Cope Saw an escort for the first time last week, I can't believe I didn't do this sooner.

[watcher]

Again, notice how you speak about everything in the context of you having no accountability or choice, this is an NPC mindset

Its not YOUR BRAIN'S VICES, they are YOUR VICES

Yes they can actually change instantly if you decide to change them

Your brain is not one single entity, its divided in different parts, its the reason why you can't choose to stop beating your heart, for example. Things that are more deeply rooted are harder to change (if you can even change them at all) of course I know that pleasure is more important than other people's opinions... LOGICALLY, but that does not make me any less nervous when I have to make a presentation in public or any less sad when I see girls avoiding eye contact with me, just knowing these things did not make any change in my deeper, more emotional brain connections

It obviously is

Changing your body requires months of pain and fatigue in a gym

Changing your mind literally just requires you to MAKE A DECISION and decide to change, yet people like you act like you have train the thought into existence like muscles lol

How ironic it would be if you are a gymcel, you've already done way more effort in your life than is required to change your perspective

"Train the brain" is the best case scenario, since it means you can make a change in the first place. I still have the suspicion that I might never be able to change the way I FEEL about these things even if I change how I THINK about them. They are different processes.
And yes I am a gymcel like any other narcy.

 

[BlkPillPres]

They are different processes

No they aren't, how you "feel" about something is determined by your perspective on it

SUBJECTIVE MINDSET:
If you value women and revere them (WHICH A LOT OF YOU DO AND YOU DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT), then with that perspective sex without affection and validation doesn't seem worth it

OBJECTIVE MINDSET:
If see women as a means to an ends to satisfy you sexually, then with that perspective sex is just sex for you, no different than eating food

SUBJECTIVE MINDSET:
If you see dogs as "pets" and "family" and "best friends" then seeing other cultures kill dogs and eat them for their meat will disturb you on some level, yet you are quite alright with eating beef and feel nothing when it comes to cows, and in indian Hindu culture they are disturbed by the consumption of cow meat

OBJECTIVE MINDSET:
If you see all animals as "just animals" then you can treat any animal as both pet or food, when it suits you

The perspective you have when it comes to sex and relationships IS A PERSPECTIVE YOU CHOOSE TO HOLD ONTO EVERYDAY YOU WAKE UP

STOP VALUING SUBJECTIVITY

Stop with this "I can't help it" nonsense, LITERALLY ALL OF US WERE RAISED WITH THE PERSPECTIVE YOU CURRENTLY HAVE (EVERY ESCORTCEL), so it makes no sense to say you can't change when other men have

And yes I am a gymcel like any other narcy.

JFL the irony, so painfully changing your body is somehow easier for you that changing your mind, well its the reverse for me, maybe that's because I stopped being an egoist

I'll never understand how an incel (a social reject) becomes prideful, you have nothing to be proud about lol

Stop with this "narcy" nonsense, its a cope

 

[watcher]

JFL the irony, so painfully changing your body is somehow easier for you that changing your mind, well its the reverse for me, maybe that's because I stopped being an egoist

I'll never understand how an incel (a social reject) becomes prideful, you have nothing to be proud about lol

Stop with this "narcy" nonsense, its a cope

Yes that is how the narcy brain works, I would rather go through years of pain to look good physically to impress others and maybe have a girl feeling attracted to me than spending a few dozen bucks on a hot escort.

Because like I already said, a narcy brain values validation more than pleasure, its a fucked up priority system that can (and did) ruin your life. I don't know if you ever had it as bad as I have it so I can't tell whether I can trust you in this whole 'changing your brain is easy' theory. Did you got so nervous in public speaking that your hands would shake and you would lose your breath? Did you used to scan other people's faces through your entire day to see how they react to you? I don't think so.

 

[BlkPillPres]

Did you got so nervous in public speaking that your hands would shake and you would lose your breath? Did you used to scan other people's faces through your entire day to see how they react to you? I don't think so.

