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SuicideFuel The real advantage of the blackpill and why it is not enough

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Hello dear brocels,

I am not hating women, chads or normies – but I am a man in my mid-thirties, who has a light variant of "Morbus Crouzon". Just picture-google it and I assume you might agree with me, that I am to be considered a "truecel". (surgery not possible – I already checked that)

During the last ten years without sex, I thought I could overcome the longing for love, desire, intimacy and relationship. But I was wrong. The fear of rejection and ridicule kept me from trying to approach women. But now, I try to tackle this fear and I want to tell you why, even when there doesn't seem to be hope for a human like me.

The real advantage of the blackpill

I am working as a nurse in a retirement home for old people. I expect some of you to think, that this has to be the most fucking cucked job, a man can do. But it cemented one single realisation:

"It is not always good, to have a "natural death".

Even when you were a chad or a stacy or a becky or a normie. You might end up, bound to your bed, loosing your physical and mental capabilities and your dignity, eating and playing with your own shit. (literally!)

The advantage of the blackpill is a lesser attachment to life itself. Some of us are contemplating, killing ourselves – and the chance to decide your own time of death is a privilege in my opinion. Without love and companionship, I am free from the dilemma of suicide, because since there is no love for me in this world, there is no pain I cause, via my own suicide. I just midigate my own suffering.

Why it is not enough

Think for a second, what your situation might be, when you are old and ready to rope. Would you rather be certain, that you have done everything to find out, whether or not, there can be love in your life? Or would you rather take that rope thinking about something someone posted on reddit or some weird study someone conducted?!

The thing is – nobody can say with absolut certainty, that that's the case for you, except for yourself. Neiher a reddit-user, nor your bullies and especially not some pseudoscience, that tries to explain modern-day behavior by a thing our ancestors did over 10.000 years ago. (genetic memory might be a decent set-up for a popular action-adventure series, but the true "hardwired" genetic memory of humans can be seen in toddlers...there's just not that much there!)

In order to find out, whether or not, there is a chance for me, I got to be sceptical about the blackpill, seeing it as a possibility. But also be open to the blue and red pill, undertaking every possible measure to be assured, that there can be no love in my life, becoming the best version of myself, while collecting as many rejections as humanly possible.

Measures to undertake

BluePill – (I am alone, because of the way I think/feel)​
  • Meditation​
  • EFTs​
  • Affirmation/Afformation​
  • Clearings​
  • Fear Settings​
  • Fast Phobia Cures​
  • Getting used to adrenalin rushes ( skydiving, etc.)​
  • etc.​
RedPill – (I am alone, because of the way I act)​
  • Working out / Changing my diet​
  • Martial arts​
  • NLP​
  • Building up resilience by pushing myself into social situations​
  • Experiencing my own sexuality with sexworkers​
  • etc.​
WhitePill – (I am alone, because there is nothing else in my life)​
  • Arts​
  • Music​
  • Any other Passion​
BlackPill – (I am alone, because of my genetics)​
  • Rope
For me, personally, it helped with my motivation, tracking the hours I spend with all those different measures with a time tracking app (except for roping, obviously...at least so far ;-) ). And keeping track of the number of rejections with an excel sheet. In addition to that I hade a habit out of a strict 1-hour morning self-care routine.

Talking about our NPCs

There is an understanding, that women "use" men in different ways​
  • The Chad(lite) for sexual pleasure and procreating​
  • The Betabuxx for securing ressources​
  • The Orbiter for gaining and maintaing self-worth​
If we have to believe that, we, as incels, can do that too.​
  • The Neutrals (Female coworkers, costudents, family members or friends)​
    For gaining and maintaining adequate frame and reputation within soyciety
  • The Sexworkers (Women, we pay to have sex with)​
    For exploring and experiencing our own sexuality
  • The Rejectors (Women we approach online and offline)​
    For giving us actual proof, that there's no love for us ( or the opposite ;) )

Talking about hopium

Even when we think, our chances are slim. The sheer fact, that we exist, is the consequence of unbelievably improbable circumstances. So it absolutely has to be considered a miracle.

It is, in fact, ridiculous.

Completely left out the probability of a planet gaining all the stuff, that's necessary for intelligent life to evolve – even when it does, the chance of one single protein to form under these circumstaces was calculated as

1:100.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000.000000.000.000.000.
000.000.000.000000.000.000.000000.000.000.000000.000.000.000000.000.000.000000.000.000.000000.000.000.000 (1 : 10^164)

AND IT STILL HAPPENED!
Everything happened!

I'm not advocating, believing in miracles. I'm advocating being sceptical about the impossibility of a miracle happening to us. Because there has to be some hope left in order to do everything we can and make an informed decision at the end of this journey with at least some contentment at out final moments! Death is inevitable, whether we are choosing the time and place or not. But we can make decisions now, that will alter our feelings about ourselves, life and death, when we check out.


I'm probably gonna be banned after this post, but that's ok, since I'm not planning to write any more posts on this board.
I wish you all the best of luck.











 
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comparing a miracle done by god(god can literally create life out of nothing) to a random incel getting pussy is a wack comparison,but i get it.


i have much respect for truecels and even more for oldcels.it's true that there is always some 0.00000000000001% chance,but very few men will look at that chance as anything more then a joke.i hope you find some joy in this life.
 
