Serious Oldcels, do you hate your former selves?

[Divergent_Integral]

I know I do. Not only was I a bratty know-it-all übernerd (far worse than now), I was also intolerably, nauseatingly , filled with ideals of soulmates, unconditional acceptance, and similar saccharine shit. Were I to meet my 18-year-old self, I would beat the crap out of him, in an attempt to rid him of the . It probably wouldn't work, though, because I was (and still am) as stubborn as a mule. Still, that young idiot needs to be taught a lesson.

 

[Transcended Trucel]

Yes my old self was too slow when it came to money maxxing. If I was more try hard I could have been like this currycel I know who is at 1 million plus networth while being 32, while I am sticking at a few hundred . That fucktard is earning like 300k at his tech job

 

[WarriorSkull]

No. As i've gained perspective, I never really had a chance. So many things conspired against me that I would have had to of been some spiritual prodigy to not drown in this Sea of Lies we are swimming in and emerge from the depths to find Truth alone and against the tide.

 

[Subhuman Niceguy]

I feel sorry for myself, because I never really stood a chance.

 

[ShowerTaker]

Only if I could go back to my early teenage years and tell myself how important physical appearance is, maybe, just maybe I would have taken care of myself and not ended up as this lonely loser I am today. Wish someone was there to help me, but no. I was fed only with bluepill lies and deceptions.

 

[Fat Link]

No.

As all I ever needed was a worthy guide to red and black pill me on women and life in general.

Unfortunately I had to find out the truth on my own and in a way become my own guide, after experiencing far too much unnecessary psychological pain.

 

[highinhibition]

Don't consider myself oldcel yet imo that's >=30 yo
I am 23

 

[Subhuman Niceguy]

No.

As all I ever needed was a worthy guide to red and black pill me on women and life in general.

Unfortunately I had to find out the truth on my own and in a way become my own guide, after experiencing far too much unnecessary psychological pain.

I agree, I chose "no" also. I had to make all my own mistakes, because I have no brothers or sisters.

 

[Therapywasaaste]

I'm the same guy I'm just wiser and more self aware now. I hate the way I was born not who I am.

 

[Deleted member 35428]

No.

As all I ever needed was a worthy guide to red and black pill me on women and life in general.

Unfortunately I had to find out the truth on my own and in a way become my own guide, after experiencing far too much unnecessary psychological pain.

How old are you bro? Aren’t you gen X? If so you could be (technically) be my father

I'm the same guy I'm just wiser and more self aware now. I hate the way I was born not who I am.

Dude you’re literally 15

 

[Therapywasaaste]

Dude you’re literally 15

I didn't read the title all the way sorry

 

[thevenon]

I hate my actual self

 

[Deleted member 36776]

Author Stephen King said that we tend to get stuck at age 18 -- that we are forever, in more ways than not, the sort of person we were at that age. At least for men. I agree with that. I'm the same person I was when I graduated high school when it comes to instinct and behavior. The ultimate blackpill is that the thinking "I" in your head only has so much power to alter the path of the elephant that is your personhood.

 

[Deleted member 19858]

I hate my actual self

ur not old

 

[Deleted member 35428]

I didn't read the title all the way

You’re fucking 15. I HOPE you’re getting good sleep and maintaining a nutritious diet. Please make sure you maximize the potential you get from puberty and start saving your money for possible future surgeries.

 

[Therapywasaaste]

You’re fucking 15. I HOPE you’re getting good sleep and maintaining a nutritious diet. Please make sure you maximize the potential you get from puberty and start saving your money for possible future surgeries.

I'm trying.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

start saving your money for possible future surgeries.

Hopefully they are medically necessary.

 

[Sennacherib]

I don't ruminate about the past anymore,it's a waste of mental energy.

 

[Steiner Ex Machina]

No. As i've gained perspective, I never really had a chance. So many things conspired against me that I would have had to of been some spiritual prodigy to not drown in this Sea of Lies we are swimming in and emerge from the depths to find Truth alone and against the tide.

