It's weird in that the communities that are seen as the most toxic are the nicest, whist the communities that are "Self improvement based" are toxic.
I guess the reason I was acting "standoffish/on guard" like saying things like "I'll accept being banned" is in my head, I blamed you guy for the situation I'm in because I thought to myself "If I never discovered the blackpill and inceldom, I would never be in this situation", but that was foolish to think because it was completely my fault for going on the call, not yours. And I was "on guard" saying things like "I'll accept being banned" and trying to disassociate myself because people on reddit and discord talked about how you guys are crabs and backstabbers and I've been cyberbullied despite how cringe and gay that sounds, so I was kinda worried for that.
But unironically, you guys are pretty nice and accepting. It makes me wonder why incel is even an insult if you treat me this nicely. I write long threads which are hard to understand because I'm nonNT, so I worry about someone calling me a fag or making fun of me because on reddit when I was fully redpilled and wrote jumbled rambles on self improvement subreddits, people would tell me things like "You're autistic lmao" and "You're a future school shooter, no normal person acts like that" "Please get a diagnosis" which pissed me off at the time 1 year ago, because I was grinding and people in "self improvement" subreddits were mocking it.
The 32 year old mod of the FitxFearless discord server had personal beef with me, he didn't like my talking points so he was like "Get the fuck out of here" then booted me. Just "get the fuck out of here then, we don't want you spreading your narrative" something like that, then I got booted out of the call. It just shows the lack of empathy.
I probably wouldn't have been able to handle the consequences of the Fitx call on my own without talking to you guys about it so thanks.
When I watched Hamza's videos, he talked about gratitude and telling people you're grateful for them but it just seems kinda gay to say it like that
When in last May, I was getting called ugly on Monkey.app and struggling and not having friends, you guys empathized with me, and it made me realize "oh shit, there's people who I actually relate to, people who are also ugly and autistic"
You guys could have made fun of me for the Fitxfearless viral video, but you didn't. You could have made fun of me for leaving then coming back, changing my mind on things. You guys could have been hostile like "What the fuck, why are you back?", or even when I was talking about things that were cringe, you didn't reprimand me.
I unironically think that this is one of the nicest communities on the internet, which is weird because the media says incels are terrorists and supremacists and extremists and violent, but they're nice and accepting.
The r/nofap community. Regardless of your opinion on the actual topic, I'm talking about the subreddit, the media says it's misogynistic, extremist, it's this and that, when I was on r/nofap a couple years ago, they were nice as fuck, I don't think I even saw one argument in that subreddit. They were all supportive and nice.
The media says Nick Fuentes is a full on white supremacist, Jew hating, holocaust denying guy, so before I knew who he was, I was hesitant to follow him on twitter, then after following him for a bit, he's not even that extreme. He has a black assistent Tenryo, he hangs out with Myron and Sneako who are not white, and the actual white supremacists on Twitter are saying Nick Fuentes is too tolerant "Why does he hang around browns?", "Why does he have a Jewish friend Laura Loomer?"
The media tells you that incels are extremists and they're out to get you and me being the more sensitive and nervous person I am, I kinda believed it so I was operating from the frame of "Please don't call me a fag", "I might get banned but my opinion is..", thinking you're out to get me or something when you're literally the people who helped me when I was depressed and getting humiliated by the entire world.
So thanks.
That's just how society operates. Demonizes positive things (traditionalism, healthy lifestyle, good values, etc), promotes negative things (partying, degenerates, rap, etc).
When you think about the intention of this website "support group for lonely short, ugly men who can't get laid", the media demonizes it. Why would you demonize a group of men who are struggling virgins? Why would it be an insult to be an "incel", when incels are just struggling virgins who can't get laid? It doesn't make logical sense.
And I was a retard playing into that, so I just erratically did friendly fire, when I was trying to share my idea about trying to solve inceldom, and someone responded to me in a slightly sarcastic way, and I was such a dickhead I started attacking him, then I apologized, but that was such a dickhead move. Because this community was the one which helped me, and I blindly believed in the media machine and started attacking a fellow incel.
I genuinely enjoyed being here. It feels like a family in some ways. I don't want to get too parasocial, but it's a good thing this community exists.
