Before I knew what this website was or anything to do with the blackpill, I used the main LL (Limb Lengthening forum) for about two years, this was actually before LL took off and became popular, long before the countless TikToks being posted about the surgery, the fact that even normies didn't know shit about it made me inclined to get it during that time, if they knew anything they would think it's still performed with those ancient Soviet technology but LL has grown far beyond that. I remember reading many of the diary entries on there for patients that have undergone the surgery and most of them found it quite easy to hide their new height. However with this technology becoming more and more popular as the masses are shown the Blackpill, I believe it is only going to get much harder in the long run to hide such surgery. Before it was quite a niche that even most people here I talked with didn't know much about the logistics of the surgery but this year I see many have gained a decent understanding of it.
Before I joined this place I still had a glimmer of hope within me, I was still quite young anyways so it's not like I had the natural tendency to give up just then. My aim was to work hard for a few years after graduating university and perform the surgery in Greece with the specialist doctor there, I researched the city it was in, spoke with the patients that did it there and even knew the ins and outs of the technical procedure of every single method. I joined the livestreams for many of the Cyborg videos to ask questions about the logistics of the surgery. I even told my parents about the surgery and they were supportive of me getting it, I was very obsessed with height back then, it was the major thing I thought about for many months at a time, I wondered why I was shorter than both of my parents and was comparing people's heights outside constantly. I was so keen on getting this surgery, to have my awful height (166cm/5'5) only be a distant memory in the past, I know that even one single surgery would not make me average height but at least I would be within 1 Standard Deviations of the bell curve so it would still be 5x better than the current situation.
I didn't even care about "ascension", I was just extremely scarred from being bullied in High School constantly about my height, I was bullied by an ugly coaled skinned Dravidian for my height and many many others. There was a guy of similar height to me when I was 13 (this was when I was average) who ended up as 190cm and when I saw him in university accidentally years later he shamed me for my height and laughed at my suffering then he attempted gaslighting me telling me it was going to be alright. I was even blackpilled by the damn DOCTORS, even they told me my height was going to be a big issue in the future but that I shouldn't think too much and take the situation as it is which infuriated me and made me do so much research on the surgery.
I was discriminated against in many opportunities simply because of my height and was forced to live a life in isolation because of my messed up thoughts from being bullied all these years and the short stature itself. Due to such experiences it was always a thought that consumed me 24 7, I had my cognitive biases against it, I thought it possessed far more power than it actually had, yes height did yield great power but I literally thought it would fix my entire life in and out and make me a whole transformed person when in reality it would probably make me ascend with an MTB and make a few more bucks but that's really it, I'd end up in the same state because of the hedonic treadmill, not really that great if you look at it from the bigger picture.
Over the years this thought faded away I don't nearly care much about it as before, I don't have the burning desire for this surgery. It's not to say I don't think about height, I still do but much less than before and I have taken a much more nihilistic outlook on life after many years of struggling to come to the realisation that I will have to spend the rest of my adulthood in short stature. My comfort now lies within the fact that everyone is going to meet the same inevitable end. That's a simplified version of what I've arrived to but a central theme to it. The blackpill has made me realise that we're all deluded in thinking that our lives matter in the grand scheme of things and our ego actually means something. In reality we are nothing, we aren't worth shit, female validation can't cure the void in anyone as it's a façade. Unless you invented something or have the masses of people remember you for something noble then you're just another cog in the wheel to the machine of your country's elites, you aren't jack shit, just a single grain of sand in a beach.
Eventually, we will all cease to exist, and nothing we've done in our lives will truly matter. It's a very liberating thought. When I think about my height and the years of torment I had to go through, I remind myself that we're all going to be dug up in some soil 200 years later so it's unproductive to keep looming about these thoughts. It's just another aspect of my existence that will eventually fade away into nothingness, just like the hedonistic treadmill simulation that normies and Chads go through.
Before I joined this place I still had a glimmer of hope within me, I was still quite young anyways so it's not like I had the natural tendency to give up just then. My aim was to work hard for a few years after graduating university and perform the surgery in Greece with the specialist doctor there, I researched the city it was in, spoke with the patients that did it there and even knew the ins and outs of the technical procedure of every single method. I joined the livestreams for many of the Cyborg videos to ask questions about the logistics of the surgery. I even told my parents about the surgery and they were supportive of me getting it, I was very obsessed with height back then, it was the major thing I thought about for many months at a time, I wondered why I was shorter than both of my parents and was comparing people's heights outside constantly. I was so keen on getting this surgery, to have my awful height (166cm/5'5) only be a distant memory in the past, I know that even one single surgery would not make me average height but at least I would be within 1 Standard Deviations of the bell curve so it would still be 5x better than the current situation.
I didn't even care about "ascension", I was just extremely scarred from being bullied in High School constantly about my height, I was bullied by an ugly coaled skinned Dravidian for my height and many many others. There was a guy of similar height to me when I was 13 (this was when I was average) who ended up as 190cm and when I saw him in university accidentally years later he shamed me for my height and laughed at my suffering then he attempted gaslighting me telling me it was going to be alright. I was even blackpilled by the damn DOCTORS, even they told me my height was going to be a big issue in the future but that I shouldn't think too much and take the situation as it is which infuriated me and made me do so much research on the surgery.
I was discriminated against in many opportunities simply because of my height and was forced to live a life in isolation because of my messed up thoughts from being bullied all these years and the short stature itself. Due to such experiences it was always a thought that consumed me 24 7, I had my cognitive biases against it, I thought it possessed far more power than it actually had, yes height did yield great power but I literally thought it would fix my entire life in and out and make me a whole transformed person when in reality it would probably make me ascend with an MTB and make a few more bucks but that's really it, I'd end up in the same state because of the hedonic treadmill, not really that great if you look at it from the bigger picture.
Over the years this thought faded away I don't nearly care much about it as before, I don't have the burning desire for this surgery. It's not to say I don't think about height, I still do but much less than before and I have taken a much more nihilistic outlook on life after many years of struggling to come to the realisation that I will have to spend the rest of my adulthood in short stature. My comfort now lies within the fact that everyone is going to meet the same inevitable end. That's a simplified version of what I've arrived to but a central theme to it. The blackpill has made me realise that we're all deluded in thinking that our lives matter in the grand scheme of things and our ego actually means something. In reality we are nothing, we aren't worth shit, female validation can't cure the void in anyone as it's a façade. Unless you invented something or have the masses of people remember you for something noble then you're just another cog in the wheel to the machine of your country's elites, you aren't jack shit, just a single grain of sand in a beach.
Eventually, we will all cease to exist, and nothing we've done in our lives will truly matter. It's a very liberating thought. When I think about my height and the years of torment I had to go through, I remind myself that we're all going to be dug up in some soil 200 years later so it's unproductive to keep looming about these thoughts. It's just another aspect of my existence that will eventually fade away into nothingness, just like the hedonistic treadmill simulation that normies and Chads go through.
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