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The past few weeks I took some St. John's Wort. I was taking two 300 mg caps once a day. This is the longest duration I've taken it. It's been a funny experience. I don't really notice anything immediately when I take it. But after a few days I just start feeling like a normal person. Like I felt when I was young. Before all this. Before all these weariness. Before giving up on life. Before nihilism. Before the blackpill.
It doesn't erase any of those things. I don't wake up an oblivious soyboy. But when I'm taking it, I don't care so much about the horrors of this life. I find joy in more things. Like my hobbies. And I can actually put hours into them and enjoy them like I did when I was a kid. I ruminate less. My mind stops being so anxious and negative. I don't even feel a need to post or hang out here. I feel like I should be doing a hundred other things instead.
I stopped taking it this week because I felt so much better. Then just like that I'm back down into the gutter again. My mind is again an unfocused and darkly circling void. I can't believe how much it changes me and my perspective. I'm gonna try to keep taking it at least 3-6 months. I need to get back on with my life more. I have so many projects I want to finish.
People have been using this herb since ancient Greece. I can see why. It works. And unlike SSRIs, I don't get any side effects or feel "medicated". I just genuinely feel better and more normal. It's a strange thing. It's not easy to realize that your happiness/function can be changed so completely by consuming a simple herb (or not).
If you're prone to misery, anxiety, and negative rumination and want to be better, I would strongly recommend a try. The key part is whether or not you want to be better. I've heard of guys who get out of prison and just want to go back, because it has become the only way they know to live. I kind of get it now. When your mind has been in the hole for so long, it's what feels comfortable and right. But personally, I know I can't spend the rest of my life that way.
It doesn't erase any of those things. I don't wake up an oblivious soyboy. But when I'm taking it, I don't care so much about the horrors of this life. I find joy in more things. Like my hobbies. And I can actually put hours into them and enjoy them like I did when I was a kid. I ruminate less. My mind stops being so anxious and negative. I don't even feel a need to post or hang out here. I feel like I should be doing a hundred other things instead.
I stopped taking it this week because I felt so much better. Then just like that I'm back down into the gutter again. My mind is again an unfocused and darkly circling void. I can't believe how much it changes me and my perspective. I'm gonna try to keep taking it at least 3-6 months. I need to get back on with my life more. I have so many projects I want to finish.
People have been using this herb since ancient Greece. I can see why. It works. And unlike SSRIs, I don't get any side effects or feel "medicated". I just genuinely feel better and more normal. It's a strange thing. It's not easy to realize that your happiness/function can be changed so completely by consuming a simple herb (or not).
If you're prone to misery, anxiety, and negative rumination and want to be better, I would strongly recommend a try. The key part is whether or not you want to be better. I've heard of guys who get out of prison and just want to go back, because it has become the only way they know to live. I kind of get it now. When your mind has been in the hole for so long, it's what feels comfortable and right. But personally, I know I can't spend the rest of my life that way.
but nature is honestly pretty neat (apart from making us genetic garbage). A plant can do what decades of jew lab work couldn't, just from growing out of the soil and taking in sunlight.
