keeping me alive, that I'll ascend in my SEAmaxx, but even then I don't think I'll have what it takes to end my life after I remove all false hope or prove it wrong.

tl;'dr even my own genetics won't let me kill myself, I am inside a genetic prison with no walls and no escape can't even be allowed to taste death I must wait for it to come, what a very cruel world.

 

[Starfish]

Only reason people want you alive is to wageslave

 

[Incline]

Only reason people want you alive is to wageslave

 

[HotDogCel]

It's only delusions keeping me alive, that I'll ascend in my SEAmax

Idk much about seamaxx but it is not an impossible goal imo (if u are white.)

 

[HotDogCel]

A psychiatrist made a model about suicide I don't completely remember it but in his model, no matter how hard one's life is, some are never able to go through. There was three major pillar in his model and this one, (the ability to go through) is not for everyone unfortunately. If it was I wouldn't be there too as I have not even the possibility to escortmax. Trust and belief I would not be there. It is miserable to be like that. So I hope you can hang to your seamax dream and achieve it bro