Yes, everybody with Autism goes through this, everybody is self conscious, but the core reason people are self conscious is because they think they have a chance at making people like them

One day I just decided that it was just too much effort and not enough reward, and I just stopped caring about my appearance, and ironically that worked out better for my "personality" and people found me more likeable, but ironically I now wanted nothing to do with people nor did I care to impress them

I experienced all what you said minus the "lose your breath" part which I think is really just an exaggeration on your part, because how many times did you go to a nurses office or were hospitalized for it?

I doubt you ever had the "condition" treated at all, it was all in your head

You are just trying to make it sound so extreme so you can rationalize your actions and your mindset - "Its so bad I lost my breath bro" JFL

Come on dude, everyones hands shake when they are nervous

The looking at peoples faces thing is paranoia, that goes away a bit when you stop caring, BUT YOU CAN ONLY STOP CARING IF YOU STOP THINKING YOU ACTUALLY HAVE A CHANCE (WHICH YOU HAVEN'T DONE YET)

It never goes away completely though, if I hear a group of people laughing nearby I always assume its me they are laughing at and I have to convince myself not to look to find out, you can't do anything about it anyways, no point focusing on things you can't change

 

[watcher]

Yes, everybody with Autism goes through this, everybody is self conscious, but the core reason people are self conscious is because they think they have a chance at making people like them

One day I just decided that it was just too much effort and not enough reward, and I just stopped caring about my appearance, and ironically that worked out better for my "personality" and people found me more likeable, but ironically I now wanted nothing to do with people nor did I care to impress them

I experienced all what you said minus the "lose your breath" part which I think is really just an exaggeration on your part, because how many times did you go to a nurses office or were hospitalized for it?

I doubt you ever had the "condition" treated at all, it was all in your head

You are just trying to make it sound so extreme so you can rationalize your actions and your mindset - "Its so bad I lost my breath bro" JFL

Come on dude, everyones hands shake when they are nervous

The looking at peoples faces thing is paranoia, that goes away a bit when you stop caring, BUT YOU CAN ONLY STOP CARING IF YOU STOP THINKING YOU ACTUALLY HAVE A CHANCE (WHICH YOU HAVEN'T DONE YET)

It never goes away completely though, if I hear a group of people laughing nearby I always assume its me they are laughing at and I have to convince myself not to look to find out, you can't do anything about it anyways, no point focusing on things you can't change

I have been working out, on and off, for 9 years, not getting any pussy yet I never hired an escort.
If this is not "extreme" then what is?
You are the one trying to make it seem like an insignificant thing that I could easily just get over. Like when normies just tell incels to "get over it" for being almost in your 30s and a KHV.

 

[BlkPillPres]

I have been working out, on and off, for 9 years, not getting any pussy yet I never hired an escort.
If this is not "extreme" then what is?

Its not extreme, you are just being picky ironically like the women you hate, beggars can't be choosers, all you have are the cards you were dealt, refusing to playing with those cards and just live in denial is just childish, you aren't facing any extreme hardships, you are just being stubborn and childish, that's really all this is

You are the one trying to make it seem like an insignificant

It is insignificant, but IDK, maybe you are so low T, that your pride outweighs your libido

I seriously can't fathom how a man will rationalize keeping himself sexless for reasons of pride, your T levels must be lower than the depth of the Mariana Trench

thing that I could easily just get over. Like when normies just tell incels to "get over it" for being almost in your 30s and a KHV.

That's not even comparable, normies are telling you "get over it and remain sexually starved", I'm saying "get over yourself so you can satisfy your cravings"

But clearly you don't have any cravings, which makes me think you took roids and fucked up your hormones

 

[watcher]

Its not extreme, you are just being picky ironically like the women you hate, beggars can't be choosers, all you have are the cards you were dealt, refusing to playing with those cards and just live in denial is just childish, you aren't facing any extreme hardships, you are just being stubborn and childish, that's really all this is

It is insignificant, but IDK, maybe you are so low T, that your pride outweighs your libido

I seriously can't fathom how a man will rationalize keeping himself sexless for reasons of pride, your T levels must be lower than the depth of the Mariana Trench

That's not even comparable, normies are telling you "get over it and remain sexually starved", I'm saying "get over yourself so you can satisfy your cravings"

But clearly you don't have any cravings, which makes me think you took roids and fucked up your hormones

You make a lot of assumptions. Maybe that explains why you think you know so much about how the human brain works, its the Dunning-Kruger effect.

