It's Over Porn destroyed my sexuality

[Q. H. Cooks]

Tonight I tried to fap to softcore and couldn't do it. Even after like 20 minutes beating my meat, watching several videos of different women masturbating, all of them very pretty, I didn't feel anywhere close to cumming. In fact I was barely feeling pleasure. Then I gave up.

An hour or so later, I open an extreme video of some skinny foid being brutalized in all holes, hard slapped and pissed on in some degen mainstream site and cum in like a minute or so.

My sexuality is completely destroyed. It's not about eroticism and pleasure anymore, it's about something brutal enough to shock me into cumming. The worst part is that watching such foids giggling, moaning and having the time of their lives while being brutalized, hurt, disrespected, and humiliated in the most explicit and dishonorable way possible for millions to see whereas none of them would even go on a payed for romantic date with incels like us is nuclear suifuel. Foids are disgusting and I wish I could kill my attraction to them and become asexual.

We obviously won't get decent studies about this anytime soon, but I strongly feel my sexuality would have developed much differently had I had real life sexual experiences during my crucial developmental teenage years. My best friend is a failed normie who managed to have his first sexual experience with his older female cousin when he was an early teen and he developed a healthy sexuality. Even after a dry spell of almost a decade and fapping every day, he never had to stoop to extreme porn like me. He told me he strictly only faps to softcore because the image of his cousin stripping for him during his first sexual experience got etched in his mind and molded his sexuality. When he had a girlfriend like 10+ years ago, he told me the sex was very much focused on penis in vagina, with hardly any oral and no degen stuff at all.

I'm positive that my sexuality is nuked and will never be anywhere remotely near healthy anymore. And I only started fapping and watching porn relatively old. I feel bad for zoomers and gen alpha guys who'll probably go the same route as me but even in a much more hardcore way since even literal kids watch porn these days and like 50%+ of younger males are incels due to how dating works nowadays.

 

[BlackPilledNormi]

Porn shows me all the time that I dont want a girlfriend, I just want someone who is ready to have willingly sex with me, but I were mostly able to do some pauses/ stop when I realized I came to the point where you are rn

 

[AutistSupremacist]

just take a week off

 

[VλREN]

just take a week off

Or maybe a few months

 

[Caesercel]

just take a week off

I need to do this

 

[Spiteful Mutant]

Yeah, I'm the same way because I have an addictive personality. Coom too frequently to the tamer stuff and it becomes boring, so better shit to jerk off to will be needed at a certain point. It's kind of the hedonic treadmill in action. I find taking a break from porn helps bring my baseline down a peg, which is what I do with caffeine if I find myself becoming overly reliant on it, as well.

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

just take a week off

If I do a mini nofap like that, I can cum to softcore again indeed. But just once, and then I immediately have to go back to extreme stuff again if I want to cum again. I've read that addictions carve pathways on your brain, so even if you get clear for a while, as soon as you engage in the addiction, you're basically completely back to square one since the established brain pathway will cause your tolerance to skyrocket again.

 

[Chirag gupta]

Maybe get a pussy pocket. Might help idk

 

[TheSecondComing]

I finished last night just using this video of a cosplayer on a loop, I think my sexuality isn't completely fucked yet

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

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I finished last night just using this video of a cosplayer on a loop, I think my sexuality isn't completely fucked yet

I'd have to do like a 3 weeks nofap to be able to cum to NN. Once. Then back to square zero for other 3 weeks (assuming I resisted the urge to fap to heavy stuff in this interim, which I'm 99.9% sure I wouldn't).

 

[Caichan]

50%+ of younger males are incels due to how dating works nowadays

No. Incels are about 1-2% of the male population.

 

[undesiredsamsung]

Your brain is gigafried dude

Lay off the porn for a good while

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

No. Incels are about 1-2% of the male population.

I mean, granted that many of those young guys will eventually ascend if they have enough looks. But it's undeniable that the fact dating for younger people pretty much exclusively goes through social media and dating apps these days (where ugly and even bland males get absolutely nothing) makes it much harder for them compared to back when IRL interactions and social circle game was the dominant thing.

So, even if they ascend someday, many of them will end up with a botched sexuality like mine due to expending their developmental years fapping to increasingly extreme porn instead of building actual intimate connections with foids.

 

[undesiredsamsung]

Your brain is gigafried dude

Lay off the porn for a good while

I wouldn’t reccomend it but AI has been a lot more fun than just watching pixels do stuff on a screen

A lot of the fetishes and self inserts I can do with AI has completely fucked with my arousal pathway for sure I need to lay off of this shit

 

[shitskinmogger88]

Foids are disgusting and I wish I could kill my attraction to them and become asexual

I used to take tramadol for anxiety and it honestly just made me more emotionally numb and asexual

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

Your brain is gigafried dude

Lay off the porn for a good while

I wish I could. I'm severely addicted, I feel like I can't calm down unless I cum as soon as it's nighttime.

 

[undesiredsamsung]

I wish I could. I'm severely addicted, I

Same here, this is the only thing that I have hard time withdrawing from. Compared to caffeine, alcohol, and marijuana.

feel like I can calm down unless I cum as soon as it's nighttime.

