Doctor Manhattan
I Am Watching The Stars
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- Joined
- Aug 7, 2022
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100% - Permaban Request
• About my suicide attempt •
I'm scared of it so far, I put my gun to my head and for a few seconds I was satisfied that I would pull the trigger with no regrets .
I'm here, so the worst didn't happen fortunately (or unfortunately?). I couldn't do that, at the time I thought of my family and it wouldn't be fair to do this shit to them. I thought about going to the emergency room, but it would be even worse, I don't want my family to see me like this, it would be less worse if I killed myself alone in some deserted place, but even then it's hard to pull the trigger knowing you're going to hurt the only ones people you care about, while other people look at you with hate, disgust, and shame.
Knowing that many men like me are killing themselves without thinking twice has made me reflect on many things since my suicide attempt. I still have a family, I still have money, and I'm going to take it until my last breath from now on. I still enjoy watching my classic movies, I still love listening to music, I still enjoy playing video games and I'm going to delve into each of those things from now on, obviously I'm going to look for new things that might interest me.
Many things crossed my mind, and not ironically, I could only remember the happy moments (even if few). I remembered this forum, I remembered the weekends that I was here commenting on the posts of some brocels, and I realized how much this forum opened my mind in so many ways. I've been lurking on this forum for a few years now, I just created this account this year to interact with some users I've always wanted to interact and chat with.
Some users that I have a certain admiration for in this forum and I will miss them : @Emba @Zhou Chang-Xing @PPEcel @Vitarius @subzero @rentro373 @PLA1092 @partycat @NirvanaFan1988 @Neeru @Murdoch89 @Malvo @MACHETE @LeonTheSilent @erenyeager @Broly @BornToLose @? @-BigBackClock- (There are many usurers besides these who made me laugh a lot, made me reflect, gave me great advice and I will really miss you all)
• Ban request •
I'm requesting my banishment because after everything that happened to me I'm going to follow new paths with my life, I'm going to try to create new goals for myself. Life as an incel sucks, but after literally having death pointed at my head, I changed my mind, this is not the way out. I wish that all users here find what they are looking for, especially that they find the peace that this world tries to take away from men like us. Appreciate this forum as one of the few places that gives us this freedom on the internet, I hope the moderators manage to keep this forum active for many, many years to come !
Please @PPEcel @Fat Link, I'm asking for my account to be banned, I believe in your great work in this forum and all your dedication .
As usual, I'll leave a song for you to listen to, my last song brocels ... I always listened to this song when I was online browsing this forum and it brings back good memories.
HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL AT SOME OTHER TIME IN OUR LIVES... SEE YOU TOMORROW BROCELS !!!
I'm scared of it so far, I put my gun to my head and for a few seconds I was satisfied that I would pull the trigger with no regrets .
I'm here, so the worst didn't happen fortunately (or unfortunately?). I couldn't do that, at the time I thought of my family and it wouldn't be fair to do this shit to them. I thought about going to the emergency room, but it would be even worse, I don't want my family to see me like this, it would be less worse if I killed myself alone in some deserted place, but even then it's hard to pull the trigger knowing you're going to hurt the only ones people you care about, while other people look at you with hate, disgust, and shame.
Knowing that many men like me are killing themselves without thinking twice has made me reflect on many things since my suicide attempt. I still have a family, I still have money, and I'm going to take it until my last breath from now on. I still enjoy watching my classic movies, I still love listening to music, I still enjoy playing video games and I'm going to delve into each of those things from now on, obviously I'm going to look for new things that might interest me.
Many things crossed my mind, and not ironically, I could only remember the happy moments (even if few). I remembered this forum, I remembered the weekends that I was here commenting on the posts of some brocels, and I realized how much this forum opened my mind in so many ways. I've been lurking on this forum for a few years now, I just created this account this year to interact with some users I've always wanted to interact and chat with.
Some users that I have a certain admiration for in this forum and I will miss them : @Emba @Zhou Chang-Xing @PPEcel @Vitarius @subzero @rentro373 @PLA1092 @partycat @NirvanaFan1988 @Neeru @Murdoch89 @Malvo @MACHETE @LeonTheSilent @erenyeager @Broly @BornToLose @? @-BigBackClock- (There are many usurers besides these who made me laugh a lot, made me reflect, gave me great advice and I will really miss you all)
• Ban request •
I'm requesting my banishment because after everything that happened to me I'm going to follow new paths with my life, I'm going to try to create new goals for myself. Life as an incel sucks, but after literally having death pointed at my head, I changed my mind, this is not the way out. I wish that all users here find what they are looking for, especially that they find the peace that this world tries to take away from men like us. Appreciate this forum as one of the few places that gives us this freedom on the internet, I hope the moderators manage to keep this forum active for many, many years to come !
Please @PPEcel @Fat Link, I'm asking for my account to be banned, I believe in your great work in this forum and all your dedication .
As usual, I'll leave a song for you to listen to, my last song brocels ... I always listened to this song when I was online browsing this forum and it brings back good memories.
HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL AT SOME OTHER TIME IN OUR LIVES... SEE YOU TOMORROW BROCELS !!!