My cousin and i would play video games with each other often, we live near each other but i don't speak to him in real life. This is something we've been doing for the past 7 years. A couple weeks ago he introduced me to this foid MTB on the game but who he knew in real life and we only spoke on 2 occasions, but being as starved of female interaction as i am, I immediately became attracted to her. Now, this going to sound very cucked but even though i was attracted to her, from the moment we met, I could tell she perceived me as subhuman, just by my voice and behavior, and she was giving all the attention to my cousin. I later told my cousin i liked her.
After the last time we spoke, I kept trying to call my cousin so we could get on the game, and he was acting strange, like just straight ignoring me at first and then began just telling me hes "busy" Then he would answer my calls and on EVERY single occasion he was hanging out with this girl in real life. I remember i texted him "what are you doing?" and he responded with a cat emoji (implying pussy, which i did not understand at the time) and then 15 minutes later he called me and him and this girl were both together again and laughing their asses off.
He later called me and told her to get her attention by commenting on her instagram because "she likes me" so i did, waited, and then eventually showed my cousin my comment on her profile and asked why she wasn't answering and he just said "she showed me lol" At this point i was obviously completely oblivious to the fact i was being "cucked" and bullied. I then asked for her number, he gave it and sent a winking emoji and i tried talking to her but was just left with dry responses and bullying and then i told her i like her and she makes fun of me and blocks me.
This whole pile of shit begins to reach its conclusion when i call my cousin the next day, just for this fucking foid to answer, dying of laughter, telling me that my cousin is deep inside of her at that moment, while he laughs in the background. my heart sank and i got sick to my stomach and then they hung up. I soon texted my cousin with tons of messages telling him i would rape her and kill him and things like that, and i also later bullied her on her IG account until she deleted it/blocked me. I'm getting a new phone soon and i'm honestly thinking of sending her a cum tribute with my new number but i don't think anything will make me feel better about this fucking suifuel level humiliation
I've been blackpilled for years on a logical level, but i subconsciously have hope which unfortunately leads to humiliation like this. Bluepill is way more mentally damaging for subhumans than just acknowledging the fact that it never began. Fuck my stupid ass cousin, he mogs me in every way too. Better looking, taller, NT, more extroverted, more athletic, just total fucking ropefuel
After the last time we spoke, I kept trying to call my cousin so we could get on the game, and he was acting strange, like just straight ignoring me at first and then began just telling me hes "busy" Then he would answer my calls and on EVERY single occasion he was hanging out with this girl in real life. I remember i texted him "what are you doing?" and he responded with a cat emoji (implying pussy, which i did not understand at the time) and then 15 minutes later he called me and him and this girl were both together again and laughing their asses off.
He later called me and told her to get her attention by commenting on her instagram because "she likes me" so i did, waited, and then eventually showed my cousin my comment on her profile and asked why she wasn't answering and he just said "she showed me lol" At this point i was obviously completely oblivious to the fact i was being "cucked" and bullied. I then asked for her number, he gave it and sent a winking emoji and i tried talking to her but was just left with dry responses and bullying and then i told her i like her and she makes fun of me and blocks me.
This whole pile of shit begins to reach its conclusion when i call my cousin the next day, just for this fucking foid to answer, dying of laughter, telling me that my cousin is deep inside of her at that moment, while he laughs in the background. my heart sank and i got sick to my stomach and then they hung up. I soon texted my cousin with tons of messages telling him i would rape her and kill him and things like that, and i also later bullied her on her IG account until she deleted it/blocked me. I'm getting a new phone soon and i'm honestly thinking of sending her a cum tribute with my new number but i don't think anything will make me feel better about this fucking suifuel level humiliation
I've been blackpilled for years on a logical level, but i subconsciously have hope which unfortunately leads to humiliation like this. Bluepill is way more mentally damaging for subhumans than just acknowledging the fact that it never began. Fuck my stupid ass cousin, he mogs me in every way too. Better looking, taller, NT, more extroverted, more athletic, just total fucking ropefuel
