So yesterday, around midnight, i was feeling depressed. I was watching some old news with some tragic stories and, between my mood and those, i felt kinda down, and was going to write some post that i bet i would have find really cringey today, but the forum was down so i just went to sleep.
Basically, i was about to write that i'd wish to be positive, a "good" person. Not that i advocate murder or rape or whatever, we all know this is just a forum and we vent in various ways, but i'd wager that almost none of thus really harbors murdering sprees. It's just that i wish to be posiitive and good towards people, even if i know that blackpill is true and my looks deny me the life i wish.
Sometimes i manage to do that: for example (and i know this will sound super cringey) when i see a little girl i somehow feel softened. I wish i could have a good wife, be a father and protect my daughter. Having a male son would be nice too, of course, but those kind of feelings are brought to me when i see a little cute girl (and please itcucks, there is nothing sexual with this).
But then this "positive protective mood" disappears in the moment i face the reality. My father is an old person and, despite that, has a life way better than mine, at least socially (he was cucked and divorced but at least he goes to parties related to his work). He just sent me a pictures with a room full of tables and hot fucking women (between 25 and 35 i guess) with good looking men, probably sports player or managers.
It sent me into depression, again, but in a way that leads me to forget about all the cringey stuff i wrote. I AM UGLY and i WILL NEVER EXPERIMENT something like that. Having a girlfriend that becomes a wife and then a daughter could be still possible, dunno, but i feel that while she would be settling with me i would definetly settling with her.
I wish to sit at a table, being good looking and having hot women around me. Not settling, not being settled for.
Basically, i was about to write that i'd wish to be positive, a "good" person. Not that i advocate murder or rape or whatever, we all know this is just a forum and we vent in various ways, but i'd wager that almost none of thus really harbors murdering sprees. It's just that i wish to be posiitive and good towards people, even if i know that blackpill is true and my looks deny me the life i wish.
Sometimes i manage to do that: for example (and i know this will sound super cringey) when i see a little girl i somehow feel softened. I wish i could have a good wife, be a father and protect my daughter. Having a male son would be nice too, of course, but those kind of feelings are brought to me when i see a little cute girl (and please itcucks, there is nothing sexual with this).
But then this "positive protective mood" disappears in the moment i face the reality. My father is an old person and, despite that, has a life way better than mine, at least socially (he was cucked and divorced but at least he goes to parties related to his work). He just sent me a pictures with a room full of tables and hot fucking women (between 25 and 35 i guess) with good looking men, probably sports player or managers.
It sent me into depression, again, but in a way that leads me to forget about all the cringey stuff i wrote. I AM UGLY and i WILL NEVER EXPERIMENT something like that. Having a girlfriend that becomes a wife and then a daughter could be still possible, dunno, but i feel that while she would be settling with me i would definetly settling with her.
I wish to sit at a table, being good looking and having hot women around me. Not settling, not being settled for.
