SuicideFuel Sodium Nitrite sachets right on my desk! So tempting! And dad will be away for months so no one to stop me from doing the deed!

[overbeforeitbegan]

YEs something dramatic needs to happen to bring about change but that feels like such a steep climb that it makes me want to give in to death. I'm already on meds, and now I'm thinking about taking high risk shit like HGH etc, to get my body "renewed" because like what the hell, my life already feels over.

I think you'll get what I'm saying here:

VOICECAST on the absolute state of my mental health.

View: https://voca.ro/1523PGeJs5Wn

incels.is

Bro, yes. We are in similar positions. It's not getting better and I can't just enjoy an asexual conservative life either like you were saying. Why continue to suffer when I know how every day, week, month, year, decade is going to be ahead of time? Loneliness with no hope of ascending. It feels like I am just running the clock down.

R/Hermeticism on reddit used to help, now I hate reddit and was banned for muh misogyny so that community is done anyway. All I have is other people online who are suffering as much as me, and there is no cure. It's these same four walls until I rope or die of natural causes.

You were saying it's past expiry - probably best you don't take it then. Could do some fuck shit to you that you're not intending to do, right?

 

[wereq]

It feels like I am just running the clock down.

And having to endure this purgatorial stagnation is proving unbearable at least for me.

You were saying it's past expiry - probably best you don't take it then. Could do some fuck shit to you that you're not intending to do, right?

It expires before this month so I'm cutting it close. I don't care anymore. I just can't bear this.

 

[illumizoldyck]

dont do it!!
modi needs you

for india numba 1 supa powa agenda 2030

 

[wereq]

modi needs you

But I don't need him.

 

[overbeforeitbegan]

And having to endure this purgatorial stagnation is proving unbearable at least for me.

It expires before this month so I'm cutting it close. I don't care anymore. I just can't bear this.

Yeah, I just want peace at this point too. The future is bleak and every day I am neglected worse I get more and more brain damage

I'm considering mega-cucked things like therapy and medication first but if they don't work I'll join you

 

[illumizoldyck]

But I don't need him.

on srs note i wouldn't

72hrs iran is said to attack kikes
if the 2nd flank opens up in middle east, ww3 is all but inevitable

 

[overbeforeitbegan]

on srs note i wouldn't

72hrs iran is said to attack kikes
if the 2nd flank opens up in middle east, ww3 is all but inevitable

Nothing ever happens

 

[Nagger]

on srs note i wouldn't

72hrs iran is said to attack kikes
if the 2nd flank opens up in middle east, ww3 is all but inevitable

Whatever you do DON'T DIE IN THEIR WARS!!!!

 

[ilieknothing]

No such thing as afterlife. There's no procreation in the afterlife, just peaceful non-existence.

What if reincarnation is real and you are reborn as @anandkonda ‘s younger currycel brother. You will have to listen about how Tamils mog for your whole life

 

[wereq]

What if reincarnation is real and you are reborn as @anandkonda ‘s younger currycel brother. You will have to listen about how Tamils mog for your whole life

 

[tayhrdl]

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You aren't the only .is user going out with SN

 

[wereq]

You aren't the only .is user going out with SN

 

[curryboy420]

I'll buy a pack off you

 

[wereq]

I'll buy a pack off you

I don't have any more than 2 sachets.

 

[curryboy420]

I don't have any more than 2 sachets.

That sachet is like 500 grans nigger

 

[wereq]

That sachet is like 500 grans nigger

50 grams.

 

[curryboy420]

50 grams.

Yeah well u only need 25 jig who is the other for

 

[wereq]

who is the other for

back up in case I vomit.

 

[Destroyed lonely]

It's not a laboratory product so I wouldn't trust the "99.99% purity", also it says before August so it's already lost some purity, if you really wanna do it take like 40g just to be sure, I remember I once read a post by a guy who woke up the next day after taking SN, you do NOT want that happening, also don't forget xanax hours prior

 

[Destroyed lonely]

Sodium nitrate? Isn’t that the stuff they put in lunch meat and stuff? That shit can kill you?

It's a food perseverant and in small amounts although harmful, is not lethal, it has even been used as a heart medication

 

[Destroyed lonely]

Full suspension is the best because its easy to setup, can be tested, and all of its elements can be easily purchased in the market without raising suspicion. I already have my 12 mm static climbing rope but the anchor point is a bitch. I was going to set it up but my mental health has deteriorated so fast that I am forced to fall back on SN even though its untested and expires this August. I just have to take comfort from the fact that there are others who died from purchasing this SN.

One thing I like about SN is that you can take it at some random public park in the city while lying on the grass, this way your parents won't find your corpse hanging from the ceiling it'd be strangers suspecting you might be dead, don't do it tho we're all rotting here

 

[Holocel]

Full suspension is the best because its easy to setup, can be tested

How do u test full suspension ?? once ur feet are fully in the air how do u go back on the ground ?

 

[wereq]

How do u test full suspension ?? once ur feet are fully in the air how do u go back on the ground ?

You don't go fully in the air. You lower your weight slowly from a stool to check if the ligature is the right position of the neck where its tightening doesn't cause you too much discomfort.

 

[Holocel]

You don't go fully in the air. You lower your weight slowly from a stool to check if the ligature is the right position of the neck where its tightening doesn't cause you too much discomfort.

yes that's what I would call partial suspension test then. U cannot test what u will feel in the air without being fully suspended

 

[wereq]

yes that's what I would call partial suspension test then. U cannot test what u will feel in the air without being fully suspended

Partial suspension as a test is enough confirmation, but doing a partial suspension as a method has been a hit or miss with people whom have tried it. Once you feel ready and comfortable with your partial and you're ready to off yourself, you can get your feet off of your stool and let your body suspend under gravity till you lose consciousness and die.

 

[Cayden Zhang]

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Don’t kill yourself brother. being curry isn’t that bad be grateful you were born into the caucsoid race, you had a 50% chance of being a chink or nigger

 

[wereq]

being curry isn’t that bad

uh huh

 

[TheJester]

I was also thinking about it...Not sure yet, but i just dont like living, never did tbh.

 

[wereq]

but i just dont like living, never did tbh.

Yes.

 

[Cayden Zhang]

uh huh

Bro you can’t have it worst than me, you at least have to face mog me by a few points

 

[Holocel]

till you lose consciousness and die.

 

[wereq]

Its freedom from all earthy suffering. "Let go your earthly tether, enter the void, empty and become wind."

 

[Holocel]

Its freedom from all earthy suffering. "Let go your earthly tether, enter the void, empty and become wind."

Why we had to be born in the first place, to endure suffering to be free

 

[wereq]

Why we had to be born in the first place, to endure suffering to be free

Our parents must pay for imposing this punishment on us.

 

[overbeforeitbegan]

Our parents must pay for imposing this punishment on us.

Can you make them pay by cutting them out of your life? Would that be punishment for them? I have considered it a few times but I rely on my mum too much.

 

[wereq]

Would that be punishment for them?

No need to torture.

 

[Holocel]

by cutting them out of your life

even if I'm here because of them, I have a deformed head because of their negligence, I would not do that as they were not malicious but just stupid as most parents

 

[Uggo Mongo]

Get an arranged marriage instead.

 

[Kina Hikikomori]

I'm a valued member of soyciety.

 

[wereq]

Get an arranged marriage instead.

no

 

[wereq]

tbh