Venting The thought of suicide recurs daily

[Justanotherbloke]

There's nothing here for me anymore, I've seen it all and know what my future will most likely look like.
Empty and doing the same shit I've always been doing.
At this point I'm just here for the sake of it, not living life, just floating through my 20s not trying to become too depressed. I'm still here cause I don't know if a headshot will hurt, and what's on the other side..
Those are the 2 reasons why I'm still here.
Apart from that I have no reason to be here anymore.

 

[|R12|]

Those are the 2 reasons why I'm still here.

What is important is that you are back.

 

[zd60]

relatable

 

[Justanotherbloke]

relatable

My daily routine helps, I Workout a lot, Run, kettlebell workouts etc, have a busy day schedule.
But depression hits evening time.
Very hard always.

I feel such heavy pressure on my chest, so heavy mentally.
I can't see myself living like this
I don't understand how other men can switch off on autopilot like abunch of zombies and not see the stuff that's happening.
I wish I was never born and I mean that sincerely.

 

[packardD]

There's nothing here for me anymore, I've seen it all and know what my future will most likely look like.
Empty and doing the same shit I've always been doing.
At this point I'm just here for the sake of it, not living life, just floating through my 20s not trying to become too depressed. I'm still here cause I don't know if a headshot will hurt, and what's on the other side..
Those are the 2 reasons why I'm still here.
Apart from that I have no reason to be here anymore.

at some point i got struck with the blackpill knowledge and since then my life has been absolute hell. Then jewuniversity started. Then this site. I am in hell every single day. Praying for my suffering to end every day. At least want to experience one day of total peace of mind, which apparently is not possible in this wretched jewish shitty world. I hate teenagers and i hope every single one of them with no exception just dies. TTD (Total Teenager Death) (in minecraft )

 

[Lonelyus]

Great food, Music, Gaming, Walking on the beach, Travelling, Meeting other truecels, Etc etc

 

[zd60]

My daily routine helps, I Workout a lot, Run, kettlebell workouts etc, have a busy day schedule.
But depression hits evening time.
Very hard always.

I feel such heavy pressure on my chest, so heavy mentally.
I can't see myself living like this
I don't understand how other men can switch off on autopilot like abunch of zombies and not see the stuff that's happening.
I wish I was never born and I mean that sincerely.

I wish all that shit would help me nothing has ever helped my depression, I just live everyday on a autopilot zombie like state its the only thing keeping me alive and drifting in this world but eventually the day will come I turn the gun on myself

 

[Icarus]

relatable

 

[Teru Mikami]

Yeah, it's over

 

[Justanotherbloke]

at some point i got struck with the blackpill knowledge and since then my life has been absolute hell. Then jewuniversity started. Then this site. I am in hell every single day. Praying for my suffering to end every day. At least want to experience one day of total peace of mind, which apparently is not possible in this wretched jewish shitty world. I hate teenagers and i hope every single one of them with no exception just dies. TTD (Total Teenager Death) (in minecraft )

I'm long past that stuff, I know everything now, and for me it's just not wanting to live anymore.
I know about women always having options and that it's not worth trying anymore cause you can't compete if she has hundreds of others, I know about the sexual revolution, I know about hypergamy, I know about those degenerate apps, I know about how maintaining one is impossible in the era of the internet cause of all the distractions, I know about mgtow, I know about redpill, I know about blackpill, I know about disloyalty, I know about feminism, I know about Jews, I know about everything and now I just want to die.
This world is not for me, I don't want to be associated with it and would rather be dead

 

[Justanotherbloke]

I wish all that shit would help me nothing has ever helped my depression, I just live everyday on a autopilot zombie like state its the only thing keeping me alive and drifting in this world but eventually the day will come I turn the gun on myself

It's still a monotonous life

 

[zd60]

It's still a monotonous life

always will be

 

[Justanotherbloke]

always will be

What do you do during the day then

 

[zd60]

What do you do during the day then

rot on here, consume content, drugs, eat slop, sleep maybe some gaming here and there not much else

 

[Justanotherbloke]

always will be

I'm gonna buy one off telegram if the time comes, there are channels here where I live, couple hundred bucks you have one.
I'm done really done.
Just shoot myself in the head or something.

When I was kid, I already suffer from trauma , my entire foundation of life is fucked si ce start

I see no reason to not do it

 

[zd60]

I'm gonna buy one off telegram if the time comes, there are channels here where I live, couple hundred bucks you have one.
I'm done really done.
Just shoot myself in the head or something.

