I haven't been on here in a few months since I rarely feel as if I have anything meaningful to say, and I've been trying to distract myself with other things like playing games, but over the last few months I have just felt more depressed and empty and alone, and I just keep thinking about how meaningless it all is and how it won't ever get better.
I have been deprived of any romantic or sexual interaction or intimacy from a girl my entire life and I don't think I will ever experience it. I've been trying to get a job but I'm too much of a NEET tard to do anything that work requires without sperging out, and in all honesty, I don't want to work a dead-end job and be a wagecuck. The more days go by, the more blackpilled I get and the more I feel like there's no hope left for me. I spend my days wasting away, wishing I would die but not having the courage to end it. I rarely have energy to do anything anymore and I think my brain is too fucked for me to have a normal life.
All I ever think about nowadays is how much I want to die. I think the only option I have left is to rope so I might try to find some suifuel on here and see if I have it in me to go through with it, otherwise I'll just have to cope for the rest of my meaningless existence and LDAR. Maybe whining about how blackpilled I am online makes me a faggot, but I'm not really sure on what I can do at this point, and I thought this is the only place where I'll find people who may be going through the same thing.
I have been deprived of any romantic or sexual interaction or intimacy from a girl my entire life and I don't think I will ever experience it. I've been trying to get a job but I'm too much of a NEET tard to do anything that work requires without sperging out, and in all honesty, I don't want to work a dead-end job and be a wagecuck. The more days go by, the more blackpilled I get and the more I feel like there's no hope left for me. I spend my days wasting away, wishing I would die but not having the courage to end it. I rarely have energy to do anything anymore and I think my brain is too fucked for me to have a normal life.
All I ever think about nowadays is how much I want to die. I think the only option I have left is to rope so I might try to find some suifuel on here and see if I have it in me to go through with it, otherwise I'll just have to cope for the rest of my meaningless existence and LDAR. Maybe whining about how blackpilled I am online makes me a faggot, but I'm not really sure on what I can do at this point, and I thought this is the only place where I'll find people who may be going through the same thing.
