My mind is mostly numb and hazy. I just go through life in a routine, a rut. I feel and think and do the same things most days.
But there's a few things that pull you out of that almost comfortable rut and numbness, and they remind you of the brutal reality. Of what you missed out on, on what you'll never get no matter how much you want. Things that other people don't think twice about, they take it for granted.
And seeing a woman's pretty face is just one of those many things. But damn it's a brutal one. A beautiful face totally takes down all my defenses. I'm a face guy, I don't care about body as much: tits, ass etc... doesn't matter to me all that much in comparison. But the face... a beautiful one can make my soul ache, it can star in my daydreams, haunting me through them.
It's just ... so tiring. I'd rather feel starvation than this unfulfilled desire to hold, kiss, love, have sex, cuddle. It's been so many years, I'm way too old to still have this desire completely unfulfilled, it can be quite torturous at times. Nobody irl fucking gets it though, just you, a bunch of insignificant pixels on a screen on a forum I should really stop coming to.
But there's a few things that pull you out of that almost comfortable rut and numbness, and they remind you of the brutal reality. Of what you missed out on, on what you'll never get no matter how much you want. Things that other people don't think twice about, they take it for granted.
And seeing a woman's pretty face is just one of those many things. But damn it's a brutal one. A beautiful face totally takes down all my defenses. I'm a face guy, I don't care about body as much: tits, ass etc... doesn't matter to me all that much in comparison. But the face... a beautiful one can make my soul ache, it can star in my daydreams, haunting me through them.
It's just ... so tiring. I'd rather feel starvation than this unfulfilled desire to hold, kiss, love, have sex, cuddle. It's been so many years, I'm way too old to still have this desire completely unfulfilled, it can be quite torturous at times. Nobody irl fucking gets it though, just you, a bunch of insignificant pixels on a screen on a forum I should really stop coming to.
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