When I was kid, I already suffer from trauma , my entire foundation of life is fucked si ce start

I see no reason to not do it

Yeah, my life was fucked from the start, The only reason I haven't done it yet is because I still like my drugs and watching the absurdity of this world but I don't plan on living past 40 if I make it 40 before drugs killing me i'll just off myself with my pistol takes less than 5 seconds and i'll just do it somewhere that isn't easily accessible so i'm guaranteed tto die anyways.

even if there is a split second of pain after the shot rings out it won't last and I have hopes that the silence afterwards will be very peaceful

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Yeah, my life was fucked from the start, The only reason I haven't done it yet is because I still like my drugs and watching the absurdity of this world but I don't plan on living past 40 if I make it 40 before drugs killing me i'll just off myself with my pistol takes less than 5 seconds and i'll just do it somewhere that isn't easily accessible so i'm guaranteed tto die anyways.

even if there is a split second of pain after the shot rings out it won't last and I have hopes that the silence afterwards will be very peaceful

I never did drugs, I'm sober and never drank alcohol,
But when I'm gonna kill myself, I will probably sedate myself before shooting myself in the head.

I don't want to do it when my dad is still around.
It's fucked up for him, if he should see me laying dead in my room or in the shed.
A dad burying his son is always fucked up.

I'm in a fucked up situation cause I can't hold out for much longer.
I need to find a solution, maybe in the shed in the backyard I don't know

 

[zd60]

I never did drugs, I'm sober and never drank alcohol,
But when I'm gonna kill myself, I will probably sedate myself before shooting myself in the head.

I don't want to do it when my dad is still around.
It's fucked up for hik if he should see me laying dead in my room or in the shed.

I'm in a fucked up situation cause I can't hold out for much longer.
I need to find a solution, maybe in the shed in the backyard I don't know

if you've never done drugs or alcohol before getting sedated before trying to actually go through with it might actually prevent you from doing it depending on what you take obviously it might sedate you too much, you could always just do the OD route but its not as peaceful but i've heard some fent od's are quite peaceful

 

[Justanotherbloke]

rot on here, consume content, drugs, eat slop, sleep maybe some gaming here and there not much else

I'm just gonna write a note or small letter, not keeping it emotional, but saying that it's not his fault.

I just say something like 'not every Guy is meant for this life'
And really say it's not his fault cause I don't want them to feel guilty you know.

 

[Lonelyus]

Yeah, my life was fucked from the start, The only reason I haven't done it yet is because I still like my drugs and watching the absurdity of this world but I don't plan on living past 40 if I make it 40 before drugs killing me i'll just off myself with my pistol takes less than 5 seconds and i'll just do it somewhere that isn't easily accessible so i'm guaranteed tto die anyways.

even if there is a split second of pain after the shot rings out it won't last and I have hopes that the silence afterwards will be very peaceful

What drugs and pistol are we talking about here?

 

[zd60]

I'm just gonna write a note or small letter, not keeping it emotional, but saying that it's not his fault.

I just say something like 'not every Guy is meant for this life'
And really say it's not his fault cause I don't want them to feel guilty you know.

I understand that yeah, I've thought leaving a note but then I often realize no one would actually read it in my life and it would probably just leave anyone who did read it with more questions than answers leaving them in perpetual frustation of not knowing the full details

 

[zd60]

What drugs and pistol are we talking about here?

wouldn't you like to know glowie, I have a very special edition pistol, and i just do any drug but mainly the easiest ones to get sure you can use some reasoning to figure that out

 

[Lonelyus]

I have a very special edition pistol, and i just do any drug but mainly the easiest ones to get sure you can use some reasoning to figure that out

Interesting reply, But nothing glows here, If you dont feel comfortable with the question we can skip it

 

[zd60]

Interesting reply, But nothing glows here, If you dont feel comfortable with the question we can skip it

nah i'm just joking lol, anyone with any osint knowledge could scrap my profile to find it, its just a glock

 

[Poindexter]

Pretty much same

The only reason i'm alive is because people will be happy that i'm dead

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Pretty much same

Daily too? There hasn't been a day that passed where I wasn't in the evening thinking of me pulling the trigger and leaving all this behind

 

[PolarIce20]

Sorry youre doing so bad man, i understand the sentiment and i hope you find hope soon

 

[Justanotherbloke]

hope you find hope soon

I'm well past that stage, otherwise I wouldn't be talking more and more frequently about killing myself.

I think the entire system is screwed, this world is gone, finished.

 

[poorenglishcel]

 

[Teru Mikami]

I WANT TO DIE, I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I WANT TO END MY FUCKING SUFFERING

 

[Pancakecel]

Relatable, man. Everyday is just being alone, trying to cope with whatever. I'd prefer to just cease existing, but Im too scared to jump off a tall building, or infront of a train etc.

Having to live like this for however many more years, in an increasingly sick and broken clown world seems exhausting and crippling.

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Im too scared to jump off a tall building, or infront of a train etc.

I see lots here talking about hanging, jumping etc. But that thought never crossed my mind once, that seems too painful even for a split second.
I'd rather shoot a bullet through my head and be done with it

 

[Pancakecel]

I see lots here talking about hanging, jumping etc. But that thought never crossed my mind once, that seems too painful even for a split second.
I'd rather shoot a bullet through my head and be done with it

Yeah, a bullet is ideal. Unfortunately I don't live in the US so, not an option.