Having a job would make everything so much easier. When people know you don't have a job they look at you like trash. If women know you're unemployed obviously they steer clear. I have tried to find someone on dating apps and I dread the question "so what do you do?" I don't do anything. I have no friends or family ( I wiped them over the years due to social anxiety and not fitting in with their normie culture) and I hate being asked how I spend my time because it reminds me of my empty life and shitty situation. I have an operation coming up soon (not a looks fag one) and I literally have to stay an extra night because I don't have anyone to pick me up. I secretly hope I don't wake up from the anesthetic. Oh and dealing with hospital doctors and nurses is sui fuel. I felt very uncomfortable around the female nurses and they picked up on it. Fucking gossiping bitches. Sorry if this boring.
