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Story The only girl I've ever been close with

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DepravedAndDeprived

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Title reads like a brag but trust me, it's not. She was the craziest bitch you'll meet and it blackpilled me to my core. Also inb4 larp accusations: go kill yourselves.

This lovely story starts in 2012. My mum tried to an hero by ODing on valium (JFL) and got locked into a suicide clinic. Being the good-boy son that I was I would occasionally pay her a visit. Through my mum I met with a chick that we'll call Maria (named after the Virgin Mother for ironic effect). Maria was a BPD chick, around the same age as myself, who tried and failed to starve herself and ended up in the same clinic.

Now as some of you know I got diagnosed with turbo autism as a little boy so my mom figured that since Maria and I were both socially retarded (or "neurodivergent" as SJWs like to call it) we would understand each other on a deeper level.

It started with some occasional superficial contact (entirely online ofc because I was a highinhib faggot). But we soon started winning each others' trust and that's when the magic started to happen. I basically grew into the role of what we would call an emotional tampon. At first, that just amounted to listening to Maria's complaints, but over time it developed, like a cancer, until at one point she shared with me all her BPD-tier garbage, and she had me by the balls.

Maria would do the most retarded things to get attention. She'd message me to announce that she'd hang herself and me being a low T cuck I would invariably tell her not to do it and try to comfort her. On several occasions she would literally slit her wrists and then send me pictures of the bloodied mess, and me being a little bitch I would freak out and tell her to stop and remind her of how much she's loved and all that gay shit.

But I empasise that there was nothing in return. I never fucked her or had any kind of relationship with her. No hugs. No handholding. No kiss. Nothing. (I wouldn't want to anyway but that's beyond the point. I just don't want to get b&.) But she was a gigantic whore, like, beyond all reason. She'd jump from boyfriend to boyfriend in no time, and cry about how each and every one of them were crazy. And in fairness to her, most were indeed crazy. Pathetic guys usually. Definitely no Chads. Even Chad knows to avoid BPDs like a plague. Shit was ridiculous.

Why was Maria so crazy? Here's the funny thing. Her life was just fine. She had the most kind parents you'd ever meet, they did *everything* to ensure their daughter would be happy. And they were rich, too. Nonetheless she always said something traumatic happened that caused her to be a mess and one day she opened up about it. I honestly don't remember that it was except that it was the most pathetic story I'd ever heard. Like, the event was so *mild* and normal that I just couldn't grasp what she was complaining about, even back then.

I lost contact with her over the years, mostly because I grew up and realised that this bitch was just draining to talk with, and it got me nothing in return. But in case you're scared that she killed herself, don't worry. Years later I found out that she basically just found some betabuxx whom she married and last I heard she's enjoying a rich life in Spain. So yeah, Just Be A Psycho Bitch Theory, buddy boyos.
 
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what tutorial mode does to a mf
 
Mental hospital maxxing is legit tbh.

If there's a unicorn out there youre going to find her in a psych ward. The only females ive been able to talk to without stabbing my eardrums out was when i was institutionalized
 
Mental hospital maxxing is legit tbh.

If there's a unicorn out there youre going to find her in a psych ward. The only females ive been able to talk to without stabbing my eardrums out was when i was institutionalized
Yeah just deal with mental asylum tier women bro.
 
Mental hospital maxxing is legit tbh.

If there's a unicorn out there youre going to find her in a psych ward. The only females ive been able to talk to without stabbing my eardrums out was when i was institutionalized
I've heard of this too. Incel tier sperg nothings have managed to get girlfriends or lose their virginities with decent looking girls in the ward.
I mean there are obvious downsides but what are you going to do.
 
What happened?
This gonna be a long one

2nd year of uni i hit a real low point. I gradeslaved hard through high school and got into an elite uni but contrary to the delusions my parents fed me i didnt find people who could relate to me intellectually nor socially. So i was basically getting looksmogged and lifemogged, realizing no amount of effort would improve my situation, discovering the blackpill at this time etc

so basically all the delusions that kept me motivated to work hard had come crashing down. Plus in this uni the PC SJW culture was hardcore and taken seriously—the kind of place where people unironically ask your pronouns when introducing themselves. If i was honest with myself i shouldve dropped out or transferred after my first year, but i persisted because i had sunk my whole youth into getting into an elite university, sunk-cost fallacy essentially.

So at some point i just couldnt force myself out of bed to go to classes anymore. I just ghosted everything for a week and finally told my parents im dropping out. They convinced me to see a counselor because if i left for mental health reasons i could get the tuition back. Ive met therapists before this and knew not to reveal my power level but at this point i was so fucked up mentally and not thinking straight i admitted to the shooty-shoot wrongthink when they asked. Ironically part of me was worried they wouldnt take me seriously enough because my past therapists always dismissed me when i brought up romantic shit.

So aftER i answered that the black foid counselor bitch said she thought i should go to the hospital. I said yes because at this point i knew i fucked up and knew she'd just do it involuntarily if i said no. After i agreed she left to tell the admins and cops and had some other bitch watch me to make sure i didnt run. Two university cops came in. They had me lift up my shirt to check for weapons but i had none of course so all they saw was my ileostomy bag jfl. After that they escorted me out the back way of the clinic to the cop car, didnt cuff my or anything.