To stop myself from rambling more, I'm just going to say thanks for being a supportive communintiy.
I guess the reason I was acting "standoffish/on guard" like saying things like "I'll accept being banned" is in my head, I blamed you guy for the situation I'm in because I thought to myself "If I never discovered the blackpill and inceldom, I would never be in this situation", but that was foolish to think because it was completely my fault for going on the call, not yours. And I was "on guard" saying things like "I'll accept being banned" and trying to disassociate myself because people on reddit and discord talked about how you guys are crabs and backstabbers and I've been cyberbullied despite how cringe and gay that sounds, so I was kinda worried for that.
But unironically, you guys are pretty nice and accepting. It makes me wonder why incel is even an insult if you treat me this nicely. I write long threads which are hard to understand because I'm nonNT, so I worry about someone calling me a fag or making fun of me because on reddit when I was fully redpilled and wrote jumbled rambles on self improvement subreddits, people would tell me things like "You're autistic lmao" and "You're a future school shooter, no normal person acts like that" "Please get a diagnosis" which pissed me off at the time 1 year ago, because I was grinding and people in "self improvement" subreddits were mocking it.
The 32 year old mod of the FitxFearless discord server had personal beef with me, he didn't like my talking points so he was like "Get the fuck out of here" then booted me. Just "get the fuck out of here then, we don't want you spreading your narrative" something like that, then I got booted out of the call. It just shows the lack of empathy.
I probably wouldn't have been able to handle the consequences of the Fitx call on my own without talking to you guys about it so thanks.
When I watched Hamza's videos, he talked about gratitude and telling people you're grateful for them but it just seems kinda gay to say it like that
When in last May, I was getting called ugly on Monkey.app and struggling and not having friends, you guys empathized with me, and it made me realize "oh shit, there's people who I actually relate to, people who are also ugly and autistic"
You guys could have made fun of me for the Fitxfearless viral video, but you didn't. You could have made fun of me for leaving then coming back, changing my mind on things. You guys could have been hostile like "What the fuck, why are you back?", or even when I was talking about things that were cringe, you didn't reprimand me.
I unironically think that this is one of the nicest communities on the internet, which is weird because the media says incels are terrorists and supremacists and extremists and violent, but they're nice and accepting.
The r/nofap community. Regardless of your opinion on the actual topic, I'm talking about the subreddit, the media says it's misogynistic, extremist, it's this and that, when I was on r/nofap a couple years ago, they were nice as fuck, I don't think I even saw one argument in that subreddit. They were all supportive and nice.
The media says Nick Fuentes is a full on white supremacist, Jew hating, holocaust denying guy, so before I knew who he was, I was hesitant to follow him on twitter, then after following him for a bit, he's not even that extreme. He has a black assistent Tenryo, he hangs out with Myron and Sneako who are not white, and the actual white supremacists on Twitter are saying Nick Fuentes is too tolerant "Why does he hang around browns?", "Why does he have a Jewish friend Laura Loomer?"
The media tells you that incels are extremists and they're out to get you and me being the more sensitive and nervous person I am, I kinda believed it so I was operating from the frame of "Please don't call me a fag", "I might get banned but my opinion is..", thinking you're out to get me or something when you're literally the people who helped me when I was depressed and getting humiliated by the entire world.
So thanks.
That's just how society operates. Demonizes positive things (traditionalism, healthy lifestyle, good values, etc), promotes negative things (partying, degenerates, rap, etc).
When you think about the intention of this website "support group for lonely short, ugly men who can't get laid", the media demonizes it. Why would you demonize a group of men who are struggling virgins? Why would it be an insult to be an "incel", when incels are just struggling virgins who can't get laid? It doesn't make logical sense.
And I was a retard playing into that, so I just erratically did friendly fire, when I was trying to share my idea about trying to solve inceldom, and someone responded to me in a slightly sarcastic way, and I was such a dickhead I started attacking him, then I apologized, but that was such a dickhead move. Because this community was the one which helped me, and I blindly believed in the media machine and started attacking a fellow incel.
I genuinely enjoyed being here. It feels like a family in some ways. I don't want to get too parasocial, but it's a good thing this community exists.
To stop myself from rambling more, I'm just going to say thanks for being a supportive communintiy.
