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a-level exams will go tragically + don't know what's going on (maths, economics, chemistry)
summer plan:
- reread berserk at 1AM
- rewatch akira
- watch one flew over the cuckoos nest
- watch jacob's ladder
- clean house
- order food more
- talk to parents more
- watch porn more
i have what feels like a constant anchor in my chest. i think i am afraid of what the future might be for me and where i might be in a year. i had a similar feeling during my gcses but it has never been as pronounced as now. coming from east asian descent i think its tragic i will have to say i found them easy when my parents ask otherwise they will send more suffering my way. i have a hatred for all privileged caucasians and any who are accepted in their social circles. i dont think my life will ever reach the same sense of accomplishment as them. i think my short stature, face and life experience has ruined all chances of leading a fulfilling life without making the bigbucks (which i cant do because i know i will flunk my alevels because of a lack of preparation, procrastination and so on
the treatment of east asians is not talked enough and is being overshadowed by black 'racial equality', because east asians are less likely to report how theyve been treated by these very people. for one example of many, our family were mocked in a resturant by some pricks. this is partly why i don't go outside anymore. see, we didnt record it and campaign for 'equal rights.' we paid the bill and left the resturant. i think all privileged caucasians to some extent view asians as lesser than them and some are honest about it. i respect them slightly more than those whose passive aggression leave you guessing at what you could have possibly done wrong to them except exist in the hideous form you are
i think euthanasia should be legalised in the uk. currently both assisted suicide and euthanasia are illegal, but apparently suicide is not. im sure there must be a righteous moral reason for that. in the netherlands where euthanasia is legal, the conditions to be euthanised are (wikapedia):
- the patient's suffering is unbearable with no prospect of improvement
- the patient's request for euthanasia must be voluntary and persist over time (the request cannot be granted when under the influence of others, psychological illness or drugs)
- the patient must be fully aware of his/her condition, prospects, and options
- there must be consultation with at least one other independent doctor who needs to confirm the conditions mentioned above
- the death must be carried out in a medically appropriate fashion by the doctor or patient, and the doctor must be present
- the patient is at least 12 years old (patients between 12 and 16 years of age require the consent of their parents)
i meet all those conditions. although i can try committing suicide, it has a high chance of failure. if it fails, i will be in more suffering than i was before and might be committed to a psych ward where i will undergo even more suffering! i think thats just hilarious. i also think its hilarious how privileged life preserving caucasians gape at how someone can have such desires to end their own life and be oblivious to how shitty life can be for someone like me
did you know that suicide was illegal in the uk until the Suicide Act 1961? good thing parliament were there to allow me to end my own misery. i dont know where i would be without them doing a good job like they always do
god save the king, sleep better than me, BLM, peace
summer plan:
- reread berserk at 1AM
- rewatch akira
- watch one flew over the cuckoos nest
- watch jacob's ladder
- clean house
- order food more
- talk to parents more
- watch porn more
i have what feels like a constant anchor in my chest. i think i am afraid of what the future might be for me and where i might be in a year. i had a similar feeling during my gcses but it has never been as pronounced as now. coming from east asian descent i think its tragic i will have to say i found them easy when my parents ask otherwise they will send more suffering my way. i have a hatred for all privileged caucasians and any who are accepted in their social circles. i dont think my life will ever reach the same sense of accomplishment as them. i think my short stature, face and life experience has ruined all chances of leading a fulfilling life without making the bigbucks (which i cant do because i know i will flunk my alevels because of a lack of preparation, procrastination and so on
the treatment of east asians is not talked enough and is being overshadowed by black 'racial equality', because east asians are less likely to report how theyve been treated by these very people. for one example of many, our family were mocked in a resturant by some pricks. this is partly why i don't go outside anymore. see, we didnt record it and campaign for 'equal rights.' we paid the bill and left the resturant. i think all privileged caucasians to some extent view asians as lesser than them and some are honest about it. i respect them slightly more than those whose passive aggression leave you guessing at what you could have possibly done wrong to them except exist in the hideous form you are
i think euthanasia should be legalised in the uk. currently both assisted suicide and euthanasia are illegal, but apparently suicide is not. im sure there must be a righteous moral reason for that. in the netherlands where euthanasia is legal, the conditions to be euthanised are (wikapedia):
- the patient's suffering is unbearable with no prospect of improvement
- the patient's request for euthanasia must be voluntary and persist over time (the request cannot be granted when under the influence of others, psychological illness or drugs)
- the patient must be fully aware of his/her condition, prospects, and options
- there must be consultation with at least one other independent doctor who needs to confirm the conditions mentioned above
- the death must be carried out in a medically appropriate fashion by the doctor or patient, and the doctor must be present
- the patient is at least 12 years old (patients between 12 and 16 years of age require the consent of their parents)
i meet all those conditions. although i can try committing suicide, it has a high chance of failure. if it fails, i will be in more suffering than i was before and might be committed to a psych ward where i will undergo even more suffering! i think thats just hilarious. i also think its hilarious how privileged life preserving caucasians gape at how someone can have such desires to end their own life and be oblivious to how shitty life can be for someone like me
did you know that suicide was illegal in the uk until the Suicide Act 1961? good thing parliament were there to allow me to end my own misery. i dont know where i would be without them doing a good job like they always do
god save the king, sleep better than me, BLM, peace
