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When I was a young incel, I tried so hard.
Every waking moment I spent trying to figure out a way to ascend.
I would exercise so much it was insane.
I’d make sure my hair was perfect, my teeth always brushed.
My clothes had to look good and I’d change clothes every time they got slightly dirty.
My car had to be fast. Not only fast, but look cool too.
I’d hyper focus on every conversation, every little interaction. And I’d replay them in my head, over and over, thinking about what I could have done differently.
It was exhausting. The sheer amount of energy I put into trying to ascend.
Then, one day, I reached the fuck it point.
Or….the point of not giving a fuck.
For whatever reason, I had seen enough.
I had been an incel long enough.
Long enough to be convinced that it was all pointless.
In my 40’s and never even been on a date, never even kissed a foid, never even hugged a foid.
I accepted that it was over.
At first, the universe shook with my rage.
But, slowly the rumbling subsided.
Now, I am free.
I am free because I don’t give a fuck about anything.
Every waking moment I spent trying to figure out a way to ascend.
I would exercise so much it was insane.
I’d make sure my hair was perfect, my teeth always brushed.
My clothes had to look good and I’d change clothes every time they got slightly dirty.
My car had to be fast. Not only fast, but look cool too.
I’d hyper focus on every conversation, every little interaction. And I’d replay them in my head, over and over, thinking about what I could have done differently.
It was exhausting. The sheer amount of energy I put into trying to ascend.
Then, one day, I reached the fuck it point.
Or….the point of not giving a fuck.
For whatever reason, I had seen enough.
I had been an incel long enough.
Long enough to be convinced that it was all pointless.
In my 40’s and never even been on a date, never even kissed a foid, never even hugged a foid.
I accepted that it was over.
At first, the universe shook with my rage.
But, slowly the rumbling subsided.
Now, I am free.
I am free because I don’t give a fuck about anything.
