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Greycel
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- Apr 7, 2021
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I feel like I'm constantly in a state of suicidal ideation, just in mental pain and exhaustion and wanting it all to end. I always feel tired and depressed. It's been like this for so long, I've lost hope that it will ever change. I'm too much of a coward to commit suicide. So I just lay awake at night fantasising about my own death, my mind filled with violent thoughts of killing myself or others.
I just have times at night when I am so completely fatigued, but I'm unable to sleep, and all I feel is a mixture of anger, despair, loneliness, frustration, sadness, emptiness and hate. I've become jaded and dissolutioned with the world around me. I hate the world for making me the way I am. I hate myself for my own inadequacies. I just want to LDAR, I want to sleep forever and never wake up.
The only thing that gives me any hope is thought that one day my life will come to an end, and I will no longer have to stay in this world and suffer.
I just have times at night when I am so completely fatigued, but I'm unable to sleep, and all I feel is a mixture of anger, despair, loneliness, frustration, sadness, emptiness and hate. I've become jaded and dissolutioned with the world around me. I hate the world for making me the way I am. I hate myself for my own inadequacies. I just want to LDAR, I want to sleep forever and never wake up.
The only thing that gives me any hope is thought that one day my life will come to an end, and I will no longer have to stay in this world and suffer.