Every part of my body and everything that touches it makes me feel immensely uncomfortable. I guess it is sensory issues beacuse of autism, I'm not sure, my theRAPISTs never really explained it all to me properly. But whatever it is I hate it, I've always been this way since I was a kid, but it's much worse because of depression now. I wish I could be something else. So I wouldn't have these issues. And I wish I was highIQ and could speak my mind properly and fluently and type eloquently. I used to be really smart as a kid, I hate how fucking retarded depression has made me. It is unbelievably frustrating how retarded I am now. I can't even think properly anymore. I hate it. It's kind of like having a word on the tip of your tongue, that frustrating feeling, but i have it all the time, with every single thought i have