This. And believe me, I fighted against this fate like motherfucking Guts from Berserk, but nothing of it mattered, the proof is that I'm here.

 

[FrothySolutions]

I didn't read the title all the way sorry

You're 15???

 

[Divergent_Integral]

Author Stephen King said that we tend to get stuck at age 18 -- that we are forever, in more ways than not, the sort of person we were at that age. At least for men. I agree with that. I'm the same person I was when I graduated high school when it comes to instinct and behavior. The ultimate blackpill is that the thinking "I" in your head only has so much power to alter the path of the elephant that is your personhood.

Actually I agree with that, up to a point. As far as the really fundamental character stuff is concerned, I haven't changed much. (Other people have said that about me as well.) It's just that in the face of overwhelming empirical evidence of foids not wanting me, I had to completely disown my former beliefs in order to maintain the integrity of my rational mind. I hate myself for having needed to obtain that empirical evidence, instead of having deduced the myself. Perhaps unfairly so, but it is what it is.

 

[Therapywasaaste]

You're 15???

Yea

 

[Caesercel]

Not really. My younger self was far more superior to my current self. Haughty, better looking, intelligent, self-respecting, a little bit arrogant. Infact my young self would've roped if he found out the mistakes I made and the person I became.

 

[Deleted member 35428]

I'm trying.

Good for you man. It’s your future on the line. I wish I did a few things differently, I’m 18 but glad you’re here. Just be sure to work hard and study.

 

[Fat Link]

How old are you bro? Aren’t you gen X? If so you could be (technically) be my father

Yes, but I’d rather not say.

I’m indeed old but at least not @Emba tier old.

As for that last thing you said? Err yes technically true I suppose.

 

[thevenon]

Author Stephen King said that we tend to get stuck at age 18 -- that we are forever, in more ways than not, the sort of person we were at that age. At least for men. I agree with that. I'm the same person I was when I graduated high school when it comes to instinct and behavior. The ultimate blackpill is that the thinking "I" in your head only has so much power to alter the path of the elephant that is your personhood.

I'm also the same but on antidepressants.

 

[lemon21]

Actually i feel like i regressed a bit, at 18 i was in my peak and now im at the lowest point in my life. not only now im fat which i wasnt till a couple of years ago but i also have a shitty diet and live drinking soda. i've no future prospects and i seem to have 0 motivation to do productive things

 

[based_meme]

I feel embarrassment towards my old self, but not hate.

 

[Deleted member 35428]

Yes, but I’d rather not say.

I’m indeed old but at least not @Emba tier old.

he is my grandfather.

As for that last thing you said? Err yes technically true I suppose.

Lmao, crazy how diverse this site is. We have gen Z kids and middle aged men. From shanty house poverty to the very wealthy members who are living the good life. People of all ethnic and religious backgrounds come here together. It’s really beautiful.

 

[Fat Link]

Author Stephen King said that we tend to get stuck at age 18 -- that we are forever, in more ways than not, the sort of person we were at that age. At least for men. I agree with that. I'm the same person I was when I graduated high school when it comes to instinct and behavior. The ultimate blackpill is that the thinking "I" in your head only has so much power to alter the path of the elephant that is your personhood.

Pretty close to how I’ve long thought of myself ie since cunts would never ever give me a chance.

I’m basically eternally trapped in a very real Peter Pan type of way of forever being a 17 year old boy.

Sure, I’ve grown physically and mentally matured a lot more since that time but because I missed a fundamental human rite of passage I will forever be stunted in my overall growth as a human being and yes I do viciously hate and blame Jews for this, for ruining young women’s minds intentionally with feminism in both the interests of white genocide as well cucking the entire male population regardless of race with broken families and single mother homes just as well as I hate the women for being too stupid to resist the brainwashing and the men that came long before us for not listening to Uncle Adolf, Commander Rockwell and Dr. Pierce.

