
VλREN
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Every time I try to sleep am constantly imagining myself cuddling with a foid and maintaining a relationship with her, looking back I’ve been doing it since I was 5. Not even joking that’s how long I’ve been doing it.
I’ve been listening to all of of Dbdrs videos today and I just realized how lucky I am, but I am finding myself more and more fearful of the future. But anyway when I fantasize about cuddling with a foid I literally become super paranoid and start thinking about all the bad stuff that life can bring upon us all. I also get this feeling too when I am actually enjoying something in my life, whenever I actually have fun I begin to feel paranoid.
Anyway it’s just super annoying every time I go to bed because it’s constant romance fantasies with foids.
Hell some times I’ll stand up in the dark and act them out, like I’ll pretend to hug a imaginary foid and what not.
It’s not really about any specific foids like a IRL or famous/video game foid or anything, I’ll only occasionally have those. But I am currently fantasizing about blood Mary form twisted metal black.
But it gets kinda painful because there’s only so much you can actually fantasize about until it becomes mindless slop like everything else
But usually when I fantasize about having a GF she’s usually faceless most of the time, it’s usually built around the concept of having a gf.
But I assume that if I ever get at a GF it would be super disappointing. Like everything in life
I should probably get some sleep anyway
I’ve been listening to all of of Dbdrs videos today and I just realized how lucky I am, but I am finding myself more and more fearful of the future. But anyway when I fantasize about cuddling with a foid I literally become super paranoid and start thinking about all the bad stuff that life can bring upon us all. I also get this feeling too when I am actually enjoying something in my life, whenever I actually have fun I begin to feel paranoid.
Anyway it’s just super annoying every time I go to bed because it’s constant romance fantasies with foids.
Hell some times I’ll stand up in the dark and act them out, like I’ll pretend to hug a imaginary foid and what not.
It’s not really about any specific foids like a IRL or famous/video game foid or anything, I’ll only occasionally have those. But I am currently fantasizing about blood Mary form twisted metal black.
But it gets kinda painful because there’s only so much you can actually fantasize about until it becomes mindless slop like everything else
But usually when I fantasize about having a GF she’s usually faceless most of the time, it’s usually built around the concept of having a gf.
But I assume that if I ever get at a GF it would be super disappointing. Like everything in life
I should probably get some sleep anyway