For me , what I think what triggers it is that I’m alone a lot in my bedroom and bored. Most of it is my fault though because the only way I can physically force myself to do no fap is to physically tire out my body. If I constantly move my body throughout the day the urge doesn’t really hit as hard as compared to Ldaring all day.

I’ve been lazy as a cat though, just been Ldaring a lot. Which urges me to jerk off 3x a day since I’m bored.

 

[undesiredsamsung]

Same here, this is the only thing that I have hard time withdrawing from. Compared to caffeine, alcohol, and marijuana.

For me , what I think what triggers it is that I’m alone a lot in my bedroom and bored. Most of it is my fault though because the only way I can physically force myself to do no fap is to physically tire out my body. If I constantly move my body throughout the day the urge doesn’t really hit as hard as compared to Ldaring all day.

I’ve been lazy as a cat though, just been Ldaring a lot. Which urges me to jerk off 3x a day since I’m bored.

But there are days where I hit a point where I don’t even fap for 2-3days straight just because I’m overstimulated.

 

[ogreism]

I was addicted to porn. The best thing you can do is stop watching it for a couple of months, and if you have the urge to masturbate, don’t watch porn, use your imagination. It’s not going to be easy, but it’s the best thing you can do.

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

I used to take tramadol for anxiety and it honestly just made me more emotionally numb and asexual

Thanks for the recommendation. I took antidepressants before and I remember hoping that they'd kill my libido but all they did was making it even much harder to cum.

Same here, this is the only thing that I have hard time withdrawing from. Compared to caffeine, alcohol, and marijuana.

It's the ultimate addiction. I was exaggerating on sugar for a while and it was very easy to just stop buying sugary stuff. I already lost weight and felt an improvement in my insulin response. But porn is the final boss, it's extremely addicting and available 24/7 without any money or effort having to be put. And being an incel makes it even much harder. Many of the successful nofap accounts mention supportive gfs and wives. It's insane to do it alone.

For me , what I think what triggers it is that I’m alone a lot in my bedroom and bored. Most of it is my fault though because the only way I can physically force myself to do no fap is to physically tire out my body. If I constantly move my body throughout the day the urge doesn’t really hit as hard as compared to Ldaring all day.

I’ve been lazy as a cat though, just been Ldaring a lot. Which urges me to jerk off 3x a day since I’m bored.

I can't even do it that much nowadays, I do it twice a day sometimes and that's it. I've failed to reach orgasm even with the most extreme and stimulating (HD, multiple camera angles) legal porn I could find many times before.

 

[anotherwastedlife]

Mine is completely fucked too, I have to wait a week before I can even wank to anything now

 

[shitskinmogger88]

Thanks for the recommendation. I took antidepressants before and I remember hoping that they'd kill my libido but all they did was making it even much harder to cum.

If u wanna kill ur libido Benzodiazapines such as Xanax or Klonopin will do that, they just make everything numb, but i dont recommend Drugs only as a last resort if ur hypersexual or something.

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

If u wanna kill ur libido Benzodiazapines such as Xanax or Klonopin will do that, they just make everything numb, but i dont recommend Drugs only as a last resort if ur hypersexual or something.

Bro I take Klonopin every day, I have severe insomnia as well so I can't even fall asleep if I don't mix them with melatonin pills. I was under the effect of it just now when I came to the aforementioned video, lol.

Never felt any effect in my libido using them.

 

[AdamWarlock12]

I haven't been able to leave it either, by the way, this is the first post I've read here

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

@AdamWarlock12 brutal failed reply first post, but I'm honored that your first post was about me anyways.

 

[shitskinmogger88]

Bro I take Klonopin every day, I have severe insomnia as well so I can't even fall asleep if I don't mix them with melatonin pills. I was under the effect of it just now when I came to the aforementioned video, lol.

Never felt any effect in my libido using them.

Daily? I hope ur not using that daily for libido only since daily use can acc increases libido so probably not a good idea, unless you need it for smth else, if your looking for libido lowering use something like Zoloft, not klodo anymore cause of fried gaba a receptors

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

Daily? I hope ur not using that daily for libido only since daily use can acc increases libido so probably not a good idea, unless you need it for smth else, if your looking for libido lowering use something like Zoloft, not klodo anymore cause of fried gaba a receptors

No, I use it be able to fall asleep. Thank you for that other recommendation, I've been wanting to stop Klonopin substituting it for something else.

 

[shitskinmogger88]

No, I use it be able to fall asleep. Thank you for that other recommendation, I've been wanting to stop Klonopin substituting it for something else.

No problem

 

[GreerTech Creations]

Tonight I tried to fap to softcore and couldn't do it. Even after like 20 minutes beating my meat, watching several videos of different women masturbating, all of them very pretty, I didn't feel anywhere close to cumming. In fact I was barely feeling pleasure. Then I gave up.

An hour or so later, I open an extreme video of some skinny foid being brutalized in all holes, hard slapped and pissed on in some degen mainstream site and cum in like a minute or so.

