Roping takes courage I don't have.

[Deleted member 7448]

I've been fantasizing about roping since I was ~15. I'm 25 khv now, failed so many things in life, you would not believe what I did. Incels? Pfft, being an incel is the least of my problems. fucked up big time in a lot of aspects.

Imagine every part of your life that you could potentially fail in. Some of the things I did: Being poor, dropping out, spending all my poor parents' life savings on alcohol/rent, moving back in with parents, used to be alcoholic now I can't even do that cause I ruined my pancreas, fat, chipped teeth cause of black out drunkenness too often, never had friends cause my personality is such that I really hate any sort of social interaction, spending 100% of my free time on my PC, re-enrolling in a shittier degree in my shitty country with no future prospects, not looking forward to the average salary of 200$ a month working in my country, balding, out of shape.

These are just some of the aspects of my life that I've fucked up in. Ohh there are so many more. And yet I don't rope, despite always kind of wanting to. It takes real courage, real willpower.

 

[whitekidney]

I does takes courage, but when it's done, it's done, like everything you've fucked up on it's non existent anymore, in just moment everything just... stops.

 

[EthnicelNL]

The only alternative to rope is cope.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I does takes courage, but when it's done, it's done, like everything you've fucked up on it's non existent anymore, in just moment everything just... stops.

I've been contemplating suicide for years now, of course I've thought about this. There's just something in our primate brains making it really hard to actually do it.