after a long night of crying to some sad music thinking of all the teen love experiences all the people my age are having/already have had that i am missing out on because im ugly and non-NT, i find that the best cope is funneling sadness into hatred and anger towards foids and normies. music helps me express what i am feeling most, so usually i will go from some sad music (like weezer or the smiths) to some fast paced "angry" sounding music, like kmfdm or rammstein. it just feels good knowing im on the right side of history and they arent, and nobody else realizes it. i like feeling anger and disgust towards those people, hating them keeps me going. in a way it goes both ways for me. i love feeling hated by them as well, feels good knowing most of society would hate my guts if i went completely mask off about what i think of them
