the last chapter of my oneitis struggle:
so i saw her a few minutes ago. (i did not get her a gift. thanks for putting some logic in me.)
i understood today how much pain she gives me. i always think about her like a cuck, but honestly when the time comes to see her im just feeling really bad because of anxiety. and after i leave after our session...... wow. i feel very suicidal. knowing its over and i will not see her soon.
i always think about everything we said and what i could have said better.
most of the time im just rotting in my apartment, but everytime its the time to see her i suddenly have the energy to style my hair, to dress nice.
she also had gloves today because of the chinese virus. this made me really sad. usually i try to make a few jokes so we wont just talk about my injury, but today i fetl really high inhb.
but today after all wasnt out last session. she said i will need one more but it will only happen in 6 weeks due to the chinese virus.
6 weeks.
she is my drug and i cant see her for 6 weeks. and the thing is? everytime during our session i just tell my self in the head - she is nothing, just a cute foid that touch you cuz its her job, but she isnt like a god or something, why the fuck would i when i come home be depressed about not being near her?
but it doesnt help.
that only shows how hungry i am to the companionship of foids. to the touch. to even look at them. it doesnt matter that i know they are just low iq holes.
we men are programmed to need that companionship.
in those 6 weeks i think i will go to a therapist, im really scared of me roping after the final session with my oneitis.
and the most brutal thing is - im nothing to her. she doesnt think about me even 0.000001% of the time i think about her.
im only patient number 432432 to her. after she finish work she goes to her enginner chad bf that fucks her all day.
inb4 all the "you arent black pilled if you got oneitis" low iq tards
so i saw her a few minutes ago. (i did not get her a gift. thanks for putting some logic in me.)
i understood today how much pain she gives me. i always think about her like a cuck, but honestly when the time comes to see her im just feeling really bad because of anxiety. and after i leave after our session...... wow. i feel very suicidal. knowing its over and i will not see her soon.
i always think about everything we said and what i could have said better.
most of the time im just rotting in my apartment, but everytime its the time to see her i suddenly have the energy to style my hair, to dress nice.
she also had gloves today because of the chinese virus. this made me really sad. usually i try to make a few jokes so we wont just talk about my injury, but today i fetl really high inhb.
but today after all wasnt out last session. she said i will need one more but it will only happen in 6 weeks due to the chinese virus.
6 weeks.
she is my drug and i cant see her for 6 weeks. and the thing is? everytime during our session i just tell my self in the head - she is nothing, just a cute foid that touch you cuz its her job, but she isnt like a god or something, why the fuck would i when i come home be depressed about not being near her?
but it doesnt help.
that only shows how hungry i am to the companionship of foids. to the touch. to even look at them. it doesnt matter that i know they are just low iq holes.
we men are programmed to need that companionship.
in those 6 weeks i think i will go to a therapist, im really scared of me roping after the final session with my oneitis.
and the most brutal thing is - im nothing to her. she doesnt think about me even 0.000001% of the time i think about her.
im only patient number 432432 to her. after she finish work she goes to her enginner chad bf that fucks her all day.
inb4 all the "you arent black pilled if you got oneitis" low iq tards
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