Social retardation

[Maki]

Haven‘t voluntarily left the house for a few weeks now
When I go buy groceries I feel alienated and nauseous
Random people with their shopping carts walking around and
blocking the way I have violent thoughts involving them. I hate looking at their faces
It’s all so bright and loud and full, how could I ever have tolerated it
Anyone else feeling that way?
Got banned on org for 4 days for creating alts

 

[ThePornographer]

Are you asian ?

 

[Maki]

Are you asian ?

No, you are?

 

[ItsOverMan]

Haven‘t voluntarily left the house for a few weeks now
When I go buy groceries I feel alienated and nauseous
Random people with their shopping carts walking around and
blocking the way I have violent thoughts involving them. I hate looking at their faces
It’s all so bright and loud and full, how could I ever have tolerated it
Anyone else feeling that way?
Got banned on org for 4 days for creating alts

Yeah when I go to Walmart to get some groceries I sometimes avoid aisles where people are in them. I don't want to have to walk past them and they might say something to me. Also when I'm walking down the street sometimes I'll cross the street to avoid passing someone because they might speak to me.

 

[ThePornographer]

No, you are?

No, but by reading your post it made me think of an asian dude trying to expalin something online, it look like the translation on google trad, so i thought that you might be one.

 

[Maki]

Yeah when I go to Walmart to get some groceries I sometimes avoid aisles where people are in them. I don't want to have to walk past them and they might say something to me. Also when I'm walking down the street sometimes I'll cross the street to avoid passing someone because they might speak to me.

Do you look or dress strange or why do you avoid even walking past people? I get that only when I feel disgusting, that I don’t want people near me at all

 

[Maki]

No, but by reading your post it made me think of an asian dude trying to expalin something online, it look like the translation on google trad, so i thought that you might be one.

Thank you I reread the post and imagined an Asian voice and accent doing so and it suits well

 

[ThePornographer]

Thank you I reread the post and imagined an Asian voice and accent doing so and it suits well

 

[Maki]

Is is better than org in your opinion or in the opinion of others you know? What’s the reason you’re on here and not on org

 

[ItsOverMan]

Do you look or dress strange or why do you avoid even walking past people? I get that only when I feel disgusting, that I don’t want people near me at all

No I don't look or dress strange. I just have a huge anxiety that someone might speak to me and I'll have to speak back, even if all they say is "hi" or "excuse me" if they bump into me accidentally. I feel so self-conscious and I just assume everyone automatically doesn't like me, which has been mostly true in my life I think (abused dog syndrome from lifetime). I hate my voice too. Thus, interacting with anyone feels awkward and like a chore.

 

[Maki]

No I don't look or dress strange. I just have a huge anxiety that someone might speak to me and I'll have to speak back. I feel so self-conscious and I just assume everyone automatically doesn't like me, which has been mostly true in my life I think (abused dog syndrome from lifetime). I hate my voice too. Thus, interacting with anyone feels awkward and like a chore.

do you consider online interactions awkward too on here?
and what about your voice, is it high pitched?

 

[ItsOverMan]

do you consider online interactions awkward too on here?
and what about your voice, is it high pitched?

Online interactions aren't awkward because there's no face to face stuff, people aren't looking at me and i'm not looking at their facial expressions. Another thing, if an in-person interaction goes less than perfectly I'm going to be pondering on it for a while, maybe hours. Maybe they didn't like me or maybe I look bad or maybe I said something wrong.

My voice is kinda girly, some might say a "lisp." Like when I was around 13 people on the phone thought I was a girl.

 

[Maki]

Online interactions aren't awkward because there's no face to face stuff, people aren't looking at me and i'm not looking at their facial expressions. Another thing, if an in-person interaction goes less than perfectly I'm going to be pondering on it for a while, maybe hours. Maybe they didn't like me or maybe I look bad or maybe I said something wrong.

My voice is kinda girly, some might say a "lisp." Like when I was around 13 people on the phone thought I was a girl.

aw okay, thank you for sharing

 

[ThePornographer]

Is is better than org in your opinion or in the opinion of others you know? What’s the reason you’re on here and not on org

I only want to talk to real socially outcast and .is is the only non fake " community " of guys that fit the real outcast persona for me.

I think that most space on internet are larpers mental Cels thinking that they are incels/outcast until they realize they are not and betray the idea of the black pill.

Being black pilled isn't a cope, it's the ultimate truth that can only talked about and shared with real outcast men forced into supreme self consciousness beyond pain and mental misery

 

[Maki]

I only want to talk to real socially outcast and .is is the only non fake " community " of guys that fit the real outcast persona for me.

I think that most space on internet are larpers mental Cels thinking that they are incels/outcast until they realize they are not and betray the idea of the black pill.

Being black pilled isn't a cope, it's the ultimate truth that can only talked about and shared with real outcast men forced into supreme self consciousness beyond pain and mental misery

I agree, I like .is the most. Org is too mainstream, full of normies insulting one another and being dicks. Sounds sissy but it’s just not interesting or appealing to me. All they talk about is hgh, roids etc