Despondent Dreamer
Self-banned
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- Joined
- Dec 1, 2021
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Half the time I can't even maintain an erection during sex, between this and having next to no libido, even if I were to ascend now it would be basically pointless. It's been around half a year since I escortcelled and I don't really have any present craving for sex at all, mostly I only want it in regards to things surrounding sex. It's wanting skin to skin contact with someone, wanting to hold them, wanting to kiss, more or less aspects of loneliness are the things which bother me now. Well at least of things which bother me that are remotely related to sex anyway. I rarely even fap because I rarely have the desire to do so.
It's as if my body has surrendered alongside my mind. I guess missing the window to start having sex for the first time at the age when it's common causes the function to deteriorate like any other unused muscle.
There is nothing wrong with this at all, am I right bluepilled redditors?
Seriously though it's just depressing, it seems like everything which I could possibly look forward to doesn't apply to my future at all, it only makes sense in a past tense, and this is just one more example.
It's as if my body has surrendered alongside my mind. I guess missing the window to start having sex for the first time at the age when it's common causes the function to deteriorate like any other unused muscle.
There is nothing wrong with this at all, am I right bluepilled redditors?
Seriously though it's just depressing, it seems like everything which I could possibly look forward to doesn't apply to my future at all, it only makes sense in a past tense, and this is just one more example.