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Strongest greycel post I've seen in quite some time.

This better not be your one and only post.
 
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comparing a miracle done by god(god can literally create life out of nothing) to a random incel getting pussy is a wack comparison,but i get it.
I don't believe in god. But I see, how believing in god can be helpful. Either you have someone to make responsible for our misery or you can take comfort in the thought, that there is an entity somewhere, who wants you to live for a reason - to grow and to learn with the pain we have to endure.

Loneliness and Love then are just two different experiences, that we can both use to become a fuller and more mature person. Yeah, loneliness is the more difficult task to undertake - by far. But maybe we could use that to form an understanding of life and beauty, that's less shallow than the usual understanding of human value that society (and IT for example) proclaims.
Strongest greycel post I've seen in quite some time.

This better not be your one and only post.
Thank you, that's very nice of you :feelsautistic:
did you have sex 10 years ago? :feelswhat:
I did. I escortcelled when I was 24 years old. And I had a long-distance-relationship with a girl I met online, which lasted about 1,5 years.

I don't agree with a lot, that is posted in this forum. But I see, that all of this hatred comes from pain. And all of the hatred that is geared towards incels comes from privilige like from IncelTears. They ARE indeed disgusting, because they would have all the necessary ressources to exercise compassion, but for whatever reasons, they choose otherwise.

There is a lyric of a song, that I like, that fit's my reasons to post here a lot. It can be translated roughly like this:

"The place, where the wounded are living - That's where I want to be"

I understand, that it is a vastly different situation to be a virgin, than to be just extremely hopeless to find real intimacy and love in ones life. And I understand the rules of the forum. That's why I suspected to be banned. I just wanted to get these thoughts I had, out there.
 
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I was thinking about something today kinda regarding that, or something in general, but ultimately, I think we might be on the same page.

With all my obsessions with roping and crafting the perfect method (my yew potion), I find that it may go hand-in-hand with trial and error. I could’ve just given up and settled for the inferior methods that require less work, but I didn’t. Each time I fail, I try again and improve. It’s kinda like leveling up, or… trial and error.

Then I started thinking about a bizarre scenario of a hostage situation where everyone is hiding and fearing for their lives, but in that fantasy, I pretty much get up with an intent to simple be a hero to test myself, knowing full well I could die. But assuming quantum immortality is true and that we can never truly die, I’ll be “killed” once, and should I happen to respawn and continue in a scenario which I’m not killed, I’d become fearless and charge at the perpetrator with him pulling the trigger on me with no effect and boom! Take him out. It kinda feels like a kind of situation in which you have to fail constantly in order to achieve your goal. Considering I could’ve died 100 times, but in the end, I pulled off a miracle.

Perhaps it’s the same with the idea of “ascending” as well. Not to say I’m bluepilled, but… I think that’s what it all is. There is no wrong answer, so long as you’re able to prove yourself to be stronger than you were once made to believe.

It’s an infinite grid of possibilities.
 
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Great post hope you stay around for a little longER
 
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Nice post bro sorry about your condition

What would you say about a 29 year old hapacel that has no career besides factories and lives with his parents

I’m just curious to see your positive spin on it
 
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[...]Then I started thinking about a bizarre scenario of a hostage situation where everyone is hiding and fearing for their lives, but in that fantasy, I pretty much get up with an intent to simple be a hero to test myself, knowing full well I could die. But assuming quantum immortality is true and that we can never truly die, I’ll be “killed” once, and should I happen to respawn and continue in a scenario which I’m not killed, I’d become fearless and charge at the perpetrator with him pulling the trigger on me with no effect and boom! [...]

Perhaps it’s the same with the idea of “ascending” as well. Not to say I’m bluepilled, but… I think that’s what it all is. There is no wrong answer, so long as you’re able to prove yourself to be stronger than you were once made to believe.

It’s an infinite grid of possibilities.
Great post - so you use this "hero moment" as a metaphor for approaching and trying to get into contact with a woman, that you are attracted to. You are failing and failing but always respawning and becoming more fearless. I wish that for myself but it seems like VERY far away. But I hope to become more resilient to fear and stress through skydiving.
Great post hope you stay around for a little longER
Thank you :)
Nice post bro sorry about your condition

What would you say about a 29 year old hapacel that has no career besides factories and lives with his parents

I’m just curious to see your positive spin on it
I had to google, what hapacel means. I'm not really buying the "racepill". In my mid-twenties, i tried Onlinedating for the first time. I got always rejected, of course. Most of the times without an answer (like today) - sometimes with very harsh resentment because of my condition. But I can remember a couple of girls saying, they were only into asian guys.

But the fact that you are still living with your parents can be a huge turnoff, i think. (depending on where you live. In some southern-european countries, it's pretty normal to live with your parents at your age). Isn't there any possibility, you can move out?
 
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Great post - so you use this "hero moment" as a metaphor for approaching and trying to get into contact with a woman, that you are attracted to. You are failing and failing but always respawning and becoming more fearless. I wish that for myself but it seems like VERY far away. But I hope to become more resilient to fear and stress through skydiving.
It’s one of them, but yeah. Realistically, I don’t really talk to women unless spoken to.
 
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Whitepill is coping after know your place. Not before.
 
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delete the used up foids in retirement home in minecraft. that will be lifefuel.
 
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I came to this site to teach incels how to use black magick.
 

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