Venting Socialization feels like visiting a "Human Zoo"

[TheJester]

I try to socialize for a few weeks now. Yah know "Go touch grass?" - well I did........now what?

Everytime I go out in the open to were the people are I feel like a alien visitor in a "Human Zoo".

The normies laugh, flirt, and bond like it’s second nature, while you stand there like some outcast on display. Every word they say feels fake, their smiles forced, like theyre just playing a rigged game you were never even invited to. Its not a conversation, its a competition for attention, status, and validation, and youre invisible, just background noise.

I legit dont know what to even try anymore: Nofap - done. Meditation - done. Self reflection - done. Gym? - I go next year again - but did it too. CBT? - done. Yoga? - Every fucking day. Reading - done. Self-Motivation and Mental Training courses - DONE to the point I got sick of them! Quit Video games and certain SM? - DONE FOR YEARS! SHOWER? - EVERY FUCKING DAY AT LEAST ONCE! Psychiatrist - done and change now, the guy cant help me anymore either.

Once every other Sunday I also now visit a church even tho I am not of any religion. (ATHEIST) Theres only old people. Like literally 70+ yo people. I sit there in front of a Jesus Cross Statue and stare into a fire while the group chants in a circle some cult-like Bible verses.

But even outside its seemingly hopeless. And since I try to use my phone less I noticed how EXTREMLY addicted they have become ( https://incels.is/threads/chad-isnt-your-greatest-enemy-this-is.689386/ )

Everyone is a fucking Smartphone Zombie. If I mention I had recently deleted all my SM they think I am socially awakward - I think YOU are!

You try to participate, but it’s pointless. They sense you’re different, like some predator sniffing out weakness. Small talk is torture, eye contact feels like a battle, and their judgment is always there, lurking under the surface. It’s not just that you don’t fit in—it’s that you’re not even allowed to. You’re the freak, the outsider they either mock or ignore, a reminder of what they think they’re better than.

Maybe I should just let myself taken into a mental hospital.

 

[blackpillednigga]

how can something be so true and broootal at the same time

 

[wereq]

Its not a conversation, its a competition for attention, status, and validation, and youre invisible, just background noise.

Yes, the content of the conversation is superficial and irrelevant, even to them. What's more important is body language, non-verbal cues, signals, indicators, and other subtle primal acts designed to manipulate and conquer. Performance is key here.

 

[wereq]

You try to participate, but it’s pointless. They sense you’re different, like some predator sniffing out weakness. Small talk is torture, eye contact feels like a battle, and their judgment is always there, lurking under the surface. It’s not just that you don’t fit in—it’s that you’re not even allowed to. You’re the freak, the outsider they either mock or ignore, a reminder of what they think they’re better than.

Everything you wrote is very raw and truthful. Its all an animalistic contest for social supremacy.

 

[Based NaziCel]

Based high IQcel

 

[Apex.Koala]

Man fuck this world

 

[Cincel]

Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world-the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does-comes not from the Father but from the world. 1 John 2: 15 - 17

I have always thought some of us are completely out of this world, we may end up in psychiatric ward after all if we don't die first.

 

[RandomGuy]

View: https://youtube.com/shorts/1KwZp8lRsIE?si=hlHikwLq3Xzp1Nc4

 

[Kamanbert]

Maybe I should just let myself taken into a mental hospital.

Tried that last year and they wouldn't let me in. Normies being normies, i guess they expect you to make a scene before considering your case seriously. Or come with your mother so they'd listen to her because she's a woman jfl

 

[TheJester]

Tried that last year and they wouldn't let me in. Normies being normies, i guess they expect you to make a scene before considering your case seriously. Or come with your mother so they'd listen to her because she's a woman jfl

Funny i try this now currently lol it takes time to get a place.

 

[Kamanbert]

Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world-the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does-comes not from the Father but from the world. 1 John 2: 15 - 17

I have always thought some of us are completely out of this world, we may end up in psychiatric ward after all if we don't die first.

God might be fake but... praying and all, trying not to sin did help me to deal with this world when i was still doing it. Like normies didn't even frustrate me no more and I didn't crave relationships with women or felt envious. But it's kinda hardcore cause for me it entails to even leave this site and other shit, living a completely different life internally. Kinda fucked up that all of this religion stuff is probably all cope. It makes me seethe again when i think that there's fundamentally nothing more to humanity than being a normie trying to win at normie things. So i just always get discouraged anyway.