Whenever I see a foul mouthed, tatted up, hip hop, nigger loving piece of trash female out in the world where instead there should be standing a woman of class, elegance and grace, with a sweet and kind humble nature, I make it a point to always remember she didn’t get this way and become the absolute scum of the fucking earth in a vacuum.

No, she had the filthy Jew archetypal Weinstein hand up her proverbial butt, puppet mastering her into the race ruining, nation wrecking role of a lifetime.

 

[based_meme]

It’s really beautiful.

Not only that, we have KKK members, Neo Nazis, and orthodox Jews. We have every religion, creed, and philosophy here.

For a place where ugly, romantically hopeless men come to congregate, it's ironically very beautiful indeed. Those divisions and differences mean nothing here.

 

[Deleted member 35428]

Not only that, we have KKK members, Neo Nazis, and orthodox Jews. We have every religion, creed, and philosophy here.

What the KKK is still a thing? Lmao.

For a place where ugly, romantically hopeless men come to congregate, it's ironically very beautiful indeed.

I actually feel a deep connection to most users here. It’s something I can’t really explain.

 

[based_meme]

What the KKK is still a thing? Lmao.

@BummerDrummer

 

[Deleted member 34074]

Doesnt farking matter, I cant do shit about it.

 

[Deleted member 35428]

@BummerDrummer

You’ve gotta be kidding me. No way. LMAO

 

[based_meme]

You’ve gotta be kidding me. No way. LMAO

Just click on his name and look at the profile gif. KEK

 

[Deleted member 37148]

Does the tfl life get any easier with age?

 

[Divergent_Integral]

Does the tfl life get any easier with age?

For me, it has gotten a bit easier since fully swallowing the . Life without hope may not be the nicest thing, but it sure beats life with repeatedly demolished hope. Also, I slowly feel my libido becoming somewhat less insistent.

 

[Deleted member 35428]

Just click on his name and look at the profile gif. KEK

That’s a gif from the 1915 movie “The birth of a nation” I watched it for an American history project actually. @BummerDrummer have you seen it?

 

[HeroinNihilism]

i was a hardly lucid insufferable drug addict that lived among some of the most disgusting types of people u could ever imagine

 

[IncelWithHate]

I know I do. Not only was I a bratty know-it-all übernerd (far worse than now), I was also intolerably, nauseatingly , filled with ideals of soulmates, unconditional acceptance, and similar saccharine shit. Were I to meet my 18-year-old self, I would beat the crap out of him, in an attempt to rid him of the . It probably wouldn't work, though, because I was (and still am) as stubborn as a mule. Still, that young idiot needs to be taught a lesson.

I do detest my past self, in hindsight I wish I had studymaxxed more, had trained more efficiently, learned more about financial success and was more cognizant of the social cues around me. However, none of these factors would have changed my inceldom - they would just have made my current lifestyle more comfortable such as indulging in my copes. I am ethnic, manlet and have poor facial features so it was over before it even began. Being introverted and having a preference to living alone, I think I have been able to deal with being a wizardcel better than others. I still get sporadic bouts of depression when I remember I will never be accepted or even lose my v-card.

As an oldcel, I have become extremely good at reading people and situations. Now, I can interact with normies when necessary and subvert my natural inclination towards high inhibition when people attempt to intimidate/bully me. That may at least be partly attributed to gymmaxxing however. A younger me would just accept the abuse, laugh it off, etc.

 

[InMyCellInHell]

I know I do. Not only was I a bratty know-it-all übernerd (far worse than now), I was also intolerably, nauseatingly , filled with ideals of soulmates, unconditional acceptance, and similar saccharine shit. Were I to meet my 18-year-old self, I would beat the crap out of him, in an attempt to rid him of the . It probably wouldn't work, though, because I was (and still am) as stubborn as a mule. Still, that young idiot needs to be taught a lesson.

