SuicideFuel Received a death note from my medical peeps

[Emba]

Big list of free drugs I did not ask for...

Some are "dangerous" if used incorrectly. Or if used together...

"May cause death."

Sure beats my alt escape idea...

Copd from smoking etc....

 

[Wrath]

my condolences

 

[Obanchito]

 

[Autist]

See you in the afterlife brocel

 

[Emba]

See you in the afterlife brocel

Bcnu

 

[anon65]

However it goes, you will be remembered here.

 

[Emba]

However it goes, you will be remembered here.

Thanks bro, a morphine od sure beats a, (redacted!)

 

[Pancakecel]

Free prescription drugs? Im jealous, man. Is it stuff that will get you high/ funny feeling?

 

[Rezecel]

my condolences

 

[Emba]

Free prescription drugs? Im jealous, man. Is it stuff that will get you high/ funny feeling?

Too strong for fun? Idk.

While I looked it up, it seems a bit like concentrated laudanum of the 1800's.

I told the Dr nurse guy I sleep 13hours a day and this stuff causes sleep...

But yeah! Free drugs for the already dying!

First home visit after my hospital er time, each person that came gave me a diy will kit.

It's like saying, yup, yous dying! Better get rid of/ give away everything!

Unfortunately there's no cels to take my stuff.

I migh make a emba radio post about it?

 

[Ogostt]

Good luck brocel, you will ascend to waifu heaven and have all the 2d pussy you could desire for

 

[AsiaCel]

VIP ticket to heaven

 

[Emba]

VIP ticket to heaven

Ikr?

But its so in my face it's brutal

 

[TooSomething]

You are joking. Please tell me you are.

 

[Emba]

You are joking. Please tell me you are.

I wish bro...

It's like a kick in the ass to me.

 

[TooSomething]

So, what does it mean to receive a death note? I have never even heard of such a thing.

 

[Emba]

So, what does it mean to receive a death note? I have never even heard of such a thing.

It's just a list of drugs (that may cause death if used together) and the way to use them. (No mention of their interactions)

 

[TooSomething]

It's just a list of drugs (that may cause death if used together) and the way to use them. (No mention of their interactions)

But you aren't dying, are you?

 

[sub5ricemale]

I'm sorry. We'll hold a .is funeral service.

 

[Wolnir]

See you in Gandy heaven, unc. We will all be chads in Gandy heaven.

 

[Emba]

But you aren't dying, are you?

Technically we all are, I'm just in the front of the line.

The drug list is designed for folks that are about to die. "Morphine concentrate?" That's prime junky stuff right there!

"The risk of addiction is a non issue because they are dying anyway" or something like that.


Basically, three minutes without air and people die. Sometimes I'm at 70% air.

 

[TooSomething]

Technically we all are, I'm just in the front of the line.

The drug list is designed for folks that are about to die. "Morphine concentrate?" That's prime junky stuff right there!

"The risk of addiction is a non issue because they are dying anyway" or something like that.


Basically, three minutes without air and people die. Sometimes I'm at 70% air.

I hope you will share some good moments of your life with us.

Memories is all we have.

 

[Emba]

I hope you will share some good moments of your life with us.

Memories is all we have.

They are so microscopic bro. Mostly dog/cat petting and woods scenes....

 

[TooSomething]

They are so microscopic bro. Mostly dog/cat petting and woods scenes....

So? I'd like to remember you. At least these things are genuine.
And what about your childhood and youth? Iirc you never talked about that.

 

[Emba]

So? I'd like to remember you. At least these things are genuine.
And what about your childhood and youth? Iirc you never talked about that.

My mom once told me

"Don't be gay"

Back in the 70s because I had a black fren - my only fren - that liked to larp as Chinese! (Vinny?) He was so funny.

She was like, "...becauae I don't want you to be lonely in you're older years..."

Anyway I told her, "Vinny ain't gay, he's just silly!"

I was shocked at the whole thing....

It's not like I had any girlfriends, sure. But still, lack of a girlfriend doesn't mean gay. It just means ugly...

Meanwhile, she's hooking up with rando losers that are willing to put up with her - for a while.

Single mom type stuff.

 

[TooSomething]

My mom once told me

"Don't be gay"

Back in the 70s because I had a black fren - my only fren - that liked to larp as Chinese! (Vinny?) He was so funny.

She was like, "...becauae I don't want you to be lonely in you're older years..."

Anyway I told her, "Vinny ain't gay, he's just silly!"

I was shocked at the whole thing....