By the way, I have a friend with 650 (which is high in 2020) and he would never fuck an escort either. What makes you think T levels have anything to do with this? If I didn't care about having sex I would not even post in this forum in the first place. I guess you are also delusional about your knowledge about hormones as well.

 

[BlkPillPres]

I have a friend with 650 (which is high in 2020) and he would never fuck an escort either

1. That's just what he tells you, talking about paying for sex is not something you really do with just anybody, even friends

2. How do you know he doesn't have sex with willing women?

You make a lot of assumptions. Maybe that explains why you think you know so much about how the human brain works, its the Dunning-Kruger effect.

What makes you think T levels have anything to do with this?

Your libido, if you can seriously deny yourself sex just for reasons of pride, then your libido IS NOT NORMAL

That is not the libido of your average man, no average guy is literally going to keep themselves a virgin and remain sex starved till death because women don't like them, you'd be so horny you wouldn't give a fuck if you had even a normal libido

 

[MentalistKebab]

JFL at people here just stating the obvious by saying Chad gets it for free

No shit, no point in dwelling on it

 

[watcher]

1. That's just what he tells you, talking about paying for sex is not something you really do with just anybody, even friends

LMAO at you thinking you know my friends better than I do, you sure do have an huge ego for someone always telling others to let go and enjoy life. By the way, he was bitching about how his girlfriend is not fucking him during the lockdown recently. Does this sound like someone who fuck hookers when he's horny?

2. How do you know he doesn't have sex with willing women?

He does have sex with willing women (his fucking girlfriend?) and yet he told me once that fucking prostitutes is, by his words, "bottom of the barrel"

Your libido, if you can seriously deny yourself sex just for reasons of pride, then your libido IS NOT NORMAL

That is not the libido of your average man, no average guy is literally going to keep themselves a virgin and remain sex starved till death because women don't like them, you'd be so horny you wouldn't give a fuck if you had even a normal libido

Source: your ass
I wake up with raging erections, I can become hard easily, I want to fuck half the women I see on the streets, my sex drive is perfectly fine. But my narcissism keeps me from having sex, which is the only thing that is "not normal" about me. You have no idea about what you are talking about, just baseless assumptions that you made up in your head.

 

[Incel_Because_Short]

He does have sex with willing women (his fucking girlfriend?) and yet he told me once that fucking prostitutes is, by his words, "bottom of the barrel"

And he is absolutely correct tbh.

Escortcelling is one big cope at the end of the day. I don't believe it will ever be as good as being in a relationship and having sex that way.

The hooker is just selling me a fantasy, and that fantasy is only active for the time that I pay her. Once our time is up, I am still alone sleeping in my bed.

Whereas a relationship is more real, there's actual feelings involved and it's an ongoing relationship that doesn't end once the clock is up.

Again I'm not saying that escortcelling is the solution, I'm just saying that I felt better having experienced sex and getting to know what it's like, and feel more positive about life knowing that I could obtain it virtually any time I want by paying.

In the long-run, escortcelling will probably not be enough as having a genuine sexual relationship.

 

[watcher]

And he is absolutely correct tbh.

Escortcelling is one big cope at the end of the day. I don't believe it will ever be as good as being in a relationship and having sex that way.

The hooker is just selling me a fantasy, and that fantasy is only active for the time that I pay her. Once our time is up, I am still alone sleeping in my bed.

Whereas a relationship is more real, there's actual feelings involved and it's an ongoing relationship that doesn't end once the clock is up.

