I just saw a clip of a TV show I watched in the early 2000s and it almost made me cry. Can't believe it's been 18 years. Where did my life go?
I can't help but think about all the people who were a part of my childhood. I wish I got the opportunity to say goodbye to them. I wish I could meet them again just to tell them how much they meant to me. Those were the best years of my life, the only time I was truly happy. The sad part is I know the feelings aren't mutual. They probably wouldn't even remember me. They've all moved on with their lives while I've been stuck in the same place forever.
It took years to build those relationships. I haven't been able to connect with anyone like that since I started high school a decade ago. "Friends" are nothing more than accessories in the age of social media. All of them are disposable, including the ones I have now. They could drop dead and I wouldn't feel a thing. I still remember how empty I felt on graduation night while everyone else was turning on the waterworks. The only people I really missed were a couple of my teachers. It's crazy how so many of those kids are still in contact with each other...
Anyway, I feel like I lost everyone who mattered. The few who stayed in my life became enemies or we simply grew apart. It also really hurts to see all the people you looked up to as a child become everything you hate about the world. Like there were girls I had a crush as a kid and now I see them openly talking about the most degenerate shit you can think of. It's even worse when it hits close to home, like with my older siblings/cousins. All those folks who were supposed to be good role models were never really about that life. They were all hypocrites, doing the exact opposite of what they preached.
idk what else to say. I'm tired of dealing with people and their lies. I was fed so much bullshit as a kid that I can't cope with reality. I feel like the only constant in a world that never stops changing.
I can't help but think about all the people who were a part of my childhood. I wish I got the opportunity to say goodbye to them. I wish I could meet them again just to tell them how much they meant to me. Those were the best years of my life, the only time I was truly happy. The sad part is I know the feelings aren't mutual. They probably wouldn't even remember me. They've all moved on with their lives while I've been stuck in the same place forever.
It took years to build those relationships. I haven't been able to connect with anyone like that since I started high school a decade ago. "Friends" are nothing more than accessories in the age of social media. All of them are disposable, including the ones I have now. They could drop dead and I wouldn't feel a thing. I still remember how empty I felt on graduation night while everyone else was turning on the waterworks. The only people I really missed were a couple of my teachers. It's crazy how so many of those kids are still in contact with each other...
Anyway, I feel like I lost everyone who mattered. The few who stayed in my life became enemies or we simply grew apart. It also really hurts to see all the people you looked up to as a child become everything you hate about the world. Like there were girls I had a crush as a kid and now I see them openly talking about the most degenerate shit you can think of. It's even worse when it hits close to home, like with my older siblings/cousins. All those folks who were supposed to be good role models were never really about that life. They were all hypocrites, doing the exact opposite of what they preached.
idk what else to say. I'm tired of dealing with people and their lies. I was fed so much bullshit as a kid that I can't cope with reality. I feel like the only constant in a world that never stops changing.
