
Wiseman
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It's been so long since the last time I was on SSRIs, but I'm thinking of taking them again. My experience with them wasn't bad; they helped curb my negative thoughts and improved my ability to cope. The latter is very important, since lately I've been unable to enjoy the two classic incel copes--video games and anime. Without these two, there's nothing much for me to do as a NEET other than mindless browsing (shit-tier cope) and the occasional book reading (another cope that's becoming increasingly difficult). So why haven't I taken them yet, you might ask. Well, the problem I've always faced with SSRIs is that their effect wears out with time until they become almost completely ineffective. Hence, I thought I should save them for possible future situations where I could no longer hide and have to deal with people.
It seems, then, that I'm at a dilemma. Should I prioritize the present at the (possible) cost of the future? Or should I play it safe? Keep in mind that I'm living in mental hell right now, and I can neither cope nor have a peaceful sleep. This state of living (if it could even be called living) is becoming so unbearable that I find myself leaning towards the first option.
It seems, then, that I'm at a dilemma. Should I prioritize the present at the (possible) cost of the future? Or should I play it safe? Keep in mind that I'm living in mental hell right now, and I can neither cope nor have a peaceful sleep. This state of living (if it could even be called living) is becoming so unbearable that I find myself leaning towards the first option.