They escorted me to the emergency room where a crisis counselor interviewed me and another pair of cops came in to question me. The guys that drove me there will chill university cops but these guys were hardass city cops with big ass vests and shit. They unironically did the good cop-bad cop thing questioning me if i had any weapons and asked me for consent to search my dorm. I didnt have anything to hide so i signed off. I stayed in the ER for the night and in the morning they took me to the actual mental hospital in an ambulance with the gurney straps and shit.


This is getting long so i will skip some details and get to the foids. The ward was targeted for young adults age 14-25. There was about a dozen of us total but the only guys aside from myself was one full on schizo autist and a 14 yr old gay kid, and a tranny. So basically no male competition for the foids.

There were some real ugly foids that cut themselves but also some cute ones. One was a legit giga stacy who was supposedly raped and had ptsd. She was nice to me but not flirty or anything. At one point during group therapy she mentioned her therapist called her a serial monogamist jfl. Later i asked her what her "boyfriend" count was after counting on her fingers she said 23 :feelskek:.

The other girl that was actually nice to me was a 15 yr old Russian jb, her diagnosis was anorexia but i never saw her refuse to eat or anything though she was real skinny. Plus were parents did let her have a cell phone or social media but she had a laptop and would browse r9k a lot so we talked a lot about that and drew pepes during art therapy and other things. She was actually there for two weeks before i came in, and i was only there a week. Supposedly she was going to get shipped to some wilderness camp in arizona, but they released me first si i have no idea where she ended up.

Theres a lot of other details but at this point i should make it's own thread. AMA i guess
 
so basically all the delusions that kept me motivated to work hard had come crashing down. Plus in this uni the PC SJW culture was hardcore and taken seriously—the kind of place where people unironically ask your pronouns when introducing themselves.
Brutal, and also very recognisable. I worked very hard to succeed in uni but over time I got severely disillusioned by the incompetence and by the far-left poliical atmosphere. It hurt because I invested so much time in my studies.

I don't regret it though. I was lucky not to pursue a meme degree so I luckily found good use for my hard work outside academida.

They convinced me to see a counselor because if i left for mental health reasons i could get the tuition back. Ive met therapists before this and knew not to reveal my power level but at this point i was so fucked up mentally and not thinking straight i admitted to the shooty-shoot wrongthink when they asked. Ironically part of me was worried they wouldnt take me seriously enough because my past therapists always dismissed me when i brought up romantic shit.
Fuck, that's basically a death sentence. Therapists are predators looking to eat your soul --- just ask @Atavistic Autist.

How long were you imprisoned? What happened when you got out? Did you need to convince them you were (((recovered)))? (Or did you blackpill the staff into realising the world is crazy and you're the sane one? :feelsEhh: )

Later i asked her what her "boyfriend" count was after counting on her fingers she said 23 :feelskek:.
:feelspuke:

her diagnosis was anorexia but i never saw her refuse to eat or anything though she was real skinny.
Many of them puke afterwards. They just stick two fingers up their throats like it's nothing.

AMA i guess
How are you now? Did you ever finish your degree? Or did you find wageslave opportunities elsewhere?
 
Fuck, that's basically a death sentence. Therapists are predators looking to eat your soul --- just ask @Atavistic Autist.
Yep i've seen his posts, theyre based and match up with everything i've experienced with the mental health system. Therapists really are the modern day Stasi trained to bluepill the mind and keep people satisfied grinding away for the status quo.
How long were you imprisoned? What happened when you got out? Did you need to convince them you were (((recovered)))? (Or did you blackpill the staff into realising the world is crazy and you're the sane one? :feelsEhh: )
I was in there for a week and they released me. I accepted their jewpills and played the good patient game especially after seeing how long the russian chick was there. Part of me honestly wanted to stay because i was the mogger instead of the mogged for once in my goddamn life.

There was one fat betabux counselor i opened up to. I didnt bother trying to blackpill him but he didnt bullshit me and admitted he had a hard time until his post-carousal roasty settled for him.
Many of them puke afterwards. They just stick two fingers up their throats like it's nothing.
Bulimia is when they gorge and puke afterwards. Anorexia diagnoses are based on food deprivation and you also have to be underweight. Idk it's all subjective pathologization anyway.

How are you now? Did you ever finish your degree? Or did you find wageslave opportunities elsewhere?
I am doing a lot better now, no thanks to the theRaping. I transferred to a less-demanding though decent 4-year college where i can commute to campus. For me living in my parent's basement in a suburban neighborhood is far better quality of life than feeling like a rat caged into a tiny dorm room getting mogged constantly.

Leaving in the middle of the semester fucked things up a bit. For the rest of that year i waged at a gardening store which was a nice change of pace actually. Im now in my last year of my meme psychology degree jfl. I didnt go into it to be a therapist. I was experimenting with psychedelics for a couple years beforehand and was aspiring to study them in an academic context or some adjacent area of research.

Rn i have an internship as a govcuck bureaucrat in human resources and have a position lined up after i graduate. So worse comes to worse i have a decent generic office job leeching of the taxpayers. I dont get drug tested now and don't think i will be either. I don't want to bother with grad school. Things are alright i guess :smonk:
 
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Damn bro you were an emotional tampon for this crazy bitch and got 0 pussy for it? Sad shit, I did some similar stuff when I was younger and more retarded. Sometimes the bitch sends me a million messages and I dnr. AWALT and all foids are gross whores. Kinda want to send her my dick and just straight up block her after reading ur story tho
 

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