Again I'm not saying that escortcelling is the solution, I'm just saying that I felt better having experienced sex and getting to know what it's like, and feel more positive about life knowing that I could obtain it virtually any time I want by paying.

In the long-run, escortcelling will probably not be enough as having a genuine sexual relationship.

Yes, I know it is pathetic.

HOWEVER

It is still less pathetic than being sexless due to your concerns over other people.

My brain would rather avoid sex with hot women than having these same women think I am ugly, disgusting, etc.

It is THAT bad.

 

[BlkPillPres]

you sure do have an huge ego for someone always telling others to let go and enjoy life

Please tell me how anything I said is egotistical, you are just throwing words around but you can't validate any of your arguments

He does have sex with willing women (his fucking girlfriend?)

JFL so what was your fucking point in saying:

By the way, I have a friend with 650 (which is high in 2020) and he would never fuck an escort either

You were saying this as though he had to resist any urges, he's having his needs met, its very easy to say you won't pay for sex when you are having your sexual needs met, just like its very easy to say you'll never steal food when you aren't starving on the streets

Why do you keep making pointless statements

I wake up with raging erections, I can become hard easily, I want to fuck half the women I see on the streets, my sex drive is perfectly fine. But my narcissism keeps me from having sex

The "but" part wouldn't exist if you had a normal libido, also JFL at you telling me this earlier:

I still have the suspicion that I might never be able to change the way I FEEL about these things even if I change how I THINK about them

Don't you see how contradictory this is?



So you DO have the will power to resist your "strong" sexual urges due to the principles you have based on your narcissim

But you conveniently DON'T have the will power to change your perspective

Yeah, makes perfect sense, you can resist your biology (strong physical cravings), but you can't change your perspective (shit that is self imposed and all in your head)

You are a walking contradiction

My brain would rather avoid sex with hot women than having these same women think I am ugly, disgusting, etc.

It is THAT bad.

"My brain, my brain, my brain"

Ironically you're the type to likely call normies NPC's

Ok by that logic, women's brains are making them do everything, they aren't taking advantage of modern times, they literally have no choice, their brains are forcing them, its their brains forcing them to divorce men for half of their wealth, its their brains forcing the to cheat, its their brains forcing them to be extremely hypergamous, THERE IS NO PERSONAL CHOICE INVOLVED AT ALL

So stop complaining then and abandon the black pill because its all pointless as personal choice doesn't exist and NOBODY IS ACCOUNTABLE FOR THEIR DECISIONS

And he is absolutely correct tbh.

Escortcelling is one big cope at the end of the day. I don't believe it will ever be as good as being in a relationship and having sex that way.

The hooker is just selling me a fantasy, and that fantasy is only active for the time that I pay her. Once our time is up, I am still alone sleeping in my bed.

Whereas a relationship is more real, there's actual feelings involved and it's an ongoing relationship that doesn't end once the clock is up.

Again I'm not saying that escortcelling is the solution, I'm just saying that I felt better having experienced sex and getting to know what it's like, and feel more positive about life knowing that I could obtain it virtually any time I want by paying.

In the long-run, escortcelling will probably not be enough as having a genuine sexual relationship.

This is where you and I would disagree, you're basically a half step away from my perspective since you took the plunge and paid for it

The difference is that you still mentally categorize sex as something "special" and "sacred" and it has to be "earned", so paying for it is a "cope" as you didn't get it the "right way"

But try and understand that paying for bride has been a norm for thousands of years before we even existed, paying for sex was always a norm, and there wasn't any self imposed shame held by men like we do today

Kings didn't pride themselves on how many women they could woo, they had hundreds of "concubines"

@watcher
Do you guys see the irony that you actually have more pride than fucking kings

You need to start seeing sex like food, you don't take pride in your ability to hunt and kill animals for meat now do you, no, because you aren't living in hunter gatherer times, there are grocery stores, restaurants, fast food outlets, etc, so you simply buy what you want

Sex is the same, there is no cope, its a product to be purchased just like anything else, you need to stop pedastalizing women and their bodies as something to be "earned", and earning it is a testament to your greatness