I never stopped hating myself.

 

[Deleted member 5712]

Yes ver ymuch so
I unironically used to ave 50 dollars extra every momth after i paid all my things and instead of doing anything positive with it i would give it to a cam whore. I would donate 10 dollars to her every 10 minutes so for about an hour a month she would talk to me. She gave me her number after i donated a lot. Great right? No. Because all donators had her number. You could text her only when she asked. And her reply would be one word responses. But thats all i had. Other forums will say if i saved my money and got dressed and took a shower i could have got a gf. They dont know what the FUCK they are talking about.

i did that. I worked. I went out. I tried saving momey. I tried making friends. In the end all that ended up happening was paying a whore to talk to me because girls wanted nothing to do with me. When i say cam whores were all i had i mean it. And lnowing i “donated” so much momey and time to whores pisses me off.

 

[SchrodingersDick]

Definitely. had rightthinking PUA phase, got tattoos and piercing and coped circles around baldness. Was a typical jestermaxxer.. I was insufferable af and cringe thinking about some of the shit I said and did, if 18 year old me walked into the room right now I’d fuck him up and set him straight

mostly I was confused about everything and hadn’t formed a worldview yet or even thought about the process of adopting a belief system. Was just manic and confused and lost, no stability or support in my life, no friends, no girlfriend, no in-group, had just left high school and so I had spent my entire life being bullied and humiliated, dad never taught me anything of value, the extent of his parenting was “get good grades and don’t make any efforts to fit in at school, or else violence”. Tbh I can learn more from 2 minutes on the internet than I can from him in a lifetime. Ya it was all shit. Add baldness to that, and I was destroyed forever. I was able to hype myself up with hopes of making up for my lost youth for a couple years, but I’m 27 now, will be 28 next month. All hope is gone and I’m just kind of paralyzed now. I used to be one of the smartest kids in my class, but It’s imposisble to expend any mental energy now. It’s all so exhausting. Now I am pretty much relegated to doing repetitive primitive work for money. The type of shit that’s the first to be automated.

on second thought I wouldn’t fuck up 18 year old me. I’d blackpill him instead. Make sense of reality, it’s not confusing or complicated at all.

hopefully I don’t look back on current me in the future and cringe. Idk.

 

[BummerDrummerOG]

That’s a gif from the 1915 movie “The birth of a nation” I watched it for an American history project actually. @BummerDrummer have you seen it?

ive watched the whole thing like 3-4 times

i only watch silent movies. Anything usually past 1960 is jewish garbage. Even back then in the 20's there was jewish garbage. itso ver.

 

[Deleted member 35428]

ive watched the whole thing like 3-4 times

It’s one of the most influential movies of all time, that’s me with the “of the dead” trilogy, good stuff.

i only watch silent movies. Anything usually past 1960 is jewish garbage. Even back then in the 20's there was jewish garbage. itso ver.

That’s cool, I’ve got a slow weekend. Any silent movie recommendations?

 

[BummerDrummerOG]

That’s cool, I’ve got a slow weekend. Any silent movie recommendations?

the general or any movie by buster Keaton is alright. It’s a bit different because it’s comedic but I like it’s comedy. Especially the general, it’s comedic but also serious.

The original 1925 phantom of the opera was a realy
Good movie too I really enjoyed it actually it’s prob my favorite horror film

 

[Escthectrler]

he is my grandfather.

Lmao, crazy how diverse this site is. We have gen Z kids and middle aged men. From shanty house poverty to the very wealthy members who are living the good life. People of all ethnic and religious backgrounds come here together. It’s really beautiful.

Diversity is not our strength

 

[Deleted member 35428]

Diversity is not our strength

Cope, I don’t care about some nationalist crap. I prefer being around other sub 5 males. I only feel envy towards GL people.

 

[MinorityNoOneCares]

Yes. My avatar shows why.