It's not like I had any girlfriends, sure. But still, lack of a girlfriend doesn't mean gay. It just means ugly...

Meanwhile, she's hooking up with rando losers that are willing to put up with her - for a while.

Single mom type stuff.

People at work accused me of being gay because I never had a girlfriend.
I too have noticed that because of the lack if this experience I was acting differently and couldn't connect to the normies.

This is why I was considered gay, even after having gone to prostitutes.
It didn't repair the damage.

I didn't know you've had a single mother. At least you've had a friend back then.
What happened to him? Why aren't you friend anymore?

 

[Emba]

People at work accused me of being gay because I never had a girlfriend.
I too have noticed that because of the lack if this experience I was acting differently and couldn't connect to the normies.

This is why I was considered gay, even after having gone to prostitutes.
It didn't repair the damage.

I didn't know you've had a single mother. At least you've had a friend back then.
What happened to him? Why aren't you friend anymore?

He was a young childhood fren, we moved around a lot, hence no stability or ltr/ frens...

When I got older I kept moving.... Looking for "home" cheapest living here. Still not fully home.

 

[TooSomething]

He was a young childhood fren, we moved around a lot, hence no stability or ltr/ frens...

When I got older I kept moving.... Looking for "home" cheapest living here. Still not fully home.

This is not a good life at all, tbh.

 

[Monikak]

Just use the drugs correctly and you should be fine, right?

 

[Rapistcel]

See you in the afterlife brocel

 

[Emba]

This is not a good life at all, tbh.

It's brutal

 

[Emba]

Just use the drugs correctly and you should be fine, right?

Maybe... If super careful.

But I really want to stop being in pain... It's very tempting to get some relief

 

[Solid State]

Too strong for fun? Idk.

While I looked it up, it seems a bit like concentrated laudanum of the 1800's.

I told the Dr nurse guy I sleep 13hours a day and this stuff causes sleep...

But yeah! Free drugs for the already dying!

First home visit after my hospital er time, each person that came gave me a diy will kit.

It's like saying, yup, yous dying! Better get rid of/ give away everything!

Unfortunately there's no cels to take my stuff.

I migh make a emba radio post about it?

 

[Grodd]

Brutal man my condolences.

 

[TooSomething]

Maybe... If super careful.

But I really want to stop being in pain... It's very tempting to get some relief

Understandable, but what if you get punished for suicide?

Maybe it's just a lie to keep you alive as long as possible so you will suffer longer.
Maybe it is real and you get punished for choosing the easy way out.

Then again, I don't think that roping is easy. I habe considered it many times but so far I have always chickened out because I am scared and have huge respect for anyone who can grow the balls to do it, tbh.

Though, I have suffered mild to strong chronic pain for almost two years now and it has contributed to me considering suicide.

It's like, I am otherwise pretty healthy but can't do much because my right elbow is in constant pain.

It drives you nuts over time, even if it doesn't hurt that bad at times.
It all adds up.

I used to have far worse back pain though for half a year and had to wageslave still.

So, I know a thing or two about pain, I'd say. Luckily I've found a way to deal with that. Now I have to find a way to deal with my elbow pain.

 

[TooSomething]

I know this sounds dark and fucked up, but if you do go, I hope you will go out peacefully.

I also hope that it is true that the soul does not die and you get to go somewhere else or be finally free.
Man, I wish that for you. This mortal body is a pain in the butt.

 

[Emba]

I know this sounds dark and fucked up, but if you do go, I hope you will go out peacefully.

I also hope that it is true that the soul does not die and you get to go somewhere else or be finally free.
Man, I wish that for you. This mortal body is a pain in the butt.

Yeah. The thing about this drug combo is it's inherent dangerousness. I have the feeling its the same exact thing I would get in a nursing home... Meaning; it's designed to kill.

In a way, I like that, it's a lot like "permission" from this realm... (A get out of life free card.)

Ofc, the normies wanting me ded, and giving me "permission" makes me want to rebel and live longer!

I recently sold my shotgun and ammo... And that was my my main exit option.

(Loud and messy.)

Now its gone to some redneck bro of my fren. Who needed it for deer season.

i didn't get full value from it (apx 75%?), but its one less possession to worry about. At least it will.be useful and feed someone.

i mostly used it for yard varmints. Never had any luck hunting with it. Hard to shoot a deer that never shows up.

i ordered a whole shitload of various (wheat and barley) grass tablets that I once used to help cure my spine and it might help my lungs this time. So it's almost like a last resort thing. Try healing it via diet.

 

[VλREN]

I hope not

Your one of the best uses here