SuicideFuel Saddens me

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

So i just drove home after work , which was pretty stressfull
and i parked the car in front of my appartment .

I didnt get out , i just sat there with my head resting against the windshield ,
watching the rain and thinking .

And i started fantasizing and envisioned how it would feel if a girl would be sitting next to me ,
who loves me and share this moment with me .
She would hold my hand or rest her head against my shoulder and enjoy the silence with me .
We would be sitting in the cozy warmth of the car and just share this beautiful moment while the cold rain running down the windshield .

And then i felt tears running down my face , cause i realized how empty i am inside
, how much i missed out on , how starved i am for human affection .
Its the first time in like a year that i cried , NoFap is making me weirdly emotional .

I realized that i will never feel that way , never feel that easy teenage love .
All i will maybe get is some used up whore with bad character who cant shut up for even a minute .
Who will nag and annoy me and use me til i have nothing left to give .
And then she will divorce me .

I just want someone to defy convention for once .

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

Brutal as duck. Try to cope man

Also why are you doing NoFap?

 

[JestER]

YiKeS iNkWeLL, yOu ArEn'T EnTiTlEd tO HaPPiNeSS

 

[Deleted member 19236]

masturbation numbs you ngl.
friday I cried thrice while I was on NoFap, and I had to break the single digit streak.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

why are you doing NoFap?

it makes me happier ngl
it really helps to shut out the biggest source of instant gratification from your Life
I feel like i have higher T and it raised my Quality of Life
Also i feel like , when i masturbate , i give up and accept defeat to Female Supremacy .
Especially if i watch porn , i also feed a fucked up industry .
Im probably going to be celibate for Life , so i might as well keep some dignity .
TLDR ; its a good cope .

masturbation numbs you ngl.

It feeds your tendency to be apathetic .

YiKeS iNkWeLL, yOu ArEn'T EnTiTlEd tO HaPPiNeSS

IT wont touch this Thread .

 

[ihaveno1]

This is some very sad shit, man.

 

[littlemanhikicel]

I like rainy days. Less ppl on the street.