My sexuality is completely destroyed. It's not about eroticism and pleasure anymore, it's about something brutal enough to shock me into cumming. The worst part is that watching such foids giggling, moaning and having the time of their lives while being brutalized, hurt, disrespected, and humiliated in the most explicit and dishonorable way possible for millions to see whereas none of them would even go on a payed for romantic date with incels like us is nuclear suifuel. Foids are disgusting and I wish I could kill my attraction to them and become asexual.

We obviously won't get decent studies about this anytime soon, but I strongly feel my sexuality would have developed much differently had I had real life sexual experiences during my crucial developmental teenage years. My best friend is a failed normie who managed to have his first sexual experience with his older female cousin when he was an early teen and he developed a healthy sexuality. Even after a dry spell of almost a decade and fapping every day, he never had to stoop to extreme porn like me. He told me he strictly only faps to softcore because the image of his cousin stripping for him during his first sexual experience got etched in his mind and molded his sexuality. When he had a girlfriend like 10+ years ago, he told me the sex was very much focused on penis in vagina, with hardly any oral and no degen stuff at all.

I'm positive that my sexuality is nuked and will never be anywhere remotely near healthy anymore. And I only started fapping and watching porn relatively old. I feel bad for zoomers and gen alpha guys who'll probably go the same route as me but even in a much more hardcore way since even literal kids watch porn these days and like 50%+ of younger males are incels due to how dating works nowadays.

Just take a break from porn, do literally anything else.

 

[ThePornographer]

An hour or so later, I open an extreme video of some skinny foid being brutalized in all holes, hard slapped and pissed on in some degen mainstream site and cum in like a minute or so.

Your brain need more

Even after a dry spell of almost a decade and fapping every day, he never had to stoop to extreme porn like me. He told me he strictly only faps to softcore because the image of his cousin stripping for him during his first sexual experience got etched in his mind and molded his sexuality.

Brutal suicide fuel

I'm positive that my sexuality is nuked and will never be anywhere remotely near healthy anymore

Wrong.

It is possible and quicker than you think, you just have to stop for a month, the real issue is that once your dopamine is getting healthy again, you will masturbate to soft core and quickly go back to hard porn again.

So even if you can heal and quickly get back into softcore, you also will quickly get back into hardcore if you do not learn to deal with your dopamine flow managment.

 

[Q. H. Cooks]

It is possible and quicker than you think, you just have to stop for a month, the real issue is that once your dopamine is getting healthy again, you will masturbate to soft core and quickly go back to hard porn again.

So even if you can heal and quickly get back into softcore, you also will quickly get back into hardcore if you do not learn to deal with your dopamine flow managment.

It sounds like the only way to fix it is to abstain from porn forever, which is not only an unrealistic expectation but also not the ideal goal since I'm an incel who isn't ever getting real sex.

The best thing would be to only fap to softcore, somehow spacing my fap sessions at least one week away from each other and controlling the urges and chaser effect kicks.

 

[Hikicripple]

I mean, granted that many of those young guys will eventually ascend if they have enough looks. But it's undeniable that the fact dating for younger people pretty much exclusively goes through social media and dating apps these days (where ugly and even bland males get absolutely nothing) makes it much harder for them compared to back when IRL interactions and social circle game was the dominant thing.

So, even if they ascend someday, many of them will end up with a botched sexuality like mine due to expending their developmental years fapping to increasingly extreme porn instead of building actual intimate connections with foids.

They will become cucks to used up sluts

 

[ThePornographer]

The best thing would be to only fap to softcore, somehow spacing my fap sessions at least one week away from each other and controlling the urges and chaser effect kicks.

Exactly , and use your dopamine for other " cope " like video game or whatever, because once your brain start to have a natural dopamine flow again, it's your decision to actually use it for porn or something else , it's not easy, but not impossible.

 

[Kan>Foids]

It sounds like the only way to fix it is to abstain from porn forever, which is not only an unrealistic expectation but also not the ideal goal since I'm an incel who isn't ever getting real sex.

The best thing would be to only fap to softcore, somehow spacing my fap sessions at least one week away from each other and controlling the urges and chaser effect kicks.

I think you have a good starting point idea to not completely cut out porn but to massively decrease your time consuming it.

My advice would be lay off of porn entirely for a week or maybe two. See how long you can go before you feel yourself thinking to yourself "i can't live without this". When you start feeling that way, (I'm going to sound like a fucking normie), use that time to exercise instead. I can't fucking stand sports, but even I play basketball to get my cardio. When I'm finished playing for like 20-30 minutes, I feel energized for a while and then tired after the adrenaline goes down. Even if you don't want to do that, try reading or solving puzzles. Anything to stimulate yourself, preferably away from a computer so you're not tempted.

What other people said is right. Once you can only start getting off to the extreme, fetishy stuff, and not just simple blowjob, bouncing titties, or more normal stuff, that's when you know it's a genuine problem. I think in your case you should go for a gradual decrease instead of a cold turkey approach.