I try to socialize for a few weeks now. Yah know "Go touch grass?" - well I did........now what?
Everytime I go out in the open to were the people are I feel like a alien visitor in a "Human Zoo".
The normies laugh, flirt, and bond like it’s second nature, while you stand there like some outcast on display. Every word they say feels fake, their smiles forced, like theyre just playing a rigged game you were never even invited to. Its not a conversation, its a competition for attention, status, and validation, and youre invisible, just background noise.
I legit dont know what to even try anymore: Nofap - done. Meditation - done. Self reflection - done. Gym? - I go next year again - but did it too. CBT? - done. Yoga? - Every fucking day. Reading - done. Self-Motivation and Mental Training courses - DONE to the point I got sick of them! Quit Video games and certain SM? - DONE FOR YEARS! SHOWER? - EVERY FUCKING DAY AT LEAST ONCE! Psychiatrist - done and change now, the guy cant help me anymore either.
Once every other Sunday I also now visit a church even tho I am not of any religion. (ATHEIST) Theres only old people. Like literally 70+ yo people. I sit there in front of a Jesus Cross Statue and stare into a fire while the group chants in a circle some cult-like Bible verses.
But even outside its seemingly hopeless. And since I try to use my phone less I noticed how EXTREMLY addicted they have become ( https://incels.is/threads/chad-isnt-your-greatest-enemy-this-is.689386/ )
Everyone is a fucking Smartphone Zombie. If I mention I had recently deleted all my SM they think I am socially awakward - I think YOU are!
You try to participate, but it’s pointless. They sense you’re different, like some predator sniffing out weakness. Small talk is torture, eye contact feels like a battle, and their judgment is always there, lurking under the surface. It’s not just that you don’t fit in—it’s that you’re not even allowed to. You’re the freak, the outsider they either mock or ignore, a reminder of what they think they’re better than.
Maybe I should just let myself taken into a mental hospital.
Everytime I go out in the open to were the people are I feel like a alien visitor in a "Human Zoo".
The normies laugh, flirt, and bond like it’s second nature, while you stand there like some outcast on display. Every word they say feels fake, their smiles forced, like theyre just playing a rigged game you were never even invited to. Its not a conversation, its a competition for attention, status, and validation, and youre invisible, just background noise.
I legit dont know what to even try anymore: Nofap - done. Meditation - done. Self reflection - done. Gym? - I go next year again - but did it too. CBT? - done. Yoga? - Every fucking day. Reading - done. Self-Motivation and Mental Training courses - DONE to the point I got sick of them! Quit Video games and certain SM? - DONE FOR YEARS! SHOWER? - EVERY FUCKING DAY AT LEAST ONCE! Psychiatrist - done and change now, the guy cant help me anymore either.
Once every other Sunday I also now visit a church even tho I am not of any religion. (ATHEIST) Theres only old people. Like literally 70+ yo people. I sit there in front of a Jesus Cross Statue and stare into a fire while the group chants in a circle some cult-like Bible verses.
But even outside its seemingly hopeless. And since I try to use my phone less I noticed how EXTREMLY addicted they have become ( https://incels.is/threads/chad-isnt-your-greatest-enemy-this-is.689386/ )
Everyone is a fucking Smartphone Zombie. If I mention I had recently deleted all my SM they think I am socially awakward - I think YOU are!
You try to participate, but it’s pointless. They sense you’re different, like some predator sniffing out weakness. Small talk is torture, eye contact feels like a battle, and their judgment is always there, lurking under the surface. It’s not just that you don’t fit in—it’s that you’re not even allowed to. You’re the freak, the outsider they either mock or ignore, a reminder of what they think they’re better than.
Maybe I should just let myself taken into a mental hospital.
