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Life passing by as I watch
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My mind cycle before the blackpill:
"I must work hard so others like me" -> Work hard -> Nobody gives a shit -> Feel sad -> Stop working hard -> Blame myself for not being liked -> "I must work hard" ...
My mind cycle after taking the blackpill:
"Nobody will like me anyway" -> Do whatever I want to -> Work hard only on things that I enjoy -> Enjoy activities because I am doing them for myself -> Nobody likes what I do but I couldn't care less -> "Nobody likes me anyway"
I can feel my lack of pleasure (anedonia) being healed, like a brain tumor that is healing itself day by day, because I can FINALLY stop giving a single shit.
"I must work hard so others like me" -> Work hard -> Nobody gives a shit -> Feel sad -> Stop working hard -> Blame myself for not being liked -> "I must work hard" ...
My mind cycle after taking the blackpill:
"Nobody will like me anyway" -> Do whatever I want to -> Work hard only on things that I enjoy -> Enjoy activities because I am doing them for myself -> Nobody likes what I do but I couldn't care less -> "Nobody likes me anyway"
I can feel my lack of pleasure (anedonia) being healed, like a brain tumor that is healing itself day by day, because I can FINALLY stop giving a single shit.