It will be 6 years today since my oneitus messaged me on Instagram at 9:55 PM telling me "U need to fuck off", and ever since then, my life has went completely downhill. I'll never forget her smile and how cute she was. Because no matter how much I try to cope, the memories of her always come back. I became heavily addicted to drugs to try to replace her, but no hard drug has ever managed to recreate the dopamine rush every time I saw her at religious ed every week. I became severely distracted from my hobbies due to chasing the dragon, and now that I quit, I have to fight the feelings every single day because I have just started to gain progress in it. I don't even miss the drugs anymore. I just miss her. I would do anything to have her back! She got herself a chad almost 10 years older that giga-mogs me to hell and back every single day by racing bikes and bringing home big wins. All I have left is a huge crater in my soul that feel so empty, because I know being able to talk to her is almost impossible! I hate seeing my dream girl being stolen from me by chad, when I easily have more to offer than him. I have proven multiple times that I would be able to show more affection than him in my entire life towards her, AND SHE IS GONE!!!! IT'S KILLING ME!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!!!