this world is horrid filth for me. I hate it. It’s scum, and I have no place in it at this rate.
Earlier today I was in public and I seen a young boy and young girl parting ways. They were about 12 - 11 ish. Clearly dating they were giving heart symbols to each other and flirting. Being an adult man seeing these kids having what I so desperately wanted is just sad. Obviously I acted as if I didn’t see them.
Few hours later I’m at home and my mom shows me this retarded ugly looking photo of me. The photo is about a week old and is just the perfect shot of everything wrong with my face. I look fucking subhuman. I told my mom she should not show me that photo. And she starts coping for me trying to pretend to like that photo.
She asks what’s wrong with it then I said “I literally look like a 50 year old pedophile at 18”
Worst part, the word “pedophile” instantly made me think of Peter Scully who looks to be in his 50s and is miles taller and way better looking than me. Then I realized I can’t even say I look like a 50 year old pedo because I would legitimately rather look like him than me.
God help me. I hate the fucking world. Life is worthless. I care about nothing beyond my looks anymore because objectively nothing beyond that matters.
Weather my country because a Mexican shithole or a racial utopia MY LIFE WILL BE EQUALLY SHIT BECAUSE OF MY FACE. I fucking despise the fact I was born.
Going to the woods to smoke my pain away. God why did you create me?
Earlier today I was in public and I seen a young boy and young girl parting ways. They were about 12 - 11 ish. Clearly dating they were giving heart symbols to each other and flirting. Being an adult man seeing these kids having what I so desperately wanted is just sad. Obviously I acted as if I didn’t see them.
Few hours later I’m at home and my mom shows me this retarded ugly looking photo of me. The photo is about a week old and is just the perfect shot of everything wrong with my face. I look fucking subhuman. I told my mom she should not show me that photo. And she starts coping for me trying to pretend to like that photo.
She asks what’s wrong with it then I said “I literally look like a 50 year old pedophile at 18”
Worst part, the word “pedophile” instantly made me think of Peter Scully who looks to be in his 50s and is miles taller and way better looking than me. Then I realized I can’t even say I look like a 50 year old pedo because I would legitimately rather look like him than me.
God help me. I hate the fucking world. Life is worthless. I care about nothing beyond my looks anymore because objectively nothing beyond that matters.
Weather my country because a Mexican shithole or a racial utopia MY LIFE WILL BE EQUALLY SHIT BECAUSE OF MY FACE. I fucking despise the fact I was born.
Going to the woods to smoke my pain away. God why did you create me?