Which reminds me of another thread I made:

[Hard To Swallow Edition] - It Is Contradictory To Value "Female Validation" Whilst Simultaneously Devaluing Females Themselves

This is something that needs to be addressed, I'm seeing a lot of blue pilled posts against paying for sex, and the most frustrating part isn't their refusal, its the blatant contradiction in their arguments and their mindset, that female validation means more to them than sex, while at the same...

incels.is

How can you devalue women as an existence, speak of them as illogical, emotional, less intelligent, etc, while at the same time claiming that their evaluation of you is something that matters (do you see the obvious contradiction yet?)

THAT WOULD BE LIKE ME SAYING I HAVE A BROKEN MIRROR, YET I TRUST ITS ABILITY TO GIVE ME AN ACCURATE REFLECTION

 

[watcher]

Please tell me how anything I said is egotistical, you are just throwing words around but you can't validate any of your arguments

The fact you think you know more about my own friends than me show that you have an huge ego. You think you know everything there is to know, and that exceptions to your view do not exist.

You were saying this as though he had to resist any urges, he's having his needs met, its very easy to say you won't pay for sex when you are having your sexual needs met, just like its very easy to say you'll never steal food when you aren't starving on the streets

No, I never said he had to "resist urges". I said that because you claimed that somehow not wanting to fuck escorts meant that you have low testosterone.

Why do you keep making pointless statements

Why do you keep making baseless claims? By the way, it could be said that, at least now, he is "starving" for sex since his girlfriend won't fuck him during lockdown, do you think he is going to go ahead and fuck escorts? If he was going to do this, then he wouldn't be bitching about it. Not fucking escorts is all about ego and narcissism, it has NOTHING to do with testosterone.

The "but" part wouldn't exist if you had a normal libido, also JFL at you telling me this earlier:

Don't you see how contradictory this is?



So you DO have the will power to resist your "strong" sexual urges due to the principles you have based on your narcissim

But you conveniently DON'T have the will power to change your perspective

I already told you this, but I will do it again (for the last time) our brain is not one single unit working independently, we have our lizard brain, our mammal brain and our human brain. I will not bother explaining them all so google it yourself.
My lizard brain, like any other man, wants sex, and it wants it badly. This is where CRAVINGS come from.
However, my mammal brain, responsible for more complex social behaviors, is pathologically concerned with validation and impressing others, to the point it keeps me from doing what I want to do.
My human brain is logically OK with escortcelling and I see nothing wrong with it, LOGICALLY. There are no """"""Principles""""" that I have against prostitution, this is just a strawman created by you. I am talking about a mental illness that keep me from getting what I want.

Yeah, makes perfect sense, you can resist your biology (strong physical cravings), but you can't change your perspective (shit that is self imposed and all in your head)

You are a walking contradiction

My brain puts validation above sexual gratification, that is why I "resist" these urges. The part of me that deals with social issues is stronger and I am in a constant struggle with both of these. If I could change a switch in my head and stop caring I would've done this 3 years ago.

 

[grondilu]

They do all of that because at the end of the day you’re doing them a favor by paying them for a basic need

Just because it's a basic need doesn't mean you shouldn't have to pay for it.

You pay for the food you eat, don't you ?

 

[Deleted member 27159]

It's not cucked to fuck for money
It's cucked to spend money on women without having sex, which is what the "cuck" thing is all about: sexless men spending money on sluts who fuck other dudes

Stop using the word "cuck" for everything you don't like

I wasn’t talking about the people who were exortmaxxing. I was talking about people in betabuxx relationships who barely get any sex.

 

[watcher]

I wasn’t talking about the people who were exortmaxxing. I was talking about people in betabuxx relationships who barely get any sex.

Maybe got your post mixed with other copers here, my bad.

