Eternatus
I shall surrender to the darkness beneath me
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I made a post 6 months ago about this same thing. I would be alone obviously, and Im 24, in this years Ive assimilated every possible Blackpill concept but my brain got into survival mode because of severe trauma and depression lately.
I managed to keep my emotions on check being this all knowing Incel wizard that couldn’t be bothered, but now I feel alone again, Im watching ASMR kissing videos jfl. Comicon reminds me of childhood and I have a thing for cosplayer girls, even tho they are repulsed by my presence.
Why do I have to humiliate myself? I want to be included so bad with all the things I already know. Why can’t I accept loneliness once and for all, that Im a failure, that Im ugly, that love wasn’t for me, that I should stop thinking about the same coworker since 4yrs ago, that Im a mistake and that I should just decompose my remaining time away?
Why do I struggle so hard to accept this? It is so heartbreaking to know it all and feeling my heart pushing for survival, cause this is all it is about, survival. If u couldn’t be loved before 20 you are gonna be broken, forever, I lie to myself, there’s no way out, it’s all because of my face.
I managed to keep my emotions on check being this all knowing Incel wizard that couldn’t be bothered, but now I feel alone again, Im watching ASMR kissing videos jfl. Comicon reminds me of childhood and I have a thing for cosplayer girls, even tho they are repulsed by my presence.
Why do I have to humiliate myself? I want to be included so bad with all the things I already know. Why can’t I accept loneliness once and for all, that Im a failure, that Im ugly, that love wasn’t for me, that I should stop thinking about the same coworker since 4yrs ago, that Im a mistake and that I should just decompose my remaining time away?
Why do I struggle so hard to accept this? It is so heartbreaking to know it all and feeling my heart pushing for survival, cause this is all it is about, survival. If u couldn’t be loved before 20 you are gonna be broken, forever, I lie to myself, there’s no way out, it’s all because of my face.





