leafblown
Just the worst
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- Joined
- Sep 12, 2023
- Posts
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I’m trying to block out my feelings since they are more of a detriment to my life. I’ve been training to withstand physical pain and I’m getting better at that. I’ve been using weed and vodka for emotional pain but it still hurts sometimes. I repeat strong words in my head like a mantra while I cast curses into the woods. I show interest in my work to escape torture for a few hours. I stay alone as much as I can to escape negativity and that works, but a stray thought sometimes sends me over the edge. I kill animals that I eat but that’s just food. I’m kinda out of ideas here you guys.