"My brain, my brain, my brain"

Ironically you're the type to likely call normies NPC's

Ok by that logic, women's brains are making them do everything, they aren't taking advantage of modern times, they literally have no choice, their brains are forcing them, its their brains forcing them to divorce men for half of their wealth, its their brains forcing the to cheat, its their brains forcing them to be extremely hypergamous, THERE IS NO PERSONAL CHOICE INVOLVED AT ALL

So stop complaining then and abandon the black pill because its all pointless as personal choice doesn't exist and NOBODY IS ACCOUNTABLE FOR THEIR DECISIONS

I did make my own decision and I will get an erotic massage in 2 days, even if I hate it. I made this decision many months ago.

I don't know where you came up with this idea that I gave up or that I will never do anything about this. Not only do I plan on fucking hookers but I also want to have a sexdoll in the future and maybe VR or whatever helps me cope.

 

[Deleted member 27159]

Maybe got your post mixed with other copers here, my bad.

Oh alright. Thought you were replying to my comment

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

I’m never going to escortcel

 

[BlkPillPres]

Maybe got your post mixed with other copers here, my bad.


I did make my own decision and I will get an erotic massage in 2 days, even if I hate it. I made this decision many months ago.

I don't know where you came up with this idea that I gave up or that I will never do anything about this. Not only do I plan on fucking hookers but I also want to have a sexdoll in the future and maybe VR or whatever helps me cope.

Dude seriously whats wrong with you, are you bipolar?, you were just going on and on about how you can't do it because of your "narcy brain", you on drugs or something?

 

[Deleted member 17719]

I couldn't afford it regularly nor do I think I could properly enjoy it as I am an autist with an anxiety disorder. I simply don't feel comfortable being around humans, I would have to be drunk which in turn would make the situation worse because being drunk causes erection problems.

 

[watcher]

Dude seriously whats wrong with you, are you bipolar?, you were just going on and on about how you can't do it because of your "narcy brain", you on drugs or something?

I never COULD do it, I am FORCING MYSELF into doing it NOW because I am tired of waiting for my brain to change.

It's not that hard to understand. I am just explaining why I spent so many years without going for it.

 

[BlkPillPres]

I never COULD do it, I am FORCING MYSELF into doing it NOW because I am tired of waiting for my brain to change.

It's not that hard to understand. I am just explaining why I spent so many years without going for it.

 

[Deleted member 20987]

For the record, I'm 23 years old, I am a 5'4", Middle Eastern, ethnic gymcel, and I have a nose that looks like this, while basically looking like a 17 year old boy:

When I arrived to her apartment, I was greeted and hugged by a very cute blonde girl. She was about 5'2", 115 lbs, and pretty much looked like this but with bigger tits and a nicer ass:


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Not necessarily my type, but the reason I chose her was because she had a reputation for being safe, and because I wanted to make sure she was smaller than me to reduce the amount of awkwardness there would be.

We started with the condom but when I didn't react at all she asked if I wanted without the condom, so I said yes. Much better experience.

Fakecel detected.

Look I know it takes something as extreme as escorting for women to actually meet and fuck their looks and height-match through paid sex. But the fact she (a blonde haired, blue eyed, white skinned stacy) fucked you without a condom is a big red "brag" flag.
You even said she was tight and wet too, so enjoying it too- at least on a "physiological" level.

Escorts are notorious for not even performing disinterested blowjobs (without condom), on clients, despite the low risk of ejaculation due to cum dodging.

So the fact she suggested you take the rubber off and offer, presumably under the counter bareback intercourse, is either a larp or something else we're not being told.

Why do you think she did this unicorn activity with you? What was the incentive, cause only high status men get this as a very costly extra or its some form of bribe.

 

[RichCel]

>he thinks the Coronavirus is real

It's real all right. Not as deadly as the media makes it out to be but it will still give you the coof and shits and general misery for two weeks. Not worth it.

 

[Eternal Observer]

I'm still a hugless, kissless virgin at 23.

Right away she starts making out with me while touching my penis.

I pushed her to the side and then pulled her hips towards mine, entered her then lifted one of her legs on my shoulders to begin thrusting.

