I can’t stand the shape of my skeleton.. my wide pelvis, shorter collar bones etc. my skin is so unhealthy and disgusting that I can only look in the mirror with certain lighting otherwise I’m so disgusted and horrified by the sight of my face that I don’t want to leave my room and I want to just off myself right there. I literally am surprised when people in real life treat me normally because I feel so ugly and deformed looking, I’m surprised no one has just killed me from pure impulses of aggressive disgust. I just want to let go and give up on life, I want to remove my inhibitions and live life ignorantly and happily but I just can’t. I’m so hinged to negative thoughts that it controls my every move, the only thing that helps me is drugs. I just really wish I felt normal, I’m tired of feeling such disgust
