I don't want to fight for anything anymore, I'm slowly pushing to my late 20´s with nothing achived, every year since I dropped out of HS has been the same, wageslaving at the gas station and only because my uncle felt bad for me and gave me this little job without the need of any degree, it's basically nothing much, can't buy any good stuff with the money I make, forced to save just to have food. On top of that I have an uncured condition that nobody cared about since my childhood, I'm literally like a leper now. Only managed to have driving license at 24, this year, at the third try and I don't even drive that much because of anxiety.
I think I'm not doing good in this life, completely useless, it seems like I'm not suitable for this society and now I don't want anything myself either, nothing is working out and will never work. I'll probably just do some illegal shit at some point on purpose and they gonna put me in this shithole country prison.
I'm at the point where I just don't care if I have to go through another round of bullying, humiliation and torture, already got used to it once, there's no meaning for me to fight back anymore, I know I shouldn't be saying this stuff, but it's just what it is for me, maybe that's the whole point of my existence, humiliation and death.
I think I'm not doing good in this life, completely useless, it seems like I'm not suitable for this society and now I don't want anything myself either, nothing is working out and will never work. I'll probably just do some illegal shit at some point on purpose and they gonna put me in this shithole country prison.
I'm at the point where I just don't care if I have to go through another round of bullying, humiliation and torture, already got used to it once, there's no meaning for me to fight back anymore, I know I shouldn't be saying this stuff, but it's just what it is for me, maybe that's the whole point of my existence, humiliation and death.