Houston, we have a problem.

 

[GermanCel27]

do i hate those degenerate sluts. no words anymore. i hate this reality

 

[It all fell down]

For the record, I'm 23 years old, I am a 5'4", Middle Eastern, ethnic gymcel, and I have a nose that looks like this, while basically looking like a 17 year old boy:


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I'm just writing this up to share knowledge on what the experience was like for me, nothing more.

Tl;Dr: Saw an escort, really enjoyed it, don't feel as suicidal anymore, might start doing this regularly.

If I had one sentence to describe what seeing an escort is like, it's like paying a girl of your choosing to treat you like Chad for an hour.

The weeks before I was insanely depressed. I'm still a hugless, kissless virgin at 23. I not only graduated from University two years ago, but I'm now stuck in a job that's predominantly men. Without a decent social circle, this meant that my only chance to get a date was using Tinder, which again does NOT work if you are not white, tall and goodlooking. I was getting close to planning suicide, and I thought that if I was going to kill my-self anyway, I would at least see an escort just to know what sex was like.

After a bit of research, I came across an escort review board in my city, which lead me to an escort's website. We exchanged a few emails and set up a time early afternoon to meet.

When I arrived to her apartment, I was greeted and hugged by a very cute blonde girl. She was about 5'2", 115 lbs, and pretty much looked like this but with bigger tits and a nicer ass:


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Not necessarily my type, but the reason I chose her was because she had a reputation for being safe, and because I wanted to make sure she was smaller than me to reduce the amount of awkwardness there would be.

Honestly I thought it would all feel fake and mechanical, but she did a really good job at making me feel special the whole time. We chatted for like 20 minutes and fucked for the remainder. She offered a glass of wine as well which was nice.

Do you know how it doesn't matter what Chad says, girls will just latch on to his every word and try to make conversation as natural as possible? She did that to me. I was literally talking about how the Bank of Canada chooses interest rates and how it affects her ability to get a mortgage or loan, and she was petting my shoulders the whole time, looking at me with lovey eyes while telling me "haha I like mortgages too, I want to get one for a big house haha." She seemed kinda dim tbh.

She then asked me if I wanted to take a shower. I did and not long after we were on her bed. Right away she starts making out with me while touching my penis. I am gymcelled, and she did not shy away from feeling up my shoulders, chest and ass and telling me that I have a hot body. Shortly after she started sucking me and doing all kinds of amazing tricks on my penis. She even deepthroated me briefly which felt amazing.

Then she got on top of me and I swear I was in heaven. She was really tight, wet and warm down there, and she began grinding into me while kissing me. I thought I would cum in like 30 seconds, but I must have death grip syndrome because she was going at it for five minutes and I didn't cum. So she asked me to get on top of her.

At this point I felt very primal, I pushed her to the side and then pulled her hips towards mine, entered her then lifted one of her legs on my shoulders to begin thrusting. She was moaning the whole time and grabbing my ass, my back and my shoulders. Even if she was pretending, you don't really care in the moment, and your body certainly doesn't know the difference. I pounded away for like ten minutes until her vagina started spasming and I couldn't hold it so I coomed. I never felt this good and alive in my life.

We finished up, she kissed me goodbye as I left the door, and the car ride home must have been the most peaceful thing I have experienced. Normally after a wank you just end up feeling tired and sad, but nutting inside a cute girl rejuvenates you in a way that nothing else can, even if it was paid for.

Also, don't listen to normies when they say that sex takes skill. It really doesn't. Your body knows how to fuck even if you're a virgin, it's as natural as taking a shit.

I didn't feel the need to drink or smoke weed that night, and I have actually not had any drugs since the encounter.

I know it seems stupid, but I think I may be totally fine with living life like this, seeing an escort maybe once a month or every two weeks depending on my budget. Honestly I should have done this sooner, and if you haven't seen an escort yet at least try it. Don't deprive your biological needs for the sake of principle, that's extremely cucked.

You did right. Escortmaxxing is underrated in this forum.