Therapywasaaste
"When I look in the mirror, I throw up."
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I just saw that there's already a thread like this but this one's about me.
I always hated school, had few friends, hard time connecting with people, and I'm stupid and lazy so I hate the work too. I wanted to leave as soon as I could, kinda childish but still, being there makes me feel physically ill and I really have no reason to go there, I want to make cartoons and that doesn't require education. When I turned 16 I found out that you can't just drop out at 16 you need parental permission and all that crap (this was last school year but I am still 16 turning 17 soon) I knew I wasn't going to get that so I gave up and decided just to try to graduate.
On Thursday I was feeling like garbage and my oneitis made fun of me. I went home and cried (yes, that was the last straw, I know it's childish and simp behavior and all that, call me what you will, this is what broke me). Yesterday (Friday) My mother was leaving for work and I was leaving for school (we leave at the same time) and I told her how I felt terrible (my stomach felt sick too) and she said she'd be okay if I stayed home.
I told her I didn't want to stay home and I drove to school. I sat in the parking lot for a while, watching the people go by until eventually it was empty, everyone had gone to class. After a while I just decided to drive home. When I got to my driveway I texted my mother and told her that I went home. She called me and asked me about it and I explained to her and she was cool with it. I stayed home Friday.
I don't want to go back. Today I talked to my stepdad about online school he said that would be ok if I was involved in some other extracurriculars and not just staying home all day (totally defeats the purpose). I need a job and want an online one, (it wouldn't work with my stepdad's terms) but I really don't want to go to school. I have no work experience other than volunteering at a library anyway so I doubt I could find an online job anyway. I don't plan on going to school Monday but I don't know how my parents will feel about it.
I'm too tired.
I always hated school, had few friends, hard time connecting with people, and I'm stupid and lazy so I hate the work too. I wanted to leave as soon as I could, kinda childish but still, being there makes me feel physically ill and I really have no reason to go there, I want to make cartoons and that doesn't require education. When I turned 16 I found out that you can't just drop out at 16 you need parental permission and all that crap (this was last school year but I am still 16 turning 17 soon) I knew I wasn't going to get that so I gave up and decided just to try to graduate.
On Thursday I was feeling like garbage and my oneitis made fun of me. I went home and cried (yes, that was the last straw, I know it's childish and simp behavior and all that, call me what you will, this is what broke me). Yesterday (Friday) My mother was leaving for work and I was leaving for school (we leave at the same time) and I told her how I felt terrible (my stomach felt sick too) and she said she'd be okay if I stayed home.
I told her I didn't want to stay home and I drove to school. I sat in the parking lot for a while, watching the people go by until eventually it was empty, everyone had gone to class. After a while I just decided to drive home. When I got to my driveway I texted my mother and told her that I went home. She called me and asked me about it and I explained to her and she was cool with it. I stayed home Friday.
I don't want to go back. Today I talked to my stepdad about online school he said that would be ok if I was involved in some other extracurriculars and not just staying home all day (totally defeats the purpose). I need a job and want an online one, (it wouldn't work with my stepdad's terms) but I really don't want to go to school. I have no work experience other than volunteering at a library anyway so I doubt I could find an online job anyway. I don't plan on going to school Monday but I don't know how my parents will feel about it.
I'm too tired.