Brutal The oppressive perception of the lack of progress

[Giracel]

I keep thinking about going recently with my dad and brother to this old badminton court I took lessons at like 7 summers ago. While waiting for a court to open up, I was perceiving the fact of being back there, and I realized, they've won. I went from 16 to 22 without a girlfriend, they've won. I'm right back where I started—don't even have a friend to invite so we are still playing the awkward 3 person per court that we always did.

The worst part was seeing this cute asian girl on another court who reminded me of my HS oneitis. She was smol and had her hair tied into a ponytail. I saw her close up briefly when she walked near our court and she even looked similar in the face, similar features like the ears sticking out some from the head.

The whole thing was like a dream sequence but the kind of dream that leaves one with the most sinister sensation of wrongness upon waking.

 

[HyperboreanCavalier]

who won exactly? Who is they?

 

[Giracel]

who won exactly? Who is they?

Everyone who wanted to prevent me from having a girlfriend: feminists, communists, certain religious ideologues, my HS oneitis' mother, you name it. They all fucking won.

Sometimes I talk big with theory, but what good is it really, at this stage?

 

[HyperboreanCavalier]

Everyone who wanted to prevent me from having a girlfriend: feminists, communists, certain religious ideologues, my HS oneitis' mother, you name it. They all fucking won.

Sometimes I talk big with theory, but what good is it really, at this stage?

Just go mad, its what I did. Waiting for the day when my madness progresses to where I'm completely delusional

 

[Giracel]

Just go mad, its what I did. Waiting for the day when my madness progresses to where I'm completely delusional

I want to reach cathuluelitist levels of insane theorizing. There's also a former user I've heard of from before my time, Intellau, who is someone I wish to emulate.

 

[HyperboreanCavalier]

I want to reach cathuluelitist levels of insane theorizing. There's also a former user I've heard of from before my time, Intellau, who is someone I wish to emulate.

I mean downright barking mad, to the point I think I am a medieval knight and become some kind of a troglodyte

 

[Giracel]

I mean downright barking mad, to the point I think I am a medieval knight and become some kind of a troglodyte

Well, we're not there yet

 

[HyperboreanCavalier]

Well, we're not there yet

no, but I aim to be. Then my life would be a dream