Dreamer-cel
Sauce: Meru The Succubus
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- Apr 6, 2022
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Dreams and sleep paralysis have been the way i cope with loneliness. (inspiring my username)
I began having near daily episodes of this since i was 12, it was so scary at first, and sometimes it still is. But i've managed to get over most of the fear.
i dont believe in therapy or whatever for this, it cant be helped...plus i can manage it. i have no diagnosis of any kind and am somewhat functional in life.
During these there is always someone or something in my bed with me, it is usually a positive experience as itll feel like someone is cuddling and kissing me while i sleep.
Lately the experience has uncomfortable/negative, which is out of the ordinary. During paralysis i dreamt a foid took a scalpel and was slicing open my head... i tried to scream for help and move away but i couldn't, all my dreams are vivid so i could feel the horrible pain as well
Then the following night i dreamt that giant telepathic worms put a metal tool that looked like a microphone but spins at the very end into my mouth and left ear... it was VERY uncomfortable to say the least...this time i didnt try to resist so then i heard a foid's voice "GOOD BOY , YOU ARE AN ANGEL TO WORK WITH!" (like how animals get spoken to when they're at the vet) this was all recenlty... then last night i heard sounds of which i cannot desribe other than otherworldly bombastic hellish screaming and laughter. I swear to god i almost had a panic attack in my own sleep
i have many stories to tell, and many of the same indiviuals from the positive sleep paralysis keep showing up in my dreams repeatedly, and have thier own personality and i get to see them interact with eachother. Characters' personalities and apperances are consistent througout dreams, standing the test of time. they are "quirky"
i hope this all blows over soon so i can go back to getting sleep paraylsis kisses
i will be going to bed soon...so its a roll of the dice... heaven or hell?!?!?
wish me luck boyos
ill update if it was a good or bad experience in the morning...feeling nervous ngl
I began having near daily episodes of this since i was 12, it was so scary at first, and sometimes it still is. But i've managed to get over most of the fear.
i dont believe in therapy or whatever for this, it cant be helped...plus i can manage it. i have no diagnosis of any kind and am somewhat functional in life.
During these there is always someone or something in my bed with me, it is usually a positive experience as itll feel like someone is cuddling and kissing me while i sleep.
Lately the experience has uncomfortable/negative, which is out of the ordinary. During paralysis i dreamt a foid took a scalpel and was slicing open my head... i tried to scream for help and move away but i couldn't, all my dreams are vivid so i could feel the horrible pain as well
Then the following night i dreamt that giant telepathic worms put a metal tool that looked like a microphone but spins at the very end into my mouth and left ear... it was VERY uncomfortable to say the least...this time i didnt try to resist so then i heard a foid's voice "GOOD BOY , YOU ARE AN ANGEL TO WORK WITH!" (like how animals get spoken to when they're at the vet) this was all recenlty... then last night i heard sounds of which i cannot desribe other than otherworldly bombastic hellish screaming and laughter. I swear to god i almost had a panic attack in my own sleep
i have many stories to tell, and many of the same indiviuals from the positive sleep paralysis keep showing up in my dreams repeatedly, and have thier own personality and i get to see them interact with eachother. Characters' personalities and apperances are consistent througout dreams, standing the test of time. they are "quirky"
i hope this all blows over soon so i can go back to getting sleep paraylsis kisses
i will be going to bed soon...so its a roll of the dice... heaven or hell?!?!?
wish me luck boyos
ill update if it was a good or bad experience in the morning...feeling nervous ngl