
Numetalist
existing, not living
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- Joined
- Dec 15, 2024
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I was at the store today, picking up an item for my mom. It was a beauty/wellness store so I already was not trying to be in there.
Long story short, I couldnt find something, and a lady asked me if I needed help, she was visibly older than me and was really nice to me, I learned about her job and how she moves locations for work.
She actually talked to me like I was a human, like I wasn't a specter. I wanted to ask for her name or her number so we could talk more, but in my mind, all these thoughts and videos came back to me.
I remembered how people on IT say we feel "entitled" to a relationship or sex just because we're being "nice," or how they say that women just want to be left alone, or how It would make me look like some sort of weirdo if she rejected me in a place like this.
So i just added some closing remark, got my item and left.
The stuff that women online propagate, as much as I hate to admit it, gets to me sometimes. I cant allow myself to push anything further with women because women make it seem like that's such a vile and creepy thing to do. I already don't look the best, so idk what would've happened. It's just kinda upsetting.
Even more upsetting is that this shit never ever happens. Idk when I'll be able to talk to a woman who actually seems interested in me ever again. Or maybe she just liked talking about herself to someone else. Idk. It's hard to live in such a state of uncertainty.
Hope everyone is having a good day i guess though.
Long story short, I couldnt find something, and a lady asked me if I needed help, she was visibly older than me and was really nice to me, I learned about her job and how she moves locations for work.
She actually talked to me like I was a human, like I wasn't a specter. I wanted to ask for her name or her number so we could talk more, but in my mind, all these thoughts and videos came back to me.
I remembered how people on IT say we feel "entitled" to a relationship or sex just because we're being "nice," or how they say that women just want to be left alone, or how It would make me look like some sort of weirdo if she rejected me in a place like this.
So i just added some closing remark, got my item and left.
The stuff that women online propagate, as much as I hate to admit it, gets to me sometimes. I cant allow myself to push anything further with women because women make it seem like that's such a vile and creepy thing to do. I already don't look the best, so idk what would've happened. It's just kinda upsetting.
Even more upsetting is that this shit never ever happens. Idk when I'll be able to talk to a woman who actually seems interested in me ever again. Or maybe she just liked talking about herself to someone else. Idk. It's hard to live in such a state of uncertainty.
Hope everyone is having a good day i guess though.