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There are two girls, Isabella and Mia, and out of nowhere, during recess, they were eating like usual, but Mia was crying. It turns out that Mia and Isabella had just come from ending debate from a class, and Mia and Isabella's team lost.
Once she was calmer, Mia explained that she was crying out of frustration. She said that she had spent the whole weekend and Friday (when classes were canceled) studying her part of the debate. She explained that she hadn't gone to the beach and had been studying at home to do well in the debate; getting a good grade and winning were her main goals.
But she lost, she lost to Rafaela. Mia said Rafaela hadn't put in nearly as much effort as her. Rafaela had spent those same days at the beach with her friends (yes, they spent those days at the beach and posted about it on their Instagram stories), without worrying about the debate in the same way. And yet, she still beat her. Mia kept repeating how unfair it was, she couldn't explain it, she felt that horrible feeling of helplessness.
Mia also kept saying that what hurt wasn't losing, but what it meant. The feeling that effort didn't guarantee anything. That someone could do less and still do better. That, no matter how hard she tried, there would always be someone who would simply do better. {Mia says all this while crying, saying things like, "No matter what I do, I can't be better," or something like that.}
She also includes other random things to top it off, like how she didn't laugh during the debate (and implies that Rafaela did), and she mentions that a guy made her laugh because he kept asking for points of information in a funny way during the debate, and Mia says she only laughed a little. Mia insisted that she barely reacted, as if that were also part of her effort to do well. It's like even telling the whole story, it's still unfair.
She repeated a lot that she didn't care so much about the debate itself; what really hurt wasn't losing, but losing like that. Having done more and not being enough.
"It didn't matter how hard I tried."
"No matter what I did, I was never going to be better."
That feeling Mia has is the same one we all feel, or at least I feel, that no matter what I do, it's useless. No matter how hard I try, I can't escape my fate. Ive got no social skills and Im ugly, but I have tried so hard and at the same time I failed again and again. And that's not just in terms of looks, but also on my basketball team, and in grades.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND? I'm not minimizing Mia's pain; I know her helplessness is real. But Mia is a total HTN, almost stacy, one of the prettiest in her class (Also a foid, dont feel companssion for her.). She's genetically blessed. And it was kind of nice to see someone whose life is already solved by their genes suffer a fraction of what an incel suffers every day. I'm somewhat fascinated.
The fact that this is only a tiny part of it and SHE STILL can't stand it.
Finally, someone like her feels this way.
Once she was calmer, Mia explained that she was crying out of frustration. She said that she had spent the whole weekend and Friday (when classes were canceled) studying her part of the debate. She explained that she hadn't gone to the beach and had been studying at home to do well in the debate; getting a good grade and winning were her main goals.
But she lost, she lost to Rafaela. Mia said Rafaela hadn't put in nearly as much effort as her. Rafaela had spent those same days at the beach with her friends (yes, they spent those days at the beach and posted about it on their Instagram stories), without worrying about the debate in the same way. And yet, she still beat her. Mia kept repeating how unfair it was, she couldn't explain it, she felt that horrible feeling of helplessness.
Mia also kept saying that what hurt wasn't losing, but what it meant. The feeling that effort didn't guarantee anything. That someone could do less and still do better. That, no matter how hard she tried, there would always be someone who would simply do better. {Mia says all this while crying, saying things like, "No matter what I do, I can't be better," or something like that.}
She also includes other random things to top it off, like how she didn't laugh during the debate (and implies that Rafaela did), and she mentions that a guy made her laugh because he kept asking for points of information in a funny way during the debate, and Mia says she only laughed a little. Mia insisted that she barely reacted, as if that were also part of her effort to do well. It's like even telling the whole story, it's still unfair.
She repeated a lot that she didn't care so much about the debate itself; what really hurt wasn't losing, but losing like that. Having done more and not being enough.
"It didn't matter how hard I tried."
"No matter what I did, I was never going to be better."
That feeling Mia has is the same one we all feel, or at least I feel, that no matter what I do, it's useless. No matter how hard I try, I can't escape my fate. Ive got no social skills and Im ugly, but I have tried so hard and at the same time I failed again and again. And that's not just in terms of looks, but also on my basketball team, and in grades.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND? I'm not minimizing Mia's pain; I know her helplessness is real. But Mia is a total HTN, almost stacy, one of the prettiest in her class (Also a foid, dont feel companssion for her.). She's genetically blessed. And it was kind of nice to see someone whose life is already solved by their genes suffer a fraction of what an incel suffers every day. I'm somewhat fascinated.
The fact that this is only a tiny part of it and SHE STILL can't stand it.
Finally, someone like her feels this way.
