my perception of time is fucked. time isn't real. i feel like a human frozen in time, watching others move forward while i remain stagnant.
most of the time i currently spend are on LDARing or sleeping. my sleep schedule is extremely terrible. some days, i have a decent sleep schedule. other days, i turn into a nocturnal animal where i sleep through the day and stay wide awake through the night. i hardly leave my bed, or my room for that matter, and if i do, its because i have to do something urgent. i will often turn on my phone and stare at the clock, watching the time go by doing nothing. sometimes, games and anime/movies helps me cope, but its only temporarily helping me. Minutes go by, hours go by, days go by, weeks go by, months go by, years go by, and nothing happens. Nothing at all. Each day repeats the day before, and the day before that, and the day before that, a constant loop of despair and hopelessness.
most of the time i currently spend are on LDARing or sleeping. my sleep schedule is extremely terrible. some days, i have a decent sleep schedule. other days, i turn into a nocturnal animal where i sleep through the day and stay wide awake through the night. i hardly leave my bed, or my room for that matter, and if i do, its because i have to do something urgent. i will often turn on my phone and stare at the clock, watching the time go by doing nothing. sometimes, games and anime/movies helps me cope, but its only temporarily helping me. Minutes go by, hours go by, days go by, weeks go by, months go by, years go by, and nothing happens. Nothing at all. Each day repeats the day before, and the day before that, and the day before that, a constant loop of despair and hopelessness.
