It has been a while since i've last posted here: not that you should care ofc, i'm no celebrity.
Anyway, last time i've posted here i said that i had reached some sort of balance through escortcelling, independence and stuff, which still holds true.
Problem is, in the rare cases i go out to drink (with another truecel friend, it's the only social activity i do), i just get destabilized by the sight of young couples.
This evening was particulary unlucky for me, since i saw, in this order:
I burn in envy by the thought the first chad fucked those two, or the fact the other sluts were dressing that way to get the attention of other chads.
If those females were in their 20s or 30s it wouldn't have had the same effect, even if they were hot, since i can easily pay an escort of that age range and it's almost impossible to find good looking escorts in the 18-20 range (even if that happened in the past). Of course it's illegal to get a 14-18 escort so i will never experience the taste of a body that is so young.
Also, it's not only the sex otherwise i could think "a 16-19 year old pussy shouldn't be that different from a 22-25", it's the experience of going out on saturday evening and meeting with young slutty teens.
I'm almost 40 and i feel frozen in time in these occasions, i remember like yesterday being 20 having the same problems, but at that age was even worse because i was in the correct age range but i was too ugly to even hope to have a contact with girls like that.
Even if i'm not old i feel like i'm an old men, perving on teens that probably don't even view me as a threat.
I'm pretty sure tomorrow i will feel better, but this night will be pretty shitty.
Anyway, last time i've posted here i said that i had reached some sort of balance through escortcelling, independence and stuff, which still holds true.
Problem is, in the rare cases i go out to drink (with another truecel friend, it's the only social activity i do), i just get destabilized by the sight of young couples.
This evening was particulary unlucky for me, since i saw, in this order:
- chad with two hot teens: he was grabbing one of them by the ass and hugging her, the other one was kinda walking by herself but i have no clue what her role was, maybe he fucked them both;
- two hot girls in the yard of my flat, taking selfies while wearing short dresses
- while i was taking the elvator there was this hot teen (i remember her, she's the niece of an acquitance) and seeing her from a close distance made me crazy
I burn in envy by the thought the first chad fucked those two, or the fact the other sluts were dressing that way to get the attention of other chads.
If those females were in their 20s or 30s it wouldn't have had the same effect, even if they were hot, since i can easily pay an escort of that age range and it's almost impossible to find good looking escorts in the 18-20 range (even if that happened in the past). Of course it's illegal to get a 14-18 escort so i will never experience the taste of a body that is so young.
Also, it's not only the sex otherwise i could think "a 16-19 year old pussy shouldn't be that different from a 22-25", it's the experience of going out on saturday evening and meeting with young slutty teens.
I'm almost 40 and i feel frozen in time in these occasions, i remember like yesterday being 20 having the same problems, but at that age was even worse because i was in the correct age range but i was too ugly to even hope to have a contact with girls like that.
Even if i'm not old i feel like i'm an old men, perving on teens that probably don't even view me as a threat.
I'm pretty sure tomorrow i will feel better, but this night will be pretty shitty.
