Venting Going out became the purest form of hell for me

[Bane6]

Well, better said... LIVING became the purest form of hell.

Today I went to the mall and the feeling is purely depressive, it feels like a fucking trauma, all those people, families, happy couples... hugging, kissing and holding hands, going to the movies, eating... Witnessing that fills me with a huge emptiness, that just reminds me of all these years of pure loneliness and unhappiness, not having a single memorable moment or fun moments, just memories of being ignored, forgotten, despised.
Seeing all those young foids, curvy foids with huge asses... All of them in every damn place, and miserably having to settle for just watching them, unable to feel the pleasure of having them all to myself. It's like sitting in a diner full of food while I'm chained and starving and not being able to eat a single thing... just sitting there, watching everyone eat... while I can't... It's a devastating feeling.
I'm out of copes, out of hobbies, out of motivation, out of passion... I can only sit in my place surrounded by darkness.
I can't stand to see life beating me down and leaving me on the ground for much longer... Something must change.

 

[Sans]

Well said.

Thankfully in my small town there's not many couples, and most of the ones there are are older. So it makes going out a bit more bearable.

 

[Darth Aquarius]

How I felt in Target today

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Seeing all those young foids, curvy foids with huge asses... All of them in every damn place, and miserably having to settle for just watching them, unable to feel the pleasure of having them all to myself. It's like sitting in a diner full of food while I'm chained and starving and not being able to eat a single thing... just sitting there, watching everyone eat... while I can't... It's a devastating feeling.

 

[zd60]

Exactly how I feel most times when I go out anywhere, its why nowadays I just try staying home as much as possible

 

[BasedGoyslopReviews]

Last time I felt happy I was 16 playing beach volley in Egypt.

I'm 28 now

Normies take for granted being able to participate in life. Their unsuccessful days outclass the highlights of our whole decade.

I've unsuccessfully tried joining their team multiple times. It's like trying to climb an electric fence. You just get burned and fall back down weaker and more scarred .

Ppl who finished university 5 years ago return to their highschool bully brain when an ugly dude shows up. It's fucking sickening. They publicly display horrible personality traits and are more successful than us. There is no personality for our genetics.

I'm not even aiming for relationships anymore. I'm genuinely wondering atp if there's any avenue in life, any hobby at all, where others might not cast me out. Just low tier normies passably treating me as human. If u know such a place let me know

 

[Bane6]

Last time I felt happy I was 16 playing beach volley in Egypt.

I'm 28 now

Normies take for granted being able to participate in life. Their unsuccessful days outclass the highlights of our whole decade.

I've unsuccessfully tried joining their team multiple times. It's like trying to climb an electric fence. You just get burned and fall back down weaker and more scarred .

Ppl who finished university 5 years ago return to their highschool bully brain when an ugly dude shows up. It's fucking sickening. They publicly display horrible personality traits and are more successful than us. There is no personality for our genetics.

I'm not even aiming for relationships anymore. I'm genuinely wondering atp if there's any avenue in life, any hobby at all, where others might not cast me out. Just low tier normies passably treating me as human. If u know such a place let me know

I'm also looking for a hobby to distract myself as much as possible from everything, but I'm looking for something I can do alone. I'm not interested in spending time with normies or anything like that, I'm not compatible and it's unbearable. I realized that spending time alone doing something I like is more fun.

 

[Scrangillious Q.]

All we've got left is LDAR and hope for something good to happen. We can't win